I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, April 4, 2009

"I want to ask if you dare to love me the way I love you."

Hung out with the twins at Mel's Place bar and bistro! But I had to abandon them after dinner, Im SORRY but she was in a really bad shape): SORRY.

Everyone's progress arent going so well. Everyone's missing someone. Some people are torn up over break ups. Some people are like literally moping as I type.

It hurts that I have to sit there as they cry and not know what to say. Guys can be really big asses, either that or they dont know how to part amicably. I dont understand why would they hurt someone they once loved.

It's simply beyond me(mentally, emotionally, physically) to understand why, really. What do you get out of it? I still dont see the fun in hurting people.

And you there(the heartbroken girl) I know your hurting, I'll be here for you. Sometimes I wish people would have a little more compassion and morals too.

Song of the day: Heaven Sent by Keyshia Cole

God please keep her safe from harm. And I promise I'll never hurt her the way he hurt my friend. You'd have to kill me before I'd purposely hurt her. I'll tuck her in, say goodnight, watch her sleep, to make sure she's safe in a whole of a her dreams.




Friday, April 3, 2009

I got woken up only to be rushed, kicked out the door only to be hurried to school, just to WAIT. (If only the bloody font could go bigger, it'll be my post for the day)

I hate making people WAIT and I hate WAITING on people.

Fuck. My dream was dam bloody nice too! *grumbles* I was playing basketball with her. HAHAHHA! SHUDDUP. She was thrashing me *scratches head and laughs* NOT KUTU!

Oooooh. Bras Basa is a gold mine. It's got really good book stores filled with crap! Seriously. I bought this tape thing that's filled with dots which you colour in to make lil messages. COOLIO YO.

Im so bored I unlocked my archive and I cant think of what to write. So I'll just cough up a poem for you. Enjoy.

Poem's name: Swim beyond

My little angel girl,
In her own little world,
You make my mind swirl,
When your lips curl.

Baby you know it's too late,
I've tried my best to escape,
But this feeling's hard to fake,
Im beginning to love fate.

If music rules my heart,
Then you are my Mozart.
If art rules my soul,
Then you're my Angelo.

The last stanza's actually from my masterpiece. HAHAHAHAH! I hate to leave it unfinished, too lazy to think anymore, so I'll just kahpo from my masterpiece!

"Maybe one day, you'll understand why I did the things I did."

Song of my day: Maybe Tomorrow by Westlife
I LOVE IT.

God keep her snuggly safe in Your arms, away from harm. Im still thinking of her. Tuck her in, my lil soft cuddly human soft toy. (According to OMJ) Maybe tomorrow you'll say that your mine(: Im yours.




Thursday, April 2, 2009

"Write down something heart-felt for her to understand you." Eli said, "Not that she'll get to read it anytime soon. Hahahahaha!"

This was what I wrote.

When I sat at the stairs and you stood in front of me. I didnt know what was happening. You stole my reasoning. You stole my sight. You stole everything that meant anything to me, my heart.

You saw through me, I know you did. You stood there, giving me an encouraging smile. And the only thing I could think about was, how could I have missed that smile, it was beautiful.

Im not kidding when I say I love you.

Dont ask me why I love you, I just do. My heart doesnt give me answers, it gives me the overbearing overprotectiveness over you. It wants me to keep you safe, it wants me to see you smile, it wants me to make sure you will be caught when you fall.

Im not kidding when I say I miss you.

Dont ask me why I miss you, I do all the time.

On my lucky days, I see you for 5 seconds.
On my bad days, I dont see you at all.
On "my" day, I sit in the same room as you.
On my horrific days, you dont see me.
On my paradise day, you sit beside me.

But no matter what day Im having, I miss you all the same.
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Today was rather uneventful by my standards(very high). Sat at home reading, finished a book and 35more articles. What?! I just like reading, really.

Ooooooh made strawberry smoothie(: Anthea's like green, like dark forest-gump green. HAHAHAH! I had to make it twice, stupid brother. HAHAHAH!

I was watching Seasame's Street! I love Elmo and his lil pet goldfish, Dorothy. It's hilarious! He talks to the goldfish. What's she sppose to say in return? I hate big bird, stupid chicken. Ahhh the pleasures of staying at home! HAHAHA -.- kill me.

Song of my day: Did you wrong by P Pleasure feat. Teairra Mari
No matter what you do, no matter what you say, no matter how far you go, dont take your love away. Because I love you girl.

God please keep her safe in your arms. One day she'll read what I wrote right? Hahaha! It's alright. Sweet dreams and dont let the bed bugs bite baby(:




Tuesday, March 31, 2009

"It is effortless to care for someone and the two words are unconditional love."

My mind might change, but my heart doesnt falter when it comes to you. There are many things I'd like to say, but the situations and "status" that Im in, doesnt allow me to. (It's complicated)

What's the date again? If you know today's date, you unlike me, wont be fooled.

I got fooled. _l_ you! HAHAHAHAH!! Oh come now Im a wet blanket not a spoilt sport! Come on it's APRIL FOOLS DAY! I like celebrating, weird, I know.

I found out something, Singaporean's are very unhappy people. In fact, we rank like one of the few bottoms that dont like our way of life. I really wonder why. HAHAHHAHA! I find it at my upmost amusement, really.

Tomorrow's post will be more unexciting. Since I've decided to spend the whole friggin' day at home! WHEEE!

Song of my unfun-april-drools day: Forever with you by Big Bang
I understand nothing of the song. Heck I dont even know why it's the song of the day. Im just *SNORES*

God please keep her *SNORES* HAHAHAH Im kidding, of course I am... keep her safe from harm! Sweets dreams baby! And you really have to stop showing up in my dreams, I might think your dream-stalking me! (:




I dont have anything to say, really. Hahahaha! Im just here for the sake of being here. Lemme vent my frustration for justa bit okay? HAHAHAHAH!

Singaporean parent's are going to turn into Hong Kong parents soon, if they keep up with calling their children "Euphemia", "Kazzan" - deffo lianzz mother.

Hong Kong parents still win this one with "Hymen Wong". Shit. I should name my kid "Vagina Lee" or "Dick Lee" - oh wait! TAKEN. I wont be surprise to hear a "Scrotum Wong" in the near future.

Seriously people. What the hell. What happen to name like "Collin" or "Sarah" or "Annie"? Singaporeans turn them into "Colon", "Sa La", "Anemia".

20days til school start. Im still waiting. Waiting til I see your face again. Waiting til I see your smile again. Waiting til I hear your voice again. It's all I can think about, it's why I wake up in the morning for.

I am still missing you here.

Song of my $$ spending day: Anyone of Us by Gareth Gates - Gay song, nice lyrics.
Anyone can fall. Anyone can hurt someone they love, hearts will break.

God please keep her safe and keep her healthy. You know I'll never sing her that song if she were in my arms, because I will never hurt her. Tuck her in and let her have sweet dreams!




Monday, March 30, 2009

Sneeze, Snooze, Sneezing.

Im just bullshiting, that isnt the past/present tense shit. But that's what I've been doing pretty much half the day. Snoozing my daylight away, sneezing my life-light away.

WHAT THE HELL. Whoever is thinking or missing me please stop!! My nose is gonna fly off and smack someone's face soon, mucus each sold separately.

The leap years. Anyone watched? The fact that the movie was fine with lesbian-ism because it is a Singaporean show and Singaporeans are pure ignorant, I give it a 1/10.

Hence the sentence, "Ignorance is bliss." Yeah it's so bliss, it's a blister on our society's mentality. Singaporean = Ignorant. Singaporeans = Ignorants.

As romance storyline goes, it's baboon balls luh. Acting was HORRI-GIBLE. I'd rather watch Martha Stewart cook on cable. Waste my time luh! I could have spent it watching GREY's ANATOMY. *grumbles*

AHHHH!! MY EYES!! ERICA & CALLIE?! Grey's Anatomy script writers are fucking with my eyes! I just watched 7 long seconds of ERICA HAHN KISSING CALLIE TORRES! Season4 is done!

Heart-fart moment:
"I cant forgive myself, knowing you haven't forgiven me. I really need you to say you forgive me, I really want to hear it. Can you do that for me baby?"

Song of the day: Stuck with each other by Shontelle feat. Akon
You can try to push me from you, nothing you do will keep us a part.

God please keep my lil angel safe from harm. Tuck her in for me, keep her warm and fuzzy away from the harsh world outside. I pray for patience and understanding, I am going to be a better person, for her.




Sunday, March 29, 2009

Jane pulled the fuckin' cuticle off my finger. Jane is fuckin' screaming my ass off(farting) around the house demanding to know why I pulled it in the first place.

My burrito-ed toe is growing moss, my cuticle-less finger is twitching, my ears are ringing from plastic noise. Injury is my new middle name. Jeez that makes like 4 middle names.

Jane Trouble Idle Injury Geek Fayth Lee Jia Hui. I love my name. Anyone wanna add on? Hahahaha!

I think it's the OBVIOUS fact I dont spend time with my family anymore. Scott and Eli asked me something that made me think on the train home.

First slap:
"You are so busy with a million and one other things and people, you dont have time for your family, do you really think you'll have time for her?"

Second slap:
"Girls require more attention than guys. Except Eli's likka guy so...*laughs* trust me, they make NOISE when unhappy."

Oh my gawd man. Back to back slaps. HAHAHAHA! Pause pause pause! I make time for people! You gotta gimme time to make time too :D

Heart-fart moment:
"It takes time to love." Indeed.

Brain-fart moment:
I love my freedom. Restrict my freedom and you have a VIRAGO on your hands.

CIAO! Today's post is earlier due to less distractions. Hahaha!

Song of the day: Takes Time To Love by Trey Songz
It takes time. Living in a world you dunno who to trust. Next time, slow it down and dont feel you have to rush. Takes time to love.

God please keep her safe and happy! Tuck her in with a goodnight kiss and let her have sweet dreams! She's still annoyingly adorable(: