I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, February 7, 2009

"If you think no one will understand you, try me. I dont think you're weird. I can be your best friend(believe it or not), if you let me in. That's if you still trust me."

If your asking me why I even bother? I was the one who asked you to be friends no? No matter what they say or how much tantrum you throw, I'm still your friend. If you told me what's bothering you, I'd gladly help you.

In a very good mood today! YAY! But I am quite tired(not emotionally, chill).

A half gay, a full gay and a totally straight went shopping for 2days straight.

Poks left like 45MINUTES after I met them! Not my fault I had somewhere else to be before luh):

Today's Anthea's buy-it-all day! I picked a shorts, shirt, and even HOODIE for her and she bought them all! RICH LORZ. Hahaha!

Something thats been haunting me, day and night, time. The future's coming too fast and the present is moving too slow. *scratches head* How ah?

How do you shield someone from the harsh world because you feel so strongly and want to protect that innocence?




Friday, February 6, 2009

Not bad day, thank you Lord for anthea and ley. Thanks buddies(:

"Blind" by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go




Thursday, February 5, 2009

Recent events that require my attention.

I am tired, I really am tired. I tired of you constantly being angry at me. I cant keep suppressing this anger, my buddies are paying for it.

I am sorry miley for shouting at you today and poks for being a total bitch.

If you think Im lying, then I cant say anymore.

I am honeslty going to ask you, Tricia Lee Kai Hong. What would you like off me? What would you like me to do? You wanted me to wait, here I am, waiting for you. But my life doesnt stop just because I am waiting with you. People and things need my attention. Your sudden mood changes, so fast its really hard for me to catch up. I am happy you found happiness in her(MHG1). I really honestly knees on the ground am happy for you. What is it you want from me?(I only want you to answer me this question) My compassion has its limits and I dont want to misunderstand you. I didnt lie to you. I dont like mophair girl. I am not blaming you for your post. I just want to know. If you want I will pay for dinner and we can talk.

Why wont you understand me? I wont hurt you, I dont lie to you, I hate to see you cry.

God, this is more than I can handle on my own. I leave it to You to decide the fate. Forgive me.




Not a bad day, really!

She shined above all, just like my little angel supposed to. Couldnt hold back the smile.

Oh! CellB wasnt bad at all though I walked out like 25mins into the paper. Nothing too hard, indeed. Thank you God, You made me study topic 4.2!!

Im looking forward to tomorrow. Although I have 2 presentations.

Bryan says I have to do well in CSAS, aside from matthew, we are rivals but I'll happily give Anthea that SEAT. *GRINS* Im only interested in her. HAHAHA!!

We talk the walk, he walks the walk, I stalk the walk *GRINS*

My poem. Uhh...I wrote it while studying for my bmic lab test Hahaha!

Baby you can be the end of me,
Because I want you in my memory,
Take me from this misery,
I'm giving you all my energy.

One look in your eyes,
dispels all the doubts and lies.
I can be your anything,
because you are my everything.

Long enough for you ley? Hahaha!




Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Found this heart shaped jellybean in me box of beanies, anthea was like "eh thats a good sign no?" *smiles* Of course it was! Today was splendid.

I couldnt believe she could looked even prettier than she already did.

Today, we(I got dragged in) switched shoes. I wanted to fling poks' OVERSIZED shoe at miley's ass.

I misjudged(way off)the angle. "Miley! Catch!" -second later- *BANG*

It hit the ceiling board. ALMOST vertically up. LMAO!! It SLIPPED off okay!!

YES, everyone who saw what happen were laughing their asses off. Including myself. Hahaha!

At least she laughed along with us *grins*

I want to hear more, cause the more I hear, the smaller that huge gap in between is. What I've been praying for is gradually coming into play.

CIAO! CELLB! Uh...stuck on chapter 4 and watching dvds. HMMM.




Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I had this weirdo dream! I just hope it never happens, cant bear to see her face that black. No contents.

Sherie walked over, picked up my japo script and pronounced "Kocchhi" as "kock-chee" HAHAHAHA! Anthea knows what Im talking about.

Anthea and I were talking bout her, then she was like "Oh speak of the devil." *Jane shoots anthea a look* "I mean speak of the angel!" Hahahaha! *GRINS*

She makes my day. Everyone else seems to be part of the wall.

Ciao!




Monday, February 2, 2009

Not a bad day at all. *Grins* BAMPLEY(buddies initials) knows why.

Oh MATH LECT *goes into "love" mode* gaaa blaaaah laaa laaa

The more I hear you talk, the happier I am, because Im one step closer to her.

Johnny Talker, keep talking. Jane Walker, keep walking one step closer.

I'd give the sky, the moon, the world, just to see you smile baby.

CIAO! Had enough alcohol for one day, indeed.




Sunday, February 1, 2009

Craving waffles now. HAHAHA!! Lesley Ang Da Bian(red shit) where the hell is my gelare waffles dammit?!

Its funny. I've taken a liking to cats. I've dismissed the idea of having a dog, *looks at Dom's dog* HELL NO. Name them, Rum and Whiskey.

I spent $55 x 3 = $165 on iPod EARPHONES. Gawd. From Dec '07 til Jan '09, 14months. The 3 doesnt included the one that comes with poddy. Yes, well what can I say? Im rough.

"Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear the blind can see." -Mark Twain

She makes me want to be nicer, kinder and more sensitive. Baby you make it hard for me to smile, because its hard to breathe around you. Bet you dont know that.

Ciao! I have absolutely nothing to do! Lanzy, utt's gay.