I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, April 18, 2009

"Will you believe without seeing?"

School's starting. I dread it. *whines* Dont ask me why. I hate it. 6 cores. That's craptastic. I need to go apply for a new life man.

Hahahaha someone should give me a certificate for doing something without paying attention. I printed my timetable 6 times. Imma auction it on Ebay, go bid.

Ho Ho, revelation.

I am a fuse, metaphorically. It takes time for me to appreciate things. It takes time for me to love people. It takes time for me to understand.

Was I given time?

Listen to the pingpong song. Google it. Do you know what it feels like? (Hint: by that latino)

Song of the day: Breakable by Ingrid Michaelson




"Give me time, I will give you miracles. All I need is time to be your miracle."

Aw. Blogger doesnt allow me to post my stupid lousy chinese. Is it that bad? Fuck blogger. I'll just summerise it fo y'all who like me, dont understand chinese much.

I actually spent from 10pm after my stupid pingpong show(with not much pingpong action) to write it man. Gawd-awful.

WO AI NI
Dan shi ni gan jue bu dao,
Ni ting bu jing, wo shuo bu chu.
"Wo ai ni"

Yes, well if you understand the words that are coming out of my 44.2% asian mouth.

Goodnight! You yao que oink oink.

New song of my day: Over my head by Ne-yo
I really am in over my head.




Thursday, April 16, 2009

"I hear the words you're saying tonight, I'm falling for them every single time."

I stabbed my thumb. Ouch. I was so engross in sewing the badge on, I didn't realise I was bleeding on it. *babies cry in the background* Okay okay yes I sewed it.

Yeah I didn't leave Singapore my whole 2 month break, you'd think that Jane the globe trotter would've died of claustrophobia on this stupid red dot on the world map.

OH HO MATIES TO HELL WITH YOU! Singapore wont kill me even if it was "OVER INHIBITED" with lians/bengs. Singapore will just face the worst dicktator of all time, Ah-Beng-Off Hit-leh Jane. I'll be the next Napo-lian Bomb-their-butt.

Sorry Adolf, sorry Napoleon.

I just listened to the most ridiculous band of all time. They've been formed for like 6 years? I've only heard them twice, and both times I thought they were horrigible.

Sometimes I miss old rock bands like Scorpions, Guns N Roses, ACDC, Oasis ... *sigh* what the hell. Michael Learns to Rock beats that ridiculous 4 man band, rubbish. Which brings me to laugh at what Bryan said.

"What the hell is wrong with people? There's no such genre as indie!! Stupid people go 'oh I listen to indie.'" *Bryan makes a face* "Retards."

Okay! Dont kill me, he's the rocker. Those people who like indie bands, I've nothing against them! But its fucking funny because he did make sense in the sense that there's no such genre as indie.

Alright alright, I planned on making my 11:30pm deadline. Seeing how I cant. Hahahaha!

Song of my day: Roses and Butterflies by Making April
This is where my heart is cold and torn...




Im not going to argue with you. If you want to act this way then so be it. If you want to keep blaming me, fine.

School's starting and I dont have time to play you're lil petty games anymore. I've apologised but if you insist that I am still wrong, so be it. I hold no grudges towards you, do as you wish.

I am still sorry but you are asking me to be someone Im not. Maybe in time, you'll finally see that I dont care what people say.

They're words bounce right off me. They're insults go right through me. Strangers cant hurt me, only the ones I love can.

HEH (: Not for y'all. Post's coming tonight at 11:30pm HAHAHAHA "must sleep at 'normal' timings ah!"




Wednesday, April 15, 2009

"Till you're with me, I'll be half alive."

Someone should give my brother an award for waking me up at 5:08am. I felt like beating his brains out with my free-mini-inflatable-ribena punching bag, really. I concluded that mummy dropped him when he was a baby.

My parents are one of a kind.

MUMMY.

Mummy *busy with something*: Ehh dont anyhow leave your cross ah.
J: Huh what cow saws? (picture a cow shaped saw)
M: What COW SAW?! CR-OSS! Haiyo your hearing's worst than grandma's. Ehh remember to bring up my 'ThankYou' cards when you go up.
J: Orh.
*5minutes later*
M: HEY! I tell you to bring up my cards, you're at the second floor my cards are still here!!
J: Harh?... oh ya hor hahaha I forgot.
M: "oh ya hor oh ya hor" you better come get it later. Your memory worst than grandma's told you like 5minutes ago!!
J: Coming, wait uh.
*walks downs and up with cards*
After I settle down and starting typing, mummy walks to the second floor 2 minutes later.
J: HEH?!! Eh you could've brought yo cards up when you come up what!!
M: Oh ya hor I forgot I was coming up to get my cheque book. Ha ha ha.
DIAO DIAO DIAO DIAOOOOO...

DADDY.

J: Daddy.
D: Hm? *not looking up from his newspaper*
J: My eyes cant stick leh.
D: *daddy's head shot up from his newspaper* (I think he thought my eyeballs popped out or something) use UHU.
J: -.- I bought two dollar elephant glue leh. It comes out all watery...my eyes still moving.
D: *takes the cardboard backing and stares at it* Hmmm you said watery?
J: Yeah.
D: Look at the pictures, does the glue coming out of the tube look watery to you?
J: Uh no?
D: *stares at me as though I knew the answer*
J: Oh! Oh. ("Mix well" slapped me in the face)

Daddy doesnt give me answers, he makes me think. Lazy people(me) hate it.

Mummy's going insane. Today she said to go to bed by 10:30pm. Tomorrow's prolly 9:30, Friday's prolly 8:30, Saturday 7:30, Sunday's prolly 6:30. Monday's what? Sleep in school ah? Oh I love my mum.

*bangs head on keypad* FUCK MAN waiting for TP website to load I can like fly to Timbuktu and back still wont load finish man. *falls off chair whining* Anthea logged in before me!! *rolls around on the floor whining*

I read a line today, something that reminded me of you, fondly. "Morning love." Hahahaha! Oh you pull on my strings even when you're not with me.

Song of my day: Tears in Heaven
Would it be the same, if I saw you in heaven.




Tuesday, April 14, 2009

"Will you try?"

Mummy took a dump on my parade that I've waited for donkey years. "School's starting soon you better sleep by 11:30 ah!"

I dont think my I.T. skills fail me, so you should be able to see the quiz I took. Okay it aint a quiz, I just typed in my birthdate and POP it became coco crunch! Shuddup and read the coco crunch.

‘ fun quiz for myspace profile and blog

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

Mummy said Im suppose to sleep at normal timings now cause school's starting soon. Translation: Get off the computer and stop wasting my money on electricity.

Hahahahaha! It's funny, I don't usually sleep til like 3plus. It's weird, I feel tired but my mind wont stop. So I cant sleep. Nobody in their right mind would do the 7times name calling right?

Call the person's name 7 times and if the person hasnt slept, they wont stop thinking of you hence they wont sleep. Caution it back fires if the person's already sleeping. HAHAHHA

Song of the day: Come Back To Me by Akon
I'll just die if I cant see your face.




Are you done? Are you done hurting me? Are you? Because I really want my buddy back. Where's the idate I've come to love?

I know you're disappointed in me, for choosing her over you. And you do a royal pain in the ass job of reminding me that I've hurt you with my selfishness.

Since then, I've been apologising to you, over and over again. You promised in time you could forgive me, and I promised to give you time, I've held up my end, it's been 10 painful months.

Dont you dare pull number2 into this. I didn't tell him not because I want to hurt him. He knows that even if I was being an ass that I still had his best interest at heart. I would never hurt him.

You, I thought you were open minded, you proved me wrong. Not only that, you spat in my face everytime I tried to share the joy. Tell me when have I ever raised my voice or gotten angry with you? NAME IT.

You've shouted at me, scolded me, argued with me, but never listened to me when I tried explaining. You need to stop, because Im growing tired of your nonsense.

Dont make me promises you cant keep.

HOHOOHOOO uhhh people, this aint fo y'all(: The post will come tonight. Hahahaha! GOING FO WAFFLES, calms me down.




Monday, April 13, 2009

"Keep part of me with you."

HAPPY EASTER, lil bunnies and chocolate eggies, I still dont get it, what does Jesus rising from the dead have to do with bunnies and eggs?

I did a quiz that both Miley and Poks asked me to do one FB. And the last line really killed me because it made so much sense it was UNDENIABLE.

"Sometimes, you might find yourself in a dilema when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your brain needs to solve."

Oh Mummy said I WONT BE IN SINGAPORE DURING TERM BREAK! YIPPIE! We are going Carcassone(France), Mont Saint Michel(my FAV), Barcelona and a couple other places!

Away from Singapore, away from bengs, away from lianz! Oh that makes me so happy. Whoa fuck man. Im totally excited.

I HEART MUMMY. Im going for CATS the musical! 21st April baby! I love musicals, love theatre, love orchestras and love plays. WHOA. I just let you in on my softy side.

Guess that's it, my song of my day: Everytime I... by Mario Vasquez




Sunday, April 12, 2009

My damn internet screwed up itself. The post that I wanted to post isnt being posted. Oh be damned.

You asked me why I liked this song, this is why.

Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park

I dreamt I was missing, you were so scared.
But no one would listen,
Cause no one else cared.

So if your asking me, I want you to know.
.......

When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done,
Help me leave me behind,
Some reasons to be missed.

Dont resent me and when you're feeling empty,
Keep me in your memory.
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest.

Dont be afraid, I've taken my beating,
I've shed but I am me.

Im strong on the surface, but not all the through.
I've never been perfect and neither have you.

........

Forgetting all the hurt inside, you've learn to hide so well.
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself.
I can't be who you are.

........

When you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory.

Do you understand now?