I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Grats Dr Quek! Ever happiness to ya both:D

Im begining to wake up later and later.
From 8, to 9, further on to 10 and now....11.

I woke up only to have patrick stare at me. I turned over to check whether I turned off my ipod after my usual night thinking, and guess what. I didnt. HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Jolly good I say jolly good.

I wore ma light blue stripped polo button up with khaki shorts. Oh be damned did I look like a white preppy person. Thank God I wasnt feelin too preppy to wear American Eagle or Abecrombie. HAHAHAH! Omg. Sound likka white prep. HELLA NO!

Oh Oh at the wedding! Not to mention we got LOST. Clementi? Honestly, its my first time there besides that one game we played against some school at Clementi stadium but we had a dam bus to bring us there.

It was a TP-teachers-fest luh. Ms Ler, uncle G, Big Loh, Mr Teong, math's teacher(whats his name?!), biotech head, course manager(the gigolo), of course Dr Quek(the man of the hour[s])

*note to self* ask bindy(osama) to bomb that place. HAHAHAH! I kid I kid.

Well. Like the red carpet, theres best dressed and worst dressed.

Best dressed award goes to: Miley.....CYRUS! No luh miley defi won me. HAHAHA! Black top, black bottom and a red skinny tie. GAY GAY GAY! HAHAH! I still love ya miley! Not as much as AHEM AHEM HAHAHAHAHAH YO MAMA LUH =.=

Worst dressed award goes to: LIPIDS c'monnnnn downnnnn! Honestly man. Learn to dress up.

STAR OF THE DAY award goes to: JANE! YES YES I wanna thank my mom, my dad, my rabbits for helping me today. omg omg important day to me yo! PSSSSSSH as if. I wear whatever makes me feel preppy today. Before I feel preppy today. LOL!

Today, is too much of a good day for me to use my sharp tongue to diss anyone. *someone whispers into my ears* oh right! LIPIDS is an exception. Its sad aint it? Saturday night, free, got a reasonable reason to get out of the house, YET IM INNIT. God is so fair, sometimes it hurts. HAHAHA i mean c'mon! I wanan get out, I dont wanna be cooped up at home, in the sanctions of my 4 walled room. C'mon C'mon C'mon!! URGH! Im so sad, oh so sad, Ive got no life. I actually never had a life, much to most people's utter shock/disbelief, yes, infamous Jane Lee the rippler aint got no life.

LOL! YES PEOPLE.
Yo soy o estoy los desempleada mendiga y yo soy o estoy muy fucking libre!
English translation: I am uneployed beggar and I am extremely fucking free!
Quiero salir! Quiero salir! Me odio estar en la casa! Quiero salir! Quiero salir!
English translation: I wanna go out! I wanna go out! I hate staying at home! I wanna go out! I wanna go out!
Me maldito infierno puta asno su tan aburrido en casa!
English translation: I (bad word-ing) hell (female dog bad ver 1.01) (bad word referring to the female dog's hole) its so boring at home.

Holyshit. I still rmb some of my spanish words! Oh Ms Fischer must be so happy to have me as her student. HAHAH! Cept she never thought me bad words. HAHAH! Either way, my spanish is nothing to be all cheery bout, its degradated to a pile of shit.

Oh theres one more thing I'd like to add. PEOPLE AND THEIR LJs. HAHHAHAHAA! you get the joke outta it right? no? no? awww. LJ = Livejournal. hokay laugh. laugh now please. yesss good. keep laughing. justa bit more. c'mon justa bit more...yessss! Not lan jiao. Im not so crude to refer to a male dick. BODEK. HAHAHAHAH! Either way I dun likkit. I dont like the word Pussy either. Its insult women and Imma femmenist. I have lost faith in men. Women can rise above them.

Ps. I got something for you, its something you want. But I have a feeling your gonna slap me for doing it to you. But nevertheless, I have to get it off my shoulders. On monday you shall see, and I wanna see whether you slap me. ilyamaafklc. C'mon monster, show me watcha got!(:




Friday, October 3, 2008
I lost the battle, won the war.

One word to describe me now. Tired.

Out since morning. Jane cant entertain too many people in one day, and having a lot of important people to entertain is tiresome. Both in person and on the fucking phone.

One thing that really changed my mood was a simple friendship I am too tired to save. Too late to save. As cold and heartless as this may sound, I dont give a fuck. I honestly dont. But why doesnt Jane even try to salvage this friendship? For simple reasons, its not worth my time, I could be worried about something else, something more important, something more worthwhile, then again, the line "she was once so close to you, she used to be my closest bud, she use to crap around with you, yet you've given up?"

How emotionless to this subject I can be?

Rule one, I learn in all my years on earth, which aint a lot, is that. If you care too much, you'll just get hurt in the end. I have stopped caring for you already. People come and go in my life without me noticing, then again I dont notice much. I've developed a "cold resolve" way, which in my standards, its moving on, why cry over spilt milk? I sure am not going to cry over losing you, let alone stand here and wait for you to realise that Im no longer standing by your side. People had suggested lowing my expectations, I wont, cause I dont expect much from you in the first place! I have high expectations for myself, just a little appretiation for the things I go the extra mile for. I've stood up for you when no one wanted to, I've been there when you cried your eyes out, I've written you special cheer up notes when your day decided to take a dump on you, you were a best friend to me, and I cared for you, I cared for your well-being, but now I just took a step back and looked at the big picture.

You didnt give a whimpsy poop. I am disappointed that I have invested so much time in you and you failed me. Others tell me, "Jane, I dont even see why you bother with this sorta person? Why dont you just give up like the rest of us?" Persistent, I am. I will do things for people who I think its worth doing things for. But I was too naive to see pass it. Caring for people like you only makes me feel stupid. Your just like her now, your her twin, I will respect you enough not to judge you.

Oh God, kill me please. I sat on our bench, Big G, I did, and I spoke to you. I told you everything thats been bothering me, I sounded pretty insane thou didnt i? Talking to myself at a deserted bench in the middle of a park.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE.

Went to watch House Bunny! Its like legally blonde justa that the blonde aint a smart one. HAHAHAH! *Bunny stands over the manhole, "AH ITS FUCKIN' HOT!!", and she continues to stand over it* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Went to meet anthea and poks, both of whom I havent seen in a long time. Anthea and I talked, about things, important things and life-scaring things LOL!! I havent talked to her in a longgg time, too long for comfort. Got a few things off my shoulders and got scared for LIFE HAHAH! Yes, anthea I prolly repeated "im scared for life" like 10 times. But what you said had meaning dear friend, it wont befall on deaf ears. This is a test aint it? HAHAHAHAHAH! See how long I can go without going "im scared for life" HAHHHAHA! I wont fail! I cant fail now! I dont want to fail now!

Ok. Im tired. I dont feel like typing or talking to anyone. I couldnt even hold a proper convo with dode who I met at the bus stop. Thou its been a long time since I've talk to my twin. HAHAHAHAHAHAH! "LUUUUUK UP EVERYBUDDY" HAHAHAHAHA! But the surprising thing that happen was, someone sent me a msg, "Be patient with life, BUT GRAB LIFE BY THE BALLS!....." ok the rest I cant say...HAHHAHAH! And yes its things like that that stop me from having angry thoughts, its things like that that remind me of how blessed I am, thou that msg was VERY RANDOM but nevertheless, it made me laugh to myself. Thanks man!

Ps. I know everything now. Ask and you shall recieve. HAHAHAHA!




Thursday, October 2, 2008
Distance of love. Less than 60cm

Wedding gift.
Honestly, I dont do wedding gifts. I mean I do attend weddings and them people were being honoured with my PRESENCE. HAHAHAH! I've never have to crack my head over what to give, mean like, thats what my old folks are for(besides being my atm).

Im done with my next masterpiece! Okay maybe not done-done but I got the basics down, needa patch up some stuff before it can be presented but Im sure it'll be donw tomorrow(:

The amount of people falling sick nowadays! Omg. *scurries to the fridge and pops 3 vit c pills in* Okay I feel safe now! Well Jane can forget about working before school starts, only bout lik 2-3 weeks. School. Oh no my freedom is gone): HAHAHA AS IF. I'll create a new freedom for myself then.

The amount of space people give me sometimes, its fustrating! Its like they wanna be an arm's length away, so that their tenticles can wrap around and pull me when they need my uses. HAHAHA makes me suond likka robot. Sometimes I dont know whether its me you want or my friends! Stop being a lil pest and stop asking me to bring my friends along! And you ask why I hate going out with you. YURCK. Their my friends not yours! Go find your own! LOL! *throws popcorn* I mean asking them out? Only to have them tell me "eh why does ******* keep asking me out? control your friend jane!" HAHAHAHAH! What dont you get? They told you they dont know you well enough to go out with you. Get a life, go find one of your dejected friends and go hang out. Stop pestering my friends. URGH. Kids nowadays! Dont know when to stop being attention seeking fucktards.

NEXT(please change subject before I shoot that person) :D
eh. I dunno what else is on ma mind.
OH! This is random but I've got the sudden liking for red bean. HAHAHAHAH! Not my fault! Sal bought this cup of red bean thing in HK. It tasted like WOOO. And yeah started liking it. HAHAHAH! HOKAY. Enough. Imma go...watch....imma go watch some dvds and kill time.

Ps. mm mm mm $1hotdogs! AHAHAHA waiting to wait for it. I cant beat 10 galaxies thou): Cause I dunno how far that is. But what I do know, is from my heart to my head, its not very far(:




Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Random thoughts that stream into ma head

Courtesy.
Something a lot of Singaporeans LACK.
Jees people. When has saying "Thank you" or "please" ever hurt anyone? I might not be the nicest person on earth but hell, at least I say thanks when the waitor pours me water or removes my plate from the table. I guess it comes when your parents make it mandatory for us(me siblings and meself) to be courteous. HAHAHAH! At least I got manners! HA! o.o

I cant stand it when lil singaporean spoilt brats take courtesy for granted and think the world's theirs. Makes me wanna rip the fat heads of that chicken shit neck that their mama's gave em. Im spoilt, but I aint that spoilt. Then again, daddy dont allow anyone to be spoilt in my family HAHAHAH! *quickly scratches the thought of getting another bag*

But honestly, next time someone does something nice for you, it wouldnt hurt to say thanks. It might make the person's day, it might not, but it definately wont hurt their day. Thinking back, I should've thanked my friends for the things they've done for me, yet Jane was a juvenile deliquent and couldnt think straight because she was trying to be preoccupied so she wouldnt have to face it. HAHAHAHH! THANKS MA BESTIES and BUDDIES. Especially LANZY KONG(who took the most shit from me, the things I'd crap around with you are limitless), JANEY(who stood by me even when you had your million problems. Sec4 you disappeared from my life, now you reappear), FLORA FUCKER YONG(the only one who can stop me from flaring up, fuck you piggy! HAHAHAHA!) MANPOKS(my gay fucker! hokay that sounds wrong. BUT TELL ME MORE! IM FASCINATED), ANTHEA ANQI AUNTY(HAHAHAHAHAHA! your hilarious, dont cramp up now!!) LUCKY DUN BITE ME(slitty ppl reign supreme! HAHAHA ahhhh *runs away* dun bite dun bite!!) And YOU, what can I say? Serious everything bout you amazes me(: Stay cute!

OH I forgot to include the funniest thing that happen in HK.

I was waddling back to the MTR station(not MRT, chill) on the overhead pass after my morning dimsum, then I saw a crowd gathered and staring down. And I heard vague yellings, so I assumed it to be some filming or something, but what caught me was ALL FOUR of the old folks were staring too. So curious-belly-up-with-dimsum-me waddled over and I became peeping petey and started tip toeing over the 160cm hong kong peeps. HAHAHAH! (as if im way taller =.=) Anyway, got to the front of the crowd only to be entertained for 10whole minutes by a fat angmoh and an filipino woman. Aunty Anne says "lovers quarrel, hai so common", YET she kept watching intently. Me having no experience in having a "lovers quarrel", observed intently at their every motion and word that lambasted at each other.
The woman was screaming her lungs out as her face was red, I had to put on my glasses to see her expression. She looked guilty, she looked tired, she looked desperate for the whole thing to be over. I studied the fat angmoh's face, he looked pissed off, he looked fustrated, he looked exhuasted from all the chasing which was lik running 10metres.
OH CHASING! Yes, the girl started running, trying to get into cabs(but they locked the doors). He gave a chase which was weak in my point of view. A guy that cant run? Shit, that aint a guy at all. HAHAHAHHA! But I figured after all the yellings exchanged, that she prolly slept with him and stole his wallet and stuff while he slept. And he's just trying to get it back from her, but she prolly threw it away, sold the leather wallet, used his moneh to buy some cheap shit hoes used(might i suggest a condom?) LOL! In my persective, both are wrong, but nevertheless, it was EN-TER-TAI-NING.

HAHAHAHAHA Seriously now LOL! I read something that didnt make sense but made me think. Okay lianz dont make sense but she's got a point. If you like someone so much, you begin to fear that one day they'd be gone. The only part that doesnt make sense was the inferior part, how can someone feel inferior to the person they like? I finally get how it feels to like someone that much, seeing how I didnt really cared bout the first, okay not that I didnt care, I didnt like the first, it was a "ill just say yes since its a cool person that way, we'd be cool since both of us are sports people." 2 years of being cool, its time I cooled my head, its time for Jane to be a lil nerd, its high time I changed. HAHAHAHAHAH! No I didnt play with anyone's heart, it wasnt even serious luh purlease, letting go is easy, its the silences before the fall that hurts. But shit, why fear that they're gonna leave you? That shows how much faith you got in your love no? Why are you even with the person if you cant trust em? HAHAHAHA! C'mon issit that hard to trust the person you like? Okay maybe for other people its different.

Guess I got it from mummy, trust easily but once its lost, its lost for good. Dam, Ive notice that I've got traits that are just like my parents! HAHAHAHHAHA! My dad's temper(which is not good, but my temper doesnt come out unless im angry, I dont explode in yo face so be glad, unlike ma dad), my dad's love for animals(seeing how my house is likka zoo/spca), my dad's common sense(hoho is that good or bad? HAHAHA! I dunno, i got them gut feelings lik him), Mummy's messiness(yes im messy and lazy) mummy's character(treat ppl nice and vice versa) and mummy&daddy's generousity(honestly I think im too generous. HAHAHAH! Evil side of jane speaking. the things i do for people that are dubbed my special ppl, are endless.)

Maybe cause I got so much to say yet im holding it back.

Ps. I guess the only way for me to understand you more, is time. But I'm loving it all the same, if patiences is needed, then so be it! MUAHAHAHA! Either way, you've got my trust(: Eh moose, please pay the ransom, or I'll be a heartnapper! I might be jailed for it love!

Soundtrack of ma week:
Until you by Shane Ward
Miss Independent by NeYo
Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift
The man who cant be moved by The Script
Wont let you go by Cristian Alexanda
Rule the world by Take that




Tuesday, September 30, 2008
HONG KONG AINT NO DINGDONG!

Forgive the spelling&grammar errors. too lazy to go back and proof read.

Hong Kong.
According to poks, its the land of har gao&siew mai.

Ive got a different defi! HAHAHAHAHA! Land of CANTONESE SPEAKING PPL! HAHAHAHAH!

Omg yes, I didnt get half the things they threw at me but thats why mummy plays an important roll(which also means I cant buy things without her knowing/noticing)

When I stepped outta the airport, I COULDNT BREATHE! Literally, cant breathe. Its not cause there are hot guys or girls. Its cause the air is so fucking THICK with air pollutants and my fussy lungs that like clean air didnt accept 99% of the air I breathed in. I had to get back inside breathe 1 big breath and go out and take a small breath so my lungs got used to it.

Shit, free shuttles are the shit, dont need no bus card luh, just know where the free shuttles are and your transport is taken care of HAHAHAHA! Cheapo much?

Picture this,
Dim Sum breakfast at 9am
Dim Sum lunch at 1pm
High Quality dinner at 7pm

*bobs hand up and down* (put the 5 tips of ur fingers together)

Im so sick of Dim Sum, if I even thought bout it, the siew mai that is in my stomach might decide escape through my nose and mouth.

MONG KOK is the SHIT. Honestly, its like a 70%discount(price) version of Queensway+Ueno(jp sports shopping) and the area x100. Okay maybe not Ueno but Queensway is far from Mong Kok. The shoes are to die for, picture this with me, converse chucks SG$34 for a design you cant find in SG. YES. I bought shoes, shirts, more shirts, and a whole conglomeration. I spent 2 WHOLE days there, and I liked it, surprisingly I didnt get bored. But the downside was, the 4 old folks couldnt keep up with me, okay maybe it was a really big area and I swear I was walking really slowly!!

12shirts, 2 shoes, afew weird CUSTURDS, some souvenirs, afew presents for my peeps and a busted big toe. This guy thought it was okay to run my toe over with his trolley which had a mountain of boxes onnit? Yeah ouch. But no, I didnt feel the pain until I took off ma shoe and it felt as though ma toe was gonna pop off and join the white sheets of the bed, well it could thou, my toe was a pale white. No poks and Janey, it aint dead.

Stepped into this candy shop, it was like some weird I-GOT-ALL-PEZ-DISPENSERS-PLEASE-BUY-SOME aura. HHAAHAHH! I bought a couple of dispensers all for different people, the most ironic thing was I didnt buy any for me. I half wanted to get this humongo gigantico pez dispenser which was longer then the bass of my forearm to the tips of my fingers. Then mummy was like, "wei! no space! stop buying rubbish! you room already filled with so much things! stop dun buy it!" yes yes. messy room = flaw(:

Met Sal on the dunno what day of bad air. HAAHAH! Stupid rich bitch. HAHAHAH! Personal choffer, HK$500 a day, branded stuff. !#$@!%!%!# HAHAHAHAHA! Nah shes aight.

Went walking around Tsing Sha Tsui and took the train to HongKong island. OH OH H&M! Shit I miss that store in US. HAHAHAH! Bought a couple of stuff there. The best part was, sal a rich bimbo princess bitch, bought mens boxers. HAHAHAHAHAH! On the terms of "comfortable luh, especially windy down under too!" okay too much info. And not to mention, I was forced(literally) into buying checks button up that I have no idea which occassion to wear it. YEAHHH.

Met Sal's girlfriend. Yes, shes les. HAHAHAH! Apparently, HK is real open bout the whole, gay thing. Cause I see like more gay couples then straight ones. Yes, its true, me no kid. They are openly kissing and hugging and holding hands in PUBLIC! Another reason to go HK now. According to sal, "If your rich, wear branded stuff and walk with your chin up. Your 98% gay because 90% of rich teens and youngsters are gay." AH. That makes a whole lotta sense for the bitches' case no? HAHAHAH! Then she concluded without a doubt that I was gay since she went down her gay checklist and ticked off everything. =.= You dont hear me objecting?

Yes poks, you'd be happy to know that Sal knows ALOT of hot gay guys. HAHAHAHA GO HK GO HK at the end of the next sem!! And I made frens with this gay guy who sold me ma shoes. HAHAHAHAH!

Onna whole, HK would be one of the best if I didnt have to minus- bad air, 2 reasons why I want to stay in SG during the 6days, and my pocket has a big hole from all me money(no I didnt totally used the old folks moneh). Nevertheless, I had my fill of dim sum and "cheep suuus" HAHAHAHAH!

OH YEAH! Mummy's pronouncation was turning into a honky's!! OMG. HUSH PA-PEES! I actaully had to take out my earphones(which DARDARS BAR returned to me before I left) and hear the things the 4 old folks were saying! OMG. NO I DUN HAV A HK ACCENT!! Been listening to gangsta music the whole 6days. HAHAHAH!

Shit, Ive been downing "gao lucks" like i were some sorta drunkard and "gao lucks" are shots. Gao lucks are those whacha-ma-call-ems...roasted chestnuts...YEAH THATS IT!

Ps. Shit why have couple slippers when you can have couple prada wristbands? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH! Its REALLY EXPENSIVE no? HAHAHHAHAHAHA PFFFFFFFFFT okok you gotta see it fo yourself to believe what I say love(: