I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE OUT OF MY WAY MOVE! HAHAHAH!

ALAS! MOVED TO YOUR MOTHER'S HOUSE

Pst. Theres a puzzle placed on the password of the post, the only hint is below. Those who aren't meant to know won't know. Secret. shhhhh!

  1. +25, -11, +7, (the rest you figure out +/-) 4, 4, 14, 13, 9
  2. Mind your caps
  3. It's important

PS. I swear, you wouldn't hate me so much if you'd just talk to me, properly. Sit down and talk to me patiently.




Tuesday, July 28, 2009
don't be a chicken

"Why would I want to destroy something I help build?"




I have too much time to waste right? Hahahaha! This is what happens when you put Jane and her PCT labs together, I upped and went looking for chickens.

Song of the day: When Love And Hate Collide by Def Leppard

You could have a change of heart,
If you would only change your mind.




Monday, July 27, 2009
you got me all confused

"As long as you say we can win, I'll make sure we do."

STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT.

No! You can't make me feel this way! You can't! I'm a self declared saint! I AM STRONG! You can't! You can't! You can't just do that without effort! *whimpy and whiney mode* DAMMIT!

Hahahahahahaha! Oh this is going to be harder than I thought. I am sucha whimp for you. So whimpy like. Ew. Jane, go ahead and give yourself an ass kicking, like right naaaaaaoo!

Somehow I feel that whimpy and whiney aint going to get me far.

One more thing. I AM NEVER EVER EVER EVER GOING TO SIT IN MAIN LT FOR MGEN! Oh my gawd. I actually FELL ASLEEP while he was talking.

Wah bloody hell, I should go buy 4D or something because TODAY cannot be so coincidental! I don't believe in coincidence!

I took a quiz and it said, "Just listen to your heart more instead of doing the most sensible thing all the time. Listen WITH your heart and you will understand."

I thought to myself "Listen to my heart? She is young and rather reckless." (before I looked at MSN). Then someone's MSN nick was "we were young and reckless" Then someone else's msn PM was "Have some faith in me girl" Then someone else's nick "now I see what love means."

OH MY GAWD!! I am honestly freaked out. If someone else or something else pops up uh. I'll hand them an ass whoopin'!




Rushed CSAS on stupid UTI. Then still got AIMM LAB report. Wah. I feel like homer now. SUPER TIRED SHITLESS. I can't stop thinking about today. Someone stop me.

Life is fragile. My heart goes out go Gloria Yelzman(spelling error potential). Every waking day is a miracle, please don't take it for granted. Sometimes I feel so pussified not holding you back and just letting you walk away.

Lord I need stength of mind and courage of heart! So many people around me need me Father! Please help me to not let them down! Help me to be strong! A little help for the whimpy, whiney one please!

Song of the day: What If I by Bosson
(this man preaches what my heart only dreamed off)



Now I'm confused,
Cause my mind says I'm a fool,
That it's time to say goodbye,
But my tears cannot lie,
My heart says I'll lose if I try.

I refuse to give in, but I'm afraid to start something we can't win




Sunday, July 26, 2009
if you were mine

"Nothing and no one can take that away from you."

The 365th post! WHEE! *frolics around* (What he's doing)



I SURVIVED THE HELL WEEK of 2009! I missed a longest eclipse of the century, I had a fworded up friday, I'm so behind in homework and lectures, my first flunked mgen paper, aaaand what's new?

How can I study Biochem with a HIGHLIGHTER that can't HIGHLIGHT shit? *whines* Sometimes, I ought to give myself an ass kicking, seriously.

I think my mummy's gone mad! She fed me with HEALTH FOOD. Oh my gawd. Are you serious? Hahaha! I'm prolly gonna die 20 years before my time, I drink(a lot), I smoked(not proud of it at all) and I do not eat HEALTH FOOD(I'm lovin' it!)

Seriously, I wasn't paying attention when mummy shoved it down my throat. Until my tongue was like "Jane whatever you are making me taste, tastes like HEALTH FOOD!!" *health food siren sounds*

I'm likka less balder version of homer, except I don't drink beer on the couch in my socks and undies. "Jane, you drink too much." Hahaha! Guilty as charged.



Hahaha! Oh my gawd! I got a Superman shirt too! *falls off chair laughing*

Scusi! I just have one thing to say. My personal life is like HOT TOPIC right? Friday - Pig and Anthea, Saturday - Number2, Leah and Jon, Sunday - Mummy, Eli, Scott, Matt.

Hahaha! I'll regurgitate the convos tomorrow. Kinda tired from playing bubble shooting game. Hahaha! So much for staying home to study right? Jane, you are insane.

Goodnight and sweet dreams.

Song of the day: If You Were Mine by Marcos Hernandez



If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need,
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one I could ever want.

One thing I can't live without




I'm 124% mentally unstable (pffft)

I got kinda bored catching up on biochem I decided to do someone's note from FB. Hahaha this note is quite funny! HAHHAHA! Enjoy. Post will prolly be below, later.

[x -yelled not scream] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x -ouch dont try] You have run into a tree/bush.
[X100] You have been called a blond.

TOTAL: 6

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x- that stupid chain email] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[x] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[X2million] You have choked on your own spit.

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x - and came out too] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[x - all the time!] You have fallen asleep in class.
[x] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking.
[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[x- they're jealous] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[x] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[abacus does wonders] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[X - biochem beckons] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[X - my glasses and i was wearing it (FRAMELESS!)] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc.

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[x - puss alert] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[X- many many times] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[ ] The word "um" is used frequently.
[x - huh?] You don't know what "um" means.
[X - look abv] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[x] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.

TOTAL SO FAR: 31

Take your total,
Multiply by 4,
_____x 4 = ______%

Put the title as : I'm ____ mentally unstable.




Saturday, July 25, 2009

I'm sorry, I hope the future looks brighter for you.




Friday, July 24, 2009

"What good is a heart, if you're not going to use it."

243 words for 260 days

Let me just say, it's time.

Truth be told, I won't say I don't love you,
False pretense aside, I love you, I do,
I promised to wait and I'll see it through.
So that you'll believe me, my words are true,
Girl, you mean too much for me to hurt you.

I don't believe in leaving things to fate,
But we created something that was great.
Promise you, my heart isn't filled with hate,
No bad intentions for what I did and said,
Promised you to wait, but it's getting late.

Hate goodbyes, if I can't see you again,
I really have to let go of this pain,
I tried, but it really can't be contained.
Everyday's a walk down memory lane,
And I'm not strong enough, I'm just Jane.

Every night I pray that you'll be happy,
Girl, because I hate to see you angry.
If the way to love you, is to set you free,
Then baby close your eyes and count to three,
Promise you I'll return your heart and the key.

I won't deny that I care for you,
I don't care if caring is taboo.
It takes two to clap, love that means us two,
I can't, not won't ask you to start anew,
Because you'll say our love's long overdued.

You're not an accident or a regret,
Baby, you're a beautiful silhouette.
I'll be someone who you'll soon forget,
But girl don't forget the day our eyes met.

No more what ifs, no more I could've done better, no more hurting you.

Song of the day: What Good Is A Heart by Code Red