I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, November 29, 2008
A session of obsession with no action.

Had my good oh bowl of porridge fo breakfast. Dam issit filling or what man. ASTONS fo dinner. OH GOOD FOOD ALL DAY LONG.

Mummy asked me to set up the Christmas tree! OH YIPPIE! Oh wait a minute, I frickin do it every dam year! Which only means Daddy's hosting another Christmas party! Speaking of Christmas party, I have 3 to be present, Janey's, my poly bud's, ley's and mine, ownage! HAHAHAHHAHA! SHIT.

Good food + good company + good booze = HELLA GOOD TIME! Where where ma party people at?

Im still replaying my 2sec video and yesterday's 2 min video and its making me smile. GAWD. *resist the urge of throwing confetti*
*DROOLS*
*Anthea puts a bucket under ma mouth*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA GAWD. ANTHEA SLAP ME SILLY NOW! I need to get it outta my head!! Ooooohhhhh that smile. *DROOLS*

Christmas is coming!

Theres so many things on my mind. Theres so mant things I wanna do. GAWD. Why must I miss that smile so much. HARLOW. Its only living 2 days without.

Omg. I took an OBSESSION TEST. Please guess my score. 21 outta 30!! WTF!! ): Im so not obsessed can! *lives in denial*

Gawddammit!

You know what, I dont feel like carrying on... theres only one thing on my mind. I cant get it off my mind. I dont want it off my mind but if I dont get it out, I cant do things PROPERLY.

Gawddammit again!

Online shopping is as addicktive as asking mummy fo moneh. *points to gina* eh. Your fault lorz. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!

One last thing. My cat class teacher, Michael, his wife was the one who died in the mumbai terror attack. My lil heart goes out to him.




Friday, November 28, 2008
Had your fill Jane?

Today. Seems to be a great day! People I want to see I saw. Things I want to do I did. Issues I want to say I said. Read something I've been wanting to read since 2 weeks ago. Im glad theres finally peace.

ANTHEA LIEU STILL OWES JANE LEE AN ITALIAN SODA.

New fav words, "EL CHEAPO"

Sherie is sucha stalker! But she means no harm(: omg. Fucking nerd here, was paying half arsed attention at BMIC lect. When my shorts vibrated. Please nono to sick thoughts. Msg.

"Turn around. Look who's here! Haha Sam the ham! Lol"

I was eating my cashew nut and started gagging onnit. For one, I didnt know sherie was in the same lt. Second, sam? HAHAHAHAHA! And no, I didnt know sam was behind me. BEST THING WAS, EVERYONE(anthea, lucky, poks, yl, eunice, bryan, miley) IN MY ROW KNEW THAT EXCEPT ME!! WTF!! *throws a fucking trantrum* Ohkay, over it.

Speaking of sherie, her openness amazes me. Sitting at design couple days back, and we were talking bout our past and how we both come from "the Girls school"(a term for SAC), best part was, she told me every single detail without me asking! Impressed by sherie once again.

*prances around the room throwing confetti and grinning away*

Stayed back til 6.04pm *grins* Like watching my favourite movie. I was just sitting there staring and....
Anthea was like "what you looking at?"
Jane says in a flat-too-busy-looking-to-say-anythinge-else "Sam."
Best part was! Omg. Anthea, miley, lucky, eunice, poks, cyrus, joshua and yl, immediately turned and look in the direction I was staring at. Even though cyrus and joshua have no idea who sam is.
Anthea and lucky: wherrrr......OH!
Both of them had the same reaction. It was dam funny. HAHAHAHAHA!

Staying back was worth it.

Dinnered with cyrus, anthea and lucky. Dam funny can. Cyrus and lucky were "challenging" each other at who can eat more. Anthea and I were like "do we know you two? Why they make us share tables to food monsters?!" HAHAHAHAH!

*stops prancing around the room, run out of confetti already luh and my room is already knee deep with confetti*

Cheer up Anthea! I'll always be here for you. Let it out before the hurt turns into anger, I learnt a lot from number2, he thought me how to deal with anger. Ironic eh? My temper isnt exactly the most controlled. I can be extremely patient or extremely impatient, just depends on WHO im dealing with.

You know AHEM is all yours right? HAHAHAHAH! You dont even have to look at me *hands up* I am all eyes on *coughs and mumbles something*. And when I say Im taking it at snail pace I mean it. I mean my words, Im not like yeahh... I know myself best, I know what Im doing(:

I hope you enjoy your weekend, aunty. Even though weekends kill me, I dont mind them because I know you love them! HAHAHA!

So if you respect her enough as a friend, you would know your place and back off.

Johnson ah Johnson. Parading your dardar around me to see my reaction? What would you like me to say? "Oh your girlfriend is a smokin' hot gilf(girl I'd like to fuck)." PFFFT. I dont like to lie and Hugh Heftner's gonna fart in your face. What you have doesnt make me jealous pal. HAHAHAHAHA has your pico-sized dick gotten to you? Like ma niggas say, theres somethin' wrong wich yo motherfoukin' ass biatch.

Happy Birthday Moose! *waits til 11.59 before I click the button "publish"*

Soundtrack:
Single by Neyo
Say goodbye by Skillet
What you got by Colby O Donis
Stolen by Dashboard confessionals
No one else comes close by Joe




Thursday, November 27, 2008
I will get what I want in due time. Patience is a virtue.

Its funny how I didnt see much of my ham today, yet Im still happy.

Cept this time, Anthea keeps bastarding me telling me sam's over there, over here. I feel blind): HAHAHAHAHA!

These past coupla days have been a hella long time. Im rushing 2 projs, a fucking lab report and keeping a leash on fify. Anthea's got afew things on her mind. Poks is just plain bitchy maybe his mense havent come yet. Lucky's been unwell. Miley's been angry and sad due to some unforeseen stuff.

Made a new friend today during Jap lect. Joshua. GAWD. How many joshuas does God want me to know? Anthea was like "too nice to be straight." HAHAHAHAH well he was nice, but he did have the gay vibe. Touche. My new Jap lect buddy.

I LOVE BMIC NOW. Not just cause of lab(major reaason) but del sim is the SHIT man. Her tutorials are the bomb. Shes fucking hilarious. My new sarcastic idol. These two students came in asking for like 2 chairs and she was like "uh cant have them, not enough for my students." when there was like 10 empty chairs and only 4 people missing. HAHAHAHA! Then we were like uhh...theres only 4 ppl not here. She gave the dam-bitchy-bimbo-paris-hilton-i-dont-give-a-shit sorta "oops?!" HAHAHAHAHAHHA! I almost fell off my chair laughing, plus her facial expression is dam funny!

Alrights. I keep to my word of being superficial here. Im off...gotta go wrap a coupla things and begin writing.

I learn: All that you want, will be yours, in time to come. Im resisting the urge of giving into fify because old man jones is holding me back. Yet they can say whatever they like about me and me obsession. I dont give a FLY FUCK. Continue bitch fitting at me. It only makes me feel better because Im taking one for someone important to me.




Wednesday, November 26, 2008
WHOOOP DEE FREAKIN DOO

Guess my mood now. Im learning to ignore things. Been high all day today, gawddam happy man.

Oh trust me, Ive roughly mastered the art of selective version, shit I mastered the hardest of all the "arts of" already. The art of being emotionless on a subject. Kudos.

OH YESSU! BMIC LAB. Gawd. I looked forward to it all day. We started last, ended so fast somemore. Dam hilarious. Stupid feedback shit. Lame.

Whats best was MILEY SPOTTED sam and friends leaving and chased me out of the lab before I even finished my lab. HAHAHAHA! We ended up sitting at the stairs waiting for anthea, bryan, poks, eunice and yl. I realised, miley was a person I could actually talk to, like talk about anything. I talk him through his problems and he makes me laugh. Not to mention CALL ME WHEN ONEREPUBLIC's having their performance!! GAWD.

Anthea: Jane you should start jumping with joy now, sam. *clears throat*
Jane: huh? why? where? *looks around in the wrong direction*
Anthea, bryan, miley: OTHER WAY LUH!
Jane: HAHAHA bastards!

I absolutely love today if you minus before and after lab. HAHAHAHAHAH! Plus the doodling on my file of a piece of ham is the SHIT. Best piece of art I've come up with since forever...HAHA!

I find myself looking forward to wednesdays now more than ever. I dread fridays and tuesday, adore wednesdays.

I'll be looking forward to my 2seconds worth of heaven tomorrow. Im hungry for more ham *grins* HAHAHAHAH fuck up luh. Thats it, I'll be so shallow here. Dont feel like telling the whole world.

I still have that bucket full of sunshine(:




Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Nothing will ever last if you dont make the effort.

Im going to spend some time babbling about something I know half of you people reading(especially Janey) wont understand. But here goes nothing. This is the first time and last I will ever raise this topic for discussion again.

Here goes nothing...

Why do you are you angry at me? Have I done something to hurt your heart? I didnt say you werent the one for me. I didnt tell you that other people were hotter or cuter than you. But the moment you dropped those 2 metal things in my palm, how can you expect me to show you the same attention, the same love, the same smile as I did before?

Why do you feel decieved? How did I break your heart? How can you say I decieved you? My intentions was so clear and so was my mind. When I said the things I said to you, I meant it. When I was with you, I thought of no one else, only you. I looked at no one else, only you. I dont understand, what did I do to make you feel decieved. Please, tell me.

Why do you feel cheated? I didnt say things I did not mean. I did not do things I did not mean. I never had any intention of hurting you. I wanted the world for you, I wanted all that was good for you. Most of all, I wanted you. What have I taken from you?

Why cant you talk to me? I wanted to understand you, I wanted so many things for you, I wanted to surprise you for your birthday because you scarificed your time for mine, I wanted to... but when it ended, I can no longer bring myself to pick up and continue. So I cut everything off, I was disappointed you couldnt experience it. This isnt to spike you or hurt you, this is an ernst confession.

Im not angry at you, Im disappointed with myself. I dont blame you for anything, I know you did things for me too. I know, and I love them, just like how I wore the band you gave me everyday. When I said, "you cant piss me off, love." I mean it, you cant, no matter what you do you will always be that soft spot, I cared for you, and I still do.

The end.


Today was alright.

Noon was best though. I hung out with my bestie, lanzy. HAHAHAHA! So I was sitting at As with lanzy's 10people clique...gawd. Their nice people, get along well with all of em. Then something random flew into my mind.

Which made me think, "wheres that piece of ham?", the next thing I knew. Someone(wasnt looking up) grazed my foot...not to mention dirtying my already dirtied shoe. I was annoyed because ... yeahhhh... then I gave the person my death ray snare. HAHAHAHHA! It turned out to be that piece of walking ham.

The piece of ham gave me an apologetic smile. Yes, my face totally changed. Of course, I couldnt be angry whattt....do I look that fucking petty? Lanzy dont say anything. PSSSHHHH C'mon. HAHAHAHAH! I kid I kid.

Miley makes me wanna hug him. I was like "miley, aint you shocked Im bi?", his reply was the reply I'd give to my besties, so its of some standard. His reply was, "Nope, why should I be? It doesnt change the person I know you to be. You are still you." Since then, I realised that, miley's a friend to have, and a friend I wont give up on so easily. Someone who can see pass this trait of mine, deserves my respect.

Next person on my list to kill and bastard.
A fucking faggot. Eh motherfucker. You bastard me once, bastard me twice. Bastard me behind my back to my GOOD FRIENDS? You do know your digging your own fucking grave right? My friend list spreads further than your gay fuck voice. I smile and not say anything because I pitied you for having sucha gay fuck voice and life. But now, hoho. YOU CAN GO FUCK TO HELL. Next time I see you, your gonna wish you were burning in hell along with your dickless voice. Dont worry, you can have your laugh now, I will have my chance to torment you, til then, I will slowly tear your miserable life apart. Basket, you might be my senior but I have no respect for you. Sherie, not you.




Monday, November 24, 2008
LIL PIECE OF HAM

Coincidence? Happened a lot today no?

Today during CELLB lect break, walked to Cheers to get me some greenTEAAAA. Walking back, funny, I was thinking to myself, "wheres that piece of ham?" while eating my chocolate piggies.

JUST THEN, that piece of ham was walking towards our direction. Everybody turned and looked at me!! HARLOW?! Of course, stop and stare was playing, not the stop part thou. BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT....MILEY had to happily call me. And me being the naturally nice person that I am, turn to answer him.

GAWD. He called me just to tell me sam the ham was in fronna us. The moment I looked away to answer miley, my hands wanted to drop my cup of piggies and strangle him to death.

Laggi best, Bryan was like, "eh Jane." so I looked back. Bryan: "their walking back with us. hahaha! you wanna walk backwards all the way to AS?" LOL? No. Trippin' aint cool. HAHAHAHAH! My reply: *grins* "no need, my piggies will get jealous."

After lecture *grins* all I have to say is, "dddddam do you smell goooooood." But I cant help but miss sexy's smell...both addictive can. Oh wells, cant smell it again.

OH. Miley bestest. Win already lo.

Then the best part was...miley turned to me and was like..
Miley: eh. that girl's hot. you know her?
Jane: who?
Miley: that one *points to vet tech girl*
Jane: Ooooh...hot meh?
Miley: dam hot can!
Jane: oh. I have her number. you want?
Miley: *jaw drop* how how you got her number?!
Jane: ohh..she called me last time...why? you want her number issit?
Miley: whats her name?!
Jane: I dunno.
Miley: you dunno her name, you know her number?
Jane: miley. I dont give a shit. Za..something luh. cant remember.
Miley: help me get her name!
Jane: you gimme the list ill give you her number then you can do whatever you like hm?
Miley: okok go back I give you the list.
Jane: *grins* yay!

Please note, the list, its something of uber significance to me. And of all people, miley has it. HAHAHAH!

AIYUH. Im sick of typing luh. Talk talk talk. I dont even know why Im telling you people bout my day. WHOA. Out burst freak much Jane?

GILF: Girl/Guy I'd love to fuck. - Jane's new word derived from MILF.




Sunday, November 23, 2008
Vulgar nerd talks, everybody please turn away

"Did you get yourself wasted yesterday or something huh Jane?"

Fucking nerd hobo here went to church looking likka drunktard. Messy arsed hair, crumpled checks button-up, 2weeks never wash jeans, fucking dirty looking white pumas.

HA HA. Funny. NO! Im sick, you bloody fucking shit. I sound rather vulgar now. *tones down*

Its absolutely hilarious how my reflex retards a million times over once Im sick. A gust of wind blew this packet of tissues towards me, I saw it coming, and USUALLY, my right hand grabs it before it slaps me. Instead, my right hand slapped the table and the tissue slapped me. HAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Lesley's face was priceless. Sorry luh okay! Never catch the tissue that slapped MY face. LOL!!

Gonna give ya'll a relatively early one today, I have other important things to attend to tonight. SICK SICK SICK! Germies are attacking my spread thin immunity! YAY! Need to get rid of them in my body! Just thank God its not Salmonella. Bet ya'll anti-science nerd fuckers dunno what salmonella is! HA! No ley, its not salmon bits.

MONDAY's TOMORROW? YESSU FUCKERDU YESSU! *prances around the room, throwing confetti*

I am a bloody jerk am I not? Talk to me, tell me what I did wrong, love. most of the time, what you think isnt whats true yeah? Now now now I cant let you be angry on your birthday. You'll always have a place in fify, soft spot.