I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, March 28, 2009

Aston's is not filling. Amen.

Been reading "Breaking Dawn" you know... the vampire-werewolf book collection fad's kicking in. Uhhh... no? Jane is not hooked on like some stupid Harry Potter fanclub girl. No.

It's either reading that or Reader's Digest. Actually Reader's Digest is good with tonnes of....good gawd I stopped talking. Fagglified geek. (I read both - supergeeky - shhhh)

"Do you know how to drown a blonde, Rosalie?" said Jacob without looking up and continueing "Glue a mirrior to the bottom of a pool."

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAH! Okay not very funny. But if you've read the book, it's hilarious because Rosalie doesnt like Jacob and they are like cat fighting. Im starting to like Rosalie.

WHITE GIRL'S HOME! WOOOO! Please pratice yo WOODEN guitar not yo PLASTIC one. Cant have you destroy the song! *Eli flings her plastic guitar at Jane* *Jane ducks for cover*

Heart-fart moment:
Jane miss her. Jane miss her real bad. But Jane has to be really patient and understanding. "I will I will I promise I will. I just want to see her."

Brain-fart moment:
"Jane, your frightening when your angry." Oops. I swear I try my bestest to control my daddy's temper.

Song of my day: You and I Both by Jason Mraz
Cause you and I both love. What you and I spoke off, and others just dream off.

God please keep her safe from danger. Tuck her in with a lil goodnight kiss on the forehead to remind her, she's annoying me by constantly hogging my mental space. And I cant concentrate.




Friday, March 27, 2009

Okay I've been writing poems for like 3 days straight. My mind wont rhyme me anything. But I've been watching Grey's Anatomy season4!!

Funny shit. You gotta watch the episode to laugh your ass off.

Callie: .... Not to mention a cracked coccyx.
Girl: What the hell is that?
Alex: The bone at the bottom of your spine.
Girl: Huh?
Callie: The bottom of your bottom.
Girl: My ass? I broke my ass?
Alex: That's one way to look at it.

Jane laughed so hard she broke her own ass.

Heart-fart moment:
It's so easy to be around you. It's so easy to talk to you. It's so easy to look at you and smile. It's so easy to like you, but it's so hard to love you. "Give me your hands, so I can put my heart in them."

Brain-fart moment:
"I cant fight your demons, if I have to fight you after."

YAY! Jane is totally high on the fact that white girl returns tomorrow. Come on man. My lover is like returning from her exile(no internet or phone). Brilliant.

Stupid Guitar Heroes. Play play play all day! Bunch of freaks. Damn right! *goes back to watching Grey's Anatomy* HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA

Pure Irony.

Song of my high day: The Reason by Hooberstank
I just want you to know, I found a reason for me. To change who I use to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.

God please keep her safe from harm. Tuck her in with a goodnight kiss and You know I wish she was my bolster right? Wrapping my arms around my world, I feel safe.




Thursday, March 26, 2009

I got bored today at a cafe. So I continued writing lyrical nonsense with wonderful music in my ears, I put it on my blog music so listen to it.

Poem's name: Nothing less than beautiful

There's no other quite like her,
Girl you're the perfect lover,
Because I know I love her,
Girl you made me a dreamer.


I know I found you,
It's a dream come true,
And you see me too,
So Im not a fool.

You dont have to be alone,
Dont face this world on your own.
As long as we're together,
Girl there will be no other.

When I think of you,
It's just like dejavu,
When I miss you,
It's just cruel.

The poem above. Is part of the song lyrics to a song Im writing. Cept its not quite right yet.

Jane is currently writing a song for Eli to sing. Jane writes the song. Eli writes the score. Eli plays the guitar and sings. Matt is backup vocals. Lovely. Jane just listens and smiles.

FUCK MAN. YOU STUPID WHITE GIRL. CAN YOU COME BACK ALREADY!! I want to play GUITAR FUCKIN' HEROES AND GET CREAMED!

Song of my day: Endlessly by B4-4
And in my sweetest dreams, you learn to put your faith in me, endlessly. Sometimes the thing you need is the one thing you cant see.

God please keep her safe and tuck her in for me. Give her a kiss on the forehead to remind her, shes always on my mind and in my heart.




Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Poem's name: Power Ranger Isn't Dead

Girl dont cry those tears,
They'll turn into fears,
Dont listen to their jeers,
They'll turn into sneers.

I will still be here,
To wipe away your tears,
To lend you my ears,
Until the pain disappears.

Forget the world of pain,
Let love take the reign,
Forget the feeling of disdain,
This is love's domain.

I close my eyes and I wish I saw you. I wish you were beside me. I wish you were talking to me. I wish I could see you smile. But all I see is your pictures.

Jane's sensitivity and emotional learning is going fine! Im learning to get pass the whole "this-is-fucking-awkward-to-be-so-emotional" phase! YAY ME! -.-

Jane thought of something that she'll say to her if only I got the fuckin' chance. Hahahahaha!

"My love for you isnt likka tea bag that runs dry after awhile. My love for you is like wine, it get's sweeter as time goes by."

America's Next Top Model

MARJORIE the frenchie fry! Oh ma gawd. She's pretty, nervous and timid. I like that alright. Hahahahaha! Her nervous nature is totally adorable. How her eyes light up when she talks.

Okay Jane has a thing for nervous and timid people. Jane finds it extremely cute. Jane thinks people might think she's crazy for liking that kind of people. BUT Jane likes it anyway.

CIAO! MARJORIE CONRAD IS LOVE.

God please keep her safe from harm and let her enjoy what's left of the holidays! Hope she had fun!




Tuesday, March 24, 2009

LET IT ROCK! LET IT ROCK! LET IT ROCK! Kevin Rudolf is my new artist of the year!

Jane says this is the first BBQ I've gone to that theres absolutely NO LEFTOVERS, none. Not even piece of scrap chicken. Hahahahahaha!

Jane found out that she isnt a MANDATORY ALCOHOLIC. How would I know? I had Long Island Tea and I didnt have the urge to open the bottle and chug it down!!

Little Angel's wrong about me needing a banana baggy!

America's Next Top Model! Fuck here I was thinking it was another "The Hills" or "90210" or some shit. McKey is H to the O to the T!! The frenchie Marjorie's PRETTY too! I blame Sheryl for this! HAHAHAHA! She forced us to watch it.

Jane: eh eh eh Sheryl!! Whats that one's name?! *points*
Sheryl: Marjorie
Jane: Huh? Margarine?
Pig: Who the fuck calls their daughter 'Margarine'?!
Jane: Yeah man
Sheryl: MAR-JO-RIE LAH! *sheryl turns pek chek*
*Pig and Jane falls off bed laughing*

Anthea and I were up til like 4am having personal talk. She put something in perspective. And I finally understand how egos' can destroy things. Who would have thought a big ego could do so much damage. Hahahaha!

Poem's name: Mushroom's Do Feel Too

This feeling grew from a crush,
And the tingles make me gush,
Girl you turn me into mush,
I should just shut up and hush.

Girl when you enter the room,
I turn into a mushroom,
And the tingles resume,
It totally consumes me.

Dont do this to me,
Because Im trying to flea,
You drive me crazy,
Do you know that baby?

When I miss someone I tend to write things like that. So bare with my "I-miss-someone-like-hell-now" phase. HAHAHAHA!

CIAO!

Song of my tiring day: Let It Rock by Kevin Rudolf feat. Lil Wayne
Because when I arrive. I bring the fire make you come alive. I can take you higher!

God please keep her safe and happy. A leap of faith is all I need to conquer my enemies!




Sunday, March 22, 2009

Give you an early one since Jane will be heading off to her alcohol fest soon. Jane likes talking in 3rd person. Lesley thinks Jane is not cool and he gives Jane a goodbye hug. Jane hugs Lesley for 5minutes. Stupid retarded low IQ fucktards thinks Jane and Lesley are together. Jane hires stray dog to fuck them up. Jane is happy.

Jane is going to have fun with her buddies and not think about her. Jane wants her to come but she enjoys being in LALA land. Jane thinks its alright. Jane is happy if she is happy.

Stupid people think Jane dont know when they lie to her. Jane wants to hire stray dog to fuck them up again. Jane loves when stupid fucktards underestimate her. Jane is hiring stray dog to fuck them up. Jane hires stray dog. Stray dog fucks them up. Jane is happy.

Jane thinks that if you lie to her, she will hire stray dog to fuck you up. Jane thinks that if you do something wrong, you should own up. Jane will respect the person even more because that person has INTEGRITY.

Jane says this world lacks people with morals.

Oh my gawd. PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE. Jane is tired talking 3rd person.

Lemme share with yall something quite funny if only you know number2's tone and his personality. But enjoy. CAUTION VERY LONG, Its a whole convo.

M: Hey! How's life?
J: Likka va-jay-jay(nice way of saying chibai in english). Im trying to decypher and uncode something. BUSY BUSY.
M: Mmm when arent you not busy. Always telling me you got no time for poor me.
J: Gawd BOY! Shuddup. Your a disturbance in the force!! UGHHH.
M: Oh may the vagina force be with you ... my young padawan.
J: _l_ you. WAIT IN LINE LIKE EVERY OTHER VAGINA.
M: Shit thats cold. Ok brb ttyl
*20minutes later*
J: Count DORKku
M: Yes Darth Vagina?
J: Im not busy now... I think
M: you think? wth were u decoding? MOSS code on vaginas?
J: No... fungi code on balls. Go figure.
M: LMAO! Com'on lemme see!
J: warning: Reader might go blind due to numerous spelling/grammar/tense errors. Copy-paster cannot be held accountable for blindness..
M: shut it show me!
*Copys and paste a chunk of lianz blogspot*
M: Who wrote this? Is this chinese because it sure as hell isnt english or spanish!
J: Some girl no biggie. I think its english. THINK.
M: BIGGIE REAL BIG BIGGIE! Kindergarden english police will be after her! Hide her Jane!
J: She can hide behind her boyfriend
M: whoa. Is he tall?
J: Yeah why? Jealous?
M: PSSH IM 6'1(186cm) BABY!!! YEAH!
J: My my that must be a really large vagina. HAHAHAHA!
M: Oh that cold. Whats with being so cold? Oh lemme guess you didnt get to see the person you like? Am I right?
J: Shuddup dont you have some practice to go for?
M: OH HO! 4years and you havent changed one bit! Remembered your black face when I didnt go for your game against Jewish Day Prep! SPOILT BRAT.
J: BOOO *throws popcorn* I went for your matches okay!
M: Yeah sit there and did your homework with leah!! NOT WATCHING ME!
J: HAHAHHA! I see you everyday! I dont see my homework everyday. Plus Im asian. Asian children score ACES! HAHHA
M: Your cold turkey! SUB-NERD! How you love me now huh?!
J: Whatever you stupid vagina! OH hows gracey?! Or have you changed girlfriend again HAHAHAHAH!
M: She's ... urm .... whatever.
J: What the hell is that man! Shes yo friggin girlfriend!
M: Yeah so? Girl problem. WTF! plus she sticks like glue! SUPER GLUE.
J: Dude two words. YO GIRLFRIEND.
M: Dont remind me.
J: GIRRRRRRR
M: Shut it!
J: Ohhhhh HO HOW YOU LOVE ME NOW BIATCH! HAHAHAHAHA!
M: SHUT IT! HAHAHA! Oh I gotta go... babysit. $6/hr yo! LOL! cyl

End of my stupid convo with my stupid ex/buddy/idiot.

Song of my day: by Backstreet Boys
When I look at you, I see something rare, a rose that can grow anywhere, and theres no one I know that can compare what makes you different makes you beautiful whats there inside you, shines throughto me in your eyes I see all the love I'll ever need. your all I need.

CIAO! OFF TO THE BBQ! Kailan says hi since shes sittting right next to me! -.-

God please keep her safe! IM OFF TO DIE!