I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Friday, October 10, 2008
Waitor! Where the fuck is the bacardi?!

I try because I love you.
I buy things because I think for you.
I say things because I care for you.
I do things because I want you to be happy.

Its not about me,
Its all about you,
All I want is a smile or hug from you,
Everything I do has always and only been for you.

Ps. Thats all I can say now I guess. Since I cant make you talk to me, I'll wait then.

Omg. I've been looking at pics on facebook and I realised, its almost a year since Julian died, his brothers hasnt smiled the same way. C'mon Justin! Smile! HAHAHAHA!

Yesterday night's dinner was swell. Poks is a brilliant planner, gave me 45mins to meet him for dinner. We were both having shitty days so dinner with a best wouldnt hurt. HAHAHAHAH! Still I made it! On time. PHEW.

We ate bak chor mee and that that...watchamacallem...egg+starch+sea hum....yeah whatever thats called yeah? HAHHAHA! The idiot AHEM AHEM wanted to drink. MMMHMMM. great bestfriend i got here....bad influence. HAHAHAH! Talked bout stuff, somehow we both understood what the other was feeling. Well, I get his problem. HAHAHAHAH! Its confusing to be in yo shoes alright...!!

Bought drinks, some bacardi and vodka. NO we didnt sit at some stupid void deck acting like renegate teens. INSTEAD, we sat where ahpeks sat to talk bout the good old days. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! Like some old bitches, with a bottle of alcohol in hand. I say. Time was passing way too fucking fast, we'd only begun openning up and it was already 8.20. But it was fun thou, cept I had to shove my mouth with malteser(however its spelt) to cover the alcohol my mouth drinks.

Then I realised, we are at the same junction. Yeah no kid, he was experiencing exactly what I was experiencing. We were both wanting to talk to the person we like yet they dont want to talk to us. Yeahhhh....its like something only those of you have pissed off the people you like kinda thing(okay cept that poks didnt piss his AHEM off HAHAHAH!). HAHAHAHAHHAHA but its punishment I guess, for what we've done and shit, I dont mind taking it, in hopes it'll get better yeah?

Matt will you stop being a bitch, like I told you, I tripped and now theres that big line on my arm. What? Is tripping over myself a crime? CHILL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! No if you speak a word to sera, I will(fo real) have your balls onna sliver plate. Its justa scratch, forget bout it will ya?

I need some bacardi, now. Yeahhhhh....imma do what poks do if they ask for identification card. *shows matric card* HAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! fucking hell poks.
One last thing.
Welcome back to Singapore LANZY who just came back from a clinic in Johor. HAHAHAH! We've(Janey and....Janey? i kid i kid, i didnt miss you thou. its barely just a day) missed you here in Singapore.




Thursday, October 9, 2008
Bite me. I'm suffering boredom syndrome.

WOOOKE up 5am. HAHAHA! Read for 2 hours before the sun came up and plonk back to sleep. Woke up again only to have pillow-pillow hugging my face and grumbling bout the light. Hokayyy... I realised how psychotic that sounded...right um. No my pillow doesnt talk but its my way of having someone else in my bed. LOL That sounds even wronger. HAHAHAHAH! You know what! I'll stop here before I further fuel this whole situation into what sexy would call a p-bomb. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

I just want today to get over real fast, fo real. Its so boring, I dreaded leaving wednesday and I hated thursday.

Have I told anyone Singapore's sun is a BITCH? Shit, I cant walk for 20mins without getting a tan line where my slipper strap was! But the scenery was perfect, at the back of me, there was dark clouds, in the front of me there was sun. I take that as God's way of saying the worst is over? HAHAHAHA Lets hope so man. Since I cant turn back time, and Im not enjoying the present(rotting at home), I shall look forward to tomorrow, not that I wasnt already looking forward to it.

Another thing.
Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice Cocktail! How dopey does that sound? *crowd mumbles to themselves* Yeah kinda cheesy actually. HAHAHAH! *scratches head, mumbles to self bout it being dopey and toddles away* No kidding thou, mummy's got something with Cranberry juice though, the fridge was filled with it like 2 days ago, and now its gone *Jane drinks the last bottle* HAHAHAAH! OOHPPP....you caught me red handed. *hands off* The bottle started it! Im innocent!

Oh fun fun! Miley's working with us on the ubin project! YAY! So fun! =.= yeah anyway, ASC and GIG combining. Sounds fun thou, Jane is overjoyed. UH HUH RIGHTTTT. Yes this is how bored I am, im talking about my oh so cool cca! YAY! Cut me some slack people? I've watched bleach from episode 115 to 132 and counting!! I have to result to such a heinous misdeed of talking to miley(not that talking to miley is bad)!!
Evidence of miley and my sanity being screwed by boredom.

hating this.... says:
so busted one
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
lol
hating this.... says:
haha
hating this.... says:
and btw
hating this.... says:
my rubber ducky cute rite
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
=.=
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
MILEY ARE YOU INSANE?!
hating this.... says:
haha
hating this.... says:
lol
hating this.... says:
\im bored
hating this.... says:
cant blame me
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
issit me or are we both BORED outta our wits?
hating this.... says:
yeah
hating this.... says:
were boht bored
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
its a HOLIDAY and im stayin at home rotting!!!
hating this.... says:
haha
hating this.... says:
im goin out later
hating this.... says:
u still grounded?
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
yeah been sneaking out this whole week
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
i intend to escape of this house as soon as my parents get back. go eat dinner!!
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
OHHHH BUT WAIT
SHADDUP, eat some candy corn. says:
my mum's got a dinner. brothers wont be home. daddy goes to sleep
hating this.... says:
haha
hating this.... says:
so just go out

ONE LAST THING BEFORE I RETURN TO BORING HELL.

KAILAN KONG why why why must you go frickin Johor just to go to a clinic?!?! Jeez! Singapore got lik hundreds! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Yes Janey and I are laughing at you lanzy LOL! You never cease to entertain me thoroughly. Either by hook or by crook. We are going out next wednesday to where? I HAV NO IDEA! Janey you got sch...you think of where to go. HAHAHAHAH! wtf?

Ps. I've got a treat for you, but your gonna have to cook it no? HAHAHA! smile for me please(: I forgot to tell you something before I left on tuesday, its important, almost life threatening, I might regret it if I dont tell it to you asap! Tomorrow then.
more than a fat kid.




Wednesday, October 8, 2008
*grumbles and toddles away*

Oh kill me now. HAHAHAHAHAH! NO I KID I KID!

nono Im not angry no more. she said sorry and I forgive her, even though my day ended at 3.30pm. LOL no kid no kid, my day did end in the afternoon. I dont remember much after I got home, cept I woke up with the most painful pain/ache in right hand. LOL. I guess I must have beaten up my wall HAHAHAHAHA! Oh wells, its like I was drunk or something PSHHHH.

I have to say though, ikea food is nice. Shit. I wanna go back soon. But not too soon, might get bored of it. Went home with my temper up to my eyeballs fo real. Long time since I've felt this angry, its not cause my brother wasnt home or you. It was due to a FEW things on my head, all of which I will not say:D STOP FORCING ME TO DO THINGS! okay that was an outburst. But i wont erase it, because Im thinking out loud.

OH poddy's lagging. MM HMM MM HMM! HAHAHAHAH! But oh wells. I intend to get my new phone this year, everyone from lanzy to janey have changed phones CEPT me! omg. And to think I was the first one to change, yes! Before m0m0's model got popular with the lians, I was already using it!! *grumbles* HAHAHAHA!

Omg. Comedy central hasnt changed even from 3 years ago. The best part bout it wasnt Saturday night live or Lewis black or Reno 911(fucking funny) or Dave Chappelle("Im rick james BITCH!) or Jon Steward. IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN BOUT SOUTH PARK! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Oh mannnn South Park was and still is the shit. HAHAHAH! I use to have a Cartman shirt, *wonder where it went*

Okay Im sick of typing.

Ps. I see your having fun with elmo. HAHAHAH! Enjoy your day of me not bothering you:D Your missing one addition. Ask me what it is LOL enjoy your night love(:




Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Dont dull your shine

Chinese NOOOOOODLES.

Its the only thing Janey and I always eat, HAHAHAH! NICE MAN! She'd bitch, I'd listen and go "OHHH REALLY?! eh? Really ah? wow!"

Today was different! KaiLan was with us! We ordered what we'd always order when we were there. Chinese noodles with like 10 ingredients and make one whole pot of what nots. Oh we didnt sit and bitch thou, we had to rush off to House Bunny the movie. Yes for those of you that'd call me frivolous with my time, I promised to watch it with them, and I dont promise people things very often. HAHAHA I dont keep my promises I cant fulfil, or shunt the responsibility of keeping a promise, its just one of those, I-take-my-promises-very-seriously-sorta-thing. HAHAHAHAHH! So if your trying to be as anal as some, make me promise you something and I'll slap you.

HAHAHAH! Now thats the kinda theatre I LOVE. EMPTY. No lil kids screaming "OMG HARRY POTTER HARRY POTTER!!" or cells phone talking loudly going "BEEP BEEP BEEEEEP BEEEE....EP"(translation: bitch pick me up!) or fucking tall mofos sitting in front of oh so short me and blocking ma VERSION or just plain human presence. HAHAHAHAHAH!

School starts in 12 days(not counting today) I want it to start so my parents would get of my ass about going out everyday. Then again, im just trying to repair my social life before school starts and I cant hang out with my buddies from OTHER POLYs): Im glad I held a Bday chalet! I saw all them familiar faces again, the friends I held close to my heart was there, in one place at one time. They asked me about presents, but all I wanted to say and did say was, "Your presence is a present enough for me." YES PIGGY/LANZY/JANEY/SHERYL/MANDA/JY, theres no present in this world that could replace your presence. Now that school's starting, everybody's gonna be busy and Jane's still a friggin bum. Nah. Not my friends, they study hard but play even harder. HAHAHAH!

ONE LAST THING. ONE QUESTION.

Why is everyone feeling all insecure and not trusting the people they love?!?!?!?!

I know you care a lot for the person, you want them to be with you, you want to make them happy, you want them to know their special, you want them to have fun, you want everything for them. BUT you get over-protective over them, wanting to control everything they do, wanting to know where they go, what they've been doing, but step back, take a look. YOUR SUFFOCATING THEM! Give'em room, air to breathe, Jeez, and you ask me for help yet you dont listen to me and you can still got the gore tell me "Do you even love the person you like Jane? How can you give that person so much freedom? Arent you afraid that you two might drift?!"(Dont talk to me bout how I love someone or whether I love em. I have my ways of making that person feel special, its for that person to know&you never to find out) LOL thats how insecure some can be! You say it only applies to some and not you. Well, have enough faith in the person you love, and let them do whatever they wanna and not latched to your leash of insecurity. I hate when people ask me for my help/opinion and not listen! Wasting my time and I could be spending it on someone who'd actually listen. Everybody knows its vulnerable to be in love(as much as people hate to admit). It can make or break your world with simple words or misunderstood intentions. You pieces of shit say I dont understand, oh by all means underestimate me please. I love it(really). Either you listen or you get lost in the woods, and for those who ask me to point you in the right direction, I've only got one thing for you. *points at the sky* There, thats the direction I've trusted. Yield to His will.

OH. I've got enough of insecure people, just tell the person. "I love you and I miss you." and it'll remind them, that their still on your mind! JEEZ. I aint gonna act as an expert or what not, but it works for me and I have my ways. Go find your own.

YUPI GUMMY! YUPPPPPPPPPPPPI! YUPI! YUPPPPPPPI! Okay, its a joke Janey can appretiate. LOL I'll explain if only you'd ask me to, and since no one asked me to write a post, I shant explain it.

Ps. Butterflies names are, Bob, Tubby, GiGi, ViVi and Maldito. Did you pick up the spanish curse word in the sentence love? HAHAHAH! Chase em away and take their place. You'd do a way better job. Cant wait for tomorrow but dont want today to end. Now elmo will really have a corner in your room(: ilyamaafklc.




Sunday, October 5, 2008
To Janey, From God

Theres always something in the way,
Theres always something getting through,
its not me,
its You, its You.

Its all I know(x3) [dont wanna feel stupid repeating myself LOL!]

I find peace when I'm confused,
I hope to find it in the end,
not in me, in You.
Its in You.

And I dont have the liberty of typing out the rest of the song. Jeez its long. *scrolls down the lyrics, and sees that theres only 2 other paragraphs* Oh thats way too long alright! Too long!

Shit. I love this song, Always something by switchfoot.

hokay. random extra post. God's always there for you Janey. Cheer up. I cant do anything but listen to you rant. But just give it to Him, and it will all go away. Unfortunately, Im not in any position to talk to you bout holy-ness, Im... im far from it. HAHAHAH! All I can do is ask for forgiveness. Its a problem I wish I could take from you, because your not as cold hearted as me and people take advantage of that. If you cant lean on friends when you need em, why have em right? You prolly wont read this til you get back from camp. But just know, you still got me, I'll still be around. You've got lanzy too. HAHAHA! Your my bestest and I dont want to see you hurt anymore, its painful you know. To just sit and listen to you suffer alone while not being able to do anything, you've always told me your troubles. You think its troubling me, but it aint, it makes me useful in a odd USE-ME sense i guess.

But its time for you to let go now, move on Janey, Im still standing here and Im not going anywhere anytime soon. Step over it, heck step onnit! I'll hold your hand if you like(not literally but you get what i mean) I'll see you soon and we can talk bout it again. HAHAHA! Pick up and start over.

I'll love you always bestie, and you veggie! *points at kailan* stop making fun of whats that person's name *snap snap snap fingers* ahhh forget it! HAHAHAHAHA! Love you both like shit.




Mind Flings, thats what lovers two time each other for. LOL!!

Mind flings.
Ho Hokayyy... LOL have I ever heard of that word before? Nope, I'd count it on my list of "first-times" I was talking to an old friend, who in my perspective, mirriors my childhood days. HAHAHA! Come on man mind flings?! HAHAHA when I heard the explaination, my jaw dropped in awe that someone so old(17) could actually have sucha young mind! Definition of mind fling: hook up with the person in your head and just pretend to be with him/her for the fun of it. According to the creator of it, you can have as many as you'd like. In fact, you can even triple time the mind flings... ingenius bea truely ingenius! HAHAHAHA bored much?

Oh dinner was nice yesterday, its near SAC! URGH. Met sam, hokay I didnt meet her, jeez she bumped into me! *hands off* her fault! HAHAHAHA! No I didnt do anything to her, make me sound as though imma rapist or something jeez. HAHAHAHAH! Well I think she'd kill me if she found out I still remembered her surname. Ms Thong please dont kill me. HAHAHAH! Now now Im not making fun of her, she and her "cannot-have-too-much-sunlight" skin. Yes I did make fun of her, and yes she did make fun of me BUT i aint gonna tell what she poked fun at me for. Later I get blackmails. HAHAHAH! Enough of her.

Hari Raya.
I celebrate it. Didcha hear?! Im malay now. *crowd jeers* *crowd throws popcorn at me* "get of the stage white trash!! you aint malay!!"

Yes YES, I gettit! I aint malay, but my aunt/uncle/cousins are. So being a really fun&loving&open&cool&noisy extended family, we celebrate it with em! Which is cool! Get to see my cousin and taidi players! Honestly, good food, good company, good music(me listening to ipod), whats not to love? Besides I wanna gambl....I mean play old maid with ziezieMis(no im not a lian) HAHAHAH! Even thou I love family events and what nots, I hate staying for long, it gets boring and I hate being bored as much as i wanan kiss a donkey's ass.

OHHH fascinating fact: TicTacs come in giant boxes with 3 flavours in em. YEAHHHH. No kidding, Ive been popping and popping em in all day*since 1* and its still lik 3/4 full.

Miley. STOP SENDING ME LINKS TO HEAR THIS STUPID GIRL DESTROY PARAMORE SONGS! omg. I swear that girl is the end of paramore! *shivers* dont do this to a band i like! Now if she sang michael learns to rock songs, I'd seriously kill her. You can diss all other bands I like but dont start on michael learns to rock. Ill pound your face in til yo mamma cant recognise yo. And miley, I dont judge them in a strict manner. Its cause my standards are way to high for wananbes. If I cant get the really one, I wont settle for second best. I'll just move on to the next item! WHICH AINT PARAMORE COVERS!

Well my week ahead looks bright. Considering muarice filled it with people I wanna see but I predict, theres always idiot who gate crash....

Hokay. Im forced to stop here. Adios amigos!

Ps. Would you rather....stay at your place or crash at mine(: