I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, May 2, 2009

"If you knew, what would you do?"

HESITATE. HESITATE. HESITATE. HESITATE. All you do is HESITATE, Jane.

I cant pull away from you, because my heart is willingly yours. I need my heart to live, and my heart needs you to beat.

Believe me. I've tried to find reasons to hate you. I've tried to find ways to not look at you. I've tried find flaws that I thought I'd hate, but I end up liking them even more.

HESITATE. HESITATE. HESITATE. HESITATE. HESITATE.

Oh to hell with all. Im going to bed. Im tired.

Song of the day: Nowhere To Go by Backstreet Boys




Friday, May 1, 2009

"There's a freedom in your arms that carries me through."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANEY TEO WAN HUI

Small Nothings Are Still Something

I just want to be your little bee,
To keep you company when you're lonely,
Don't leave me be in my misery,
Just stay with me please.

You don't know how you make me feel,
I swear your beauty is unreal,
You make everything seem so surreal,
But I really want you to be real.

I want to be your banana peel,
But baby please dont let me squeal,
It's my pleasre to feel your hands,
Then I can die with no demands.

You don't wanna hear the rest,
All I know is that Im blessed,
Maybe just a lil obsessed,
Nobody would've guessed.

It was you...

HAPPY LABOUR DAY.

Do laugh at me. I intent to get a MANHATTAN PORTAGE BAG. Wooo! 120bucks. Got like 10bucks already *claps hands* Sherie told me where to get 'em. Heh! Hopefully got sale *acts likka singaporean aunty*

Song of the day: I Need You by LeAnn Rimes
I need you like water, like breath, like rain.




Thursday, April 30, 2009

"You had me at 'hello'."

One of those Alcohol-less days. It would be what people call, a rough day.

Little nerd here was struggling to print like 36pages of Mgen notes(i think). The stapler wouldnt staple 36pages. When she was pushing it back, it shot her in the neck. Kudos.

I thought I only repelled technology, I didnt know stationary too. Ironic, Im in bioTECHNOLOGY.

Oh speaking of music. I've entrusted Anthea to write the music cords for the lullaby. Anthea's doing the piano version, Eli wants to try it out on the guitar. I want to go take a shit. Hahaha!

It Makes No Difference, I Still **** You

Hold me tight in your embrace,
Let me bask in your grace,
I'm sick of this paper chase,
I run to you my safe place.

You make everything okay,
Stay with me everyday,
I know this may sound cliche,
"My love wont sway or go astray".

It's painful when you look away,
Giving that look of dismay,
Because there's nothing I can say,
To make everything okay.

I'll craddle you when you cry,
I'll help you soar sky high,
I'll be there when you say good-bye,
So you'll know my love isn't a lie.

Baby just trust me with your heart,
I'll never let it fall apart,
You won't depart with a broken heart,
No one can tear us apart.

All they've tried to do was divide,
Yet this feeling doesn't subside,
I'll stand strong against the tide,
Then you and I will collide.

I'll never get sick of you...

Song of the day: My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson
Title says it all no?




Wednesday, April 29, 2009

"I look away so you wont be able to see what my eyes hide beneathe."

Lullaby for my angel

You should know I wont catch you when you fall,
Because I'll be by your side through it all.
So you'll never have to face them alone,
Baby dont be afraid to stand on your own.

When you need me I'll be standing here,
Baby the world holds nothing that I fear,
My only fear lies with you, losing you,
I want to hold you close for life.

Just look into my eyes and you'll know,
Because to you all my feelings show,
Putting my heart in your hands to hold,
And wishing you'd let me into your world.

When you're sick of their nonsense,
and guilt fills your conscience.
Baby just fall back into my arms,
I'll craddle you safely away from harm.

Right or wrong, you're the one I love.
My heart may go cold some times,
But just keep your hand in mine,
And everything will be just fine.

Baby girl as long as I have you,
There is nothing I wouldn't do,
Just to get a glimpse of you,
Not cause you're pretty but because you're beautiful.

Baby I'll promise to make it last,
Promise I'll never leave you in the past,
With you I dont have to wear a mask,
My promises are made to last.

You're all I need...

Heh. I wrote this song during my 5hour wait in the library. Good day today.

Song of the day: Days Go By by Dirty Vegas
Days go by and still I think of you, days when I couldnt live my life without you.




Tuesday, April 28, 2009

"I'm the one who wants to be with you, deep inside I hope you feel it too."

I dont know what I should feel today. (Clap your hands, one of the few times I dont know what I want) Hahaha!

I am happy yet angry at myself. Im slapping my face for reacting before I can understand the situation. But its alright, I'll make it up to you, I promise. Gonna smile at you, my face wasnt suppose to be a frown.

Today's like black day. Everyone keeps making fun of Poks and I cause we "couple" dress alike. FUCK NO. We just happen to wear the same coloured shirt on the same day. I think I'd rather couple with Sherie(who wore a black shirt too). Hahahahaha!

Jane + gay guy = all hell break loose. Jane + Sherie = weird hilarious inside jokes. Jane + Jane = Armageddon. Imagine if I had a twin. *grins from ear to ear*

Like Bryan ALWAYS say, "SACians. Hai SAC one, it's okay all from SAC." Bimbo/lesbian/playgirls of the east. Hahahaha! Btw, Sherie's my bball senior. Hence, SACians.

Speaking of people. Anthea keeps reminding me how Im weird. "People like you should notice loud and noisy people, but you notice quiet shy ones who are part of the wall to normal people. Like Poks notices hot guys. I notice every little thing."

Im shy *halo appears above my head* so I like shy people. Of course, they have to have some sort of brains luh, not like Johnson and dardar. Proud to say that the people I've been with have IQ's above average! YAY ME! Smart girls are sexy. Smart guys are admirable.

School. CSAS(com skills) GOT HOMEWORK. Omg. 4 pages somemore. *whines* Oh today. During CSAS talk the woman was like "Would you like a hug or a kiss?" She demanded I PICK one.

HAHAHA "KISS!!" F4 people(okay my class is used to my openness already) were like stunned, their class is a whee bit...uhh quiet. SIAO. I wouldnt kiss her. Bleah. Nah took a hug, it turned out to be CHOCOLATE. Yummy.

Attack of the Pigs. Pig wars. Revenge of the Pigs. Okay thats bullshit, too much George Lucus. "Luke I am your father. *breathes hard*" ... "Oink oink oink oink." Okay that just came out. Scratch that yeah.

Okay its not called mad pig disease but I call it that. Swine flu sounds so literature-ish. Its a pandemic announced as level 4 by WHO(world hallal organization) GO HALAL PEOPLE, Miley that means you too. Hahahaha!

Someone should kill me now. My spelling is worse than a primary 2 student! I spelt "HALAL" wrong. Holyshit. *poke 2 holes in a paperbag and puts it over my head*

My song of the day deserves some recognition: To Be With You by Mr. Big.
It totally cheers me up for some odd reason. I keep smiling likka idiot while listening to the song. Listen to the lyrics carefully.




Monday, April 27, 2009

"My heart's crippled by the vein I keep on closing."

Oh Im happy today, too happy. Doesnt show on my face right? Figures.

Well I am, so dont shit on my parade. Forget it, FPATH took a huge poopoo on it. Hahaha!

I finally found the reason to continue studying science. I help a friend today, she needed to know some sciency bacteria shit for her proposal. And I helped her. That's an achievement. Hai...business students uh. HAHHAHAHA!

Heh! Daddy use to tell me in primary school, "If anyone needs your help, dont hesitate to help. Kindness is shown by actions. And actions speak louder than words. Enemy or friend, if someone needs help, do your very best."

Yeah, my parents were strict with me. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont thank they for giving me iron-cladded values. I used to see them as restrictions on my life, but now I see.

I've decided that my personal life should have a break. Fify had her fun last year, Old Man Jones wants his fun now(books, notes, lectures). I have to compromise. My studies are more important now.

She will be in my heart. But if time should take her away, then all I want is for her to be safe and I hope whoever loves her, that they will treat her like a princess. She deserves nothing less.

Hahaha! Oops! I forgot to say who I wrote my last paragraph(ytd) for. It's for no one in Singapore. After all the harsh words exchanged, I just want you to get one thing, even if you ignore me all the way til death.

I never meant to hurt you. These 6 words are my bonds to you, my words are my bonds.

Song of the day: Bleeding Love (accoustic) by Boyce Avenue
I dont care what they say, Im in love with you.




Sunday, April 26, 2009

"Go on."

Something you already knew

Been waiting for you,
All I want is you,
And your sweet love too,
It's so sweet it makes me drool.

Am dying to hold you in my arms,
Baby please dont feel alarmed,
I assure you I mean no harm,
It's just that I cant resist your charm.

Keep you with me like a tattoo,
Through thick and thin baby its just you,
Everyone else may be untrue,
But to you I'll be true.

You're too adorable for me to hurt you,
You make me go soft right through,
I become a puddle of human goo,
That's something you already knew,

All you'd have to do was pout,
My heart melts without a doubt,
You're someone I cant live without,
Just gimme a chance to shout it out.

I'll mend the hurt in you,
And you'll be as good as new,
I could be the pillar you hold on to,
If your in pain then I'll carry you through.

And it'll just be me and you...

Applause for Jane! She lost her Poem Masterpiece. Gawd-awfulness! Hahahahah!

LAST THING.

I'm leaving you in the past along with the rest. No more pleading for you. No more wanting to talk to you properly. No more. Go away and stay away. Slowly but surely you will be left in the past.

Song of the day: Believe Me by Fort Minor feat. BoBo and Styl