I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, December 13, 2008

Yesterday can be summed up with a slang word, "shiok".

Movied, dinnered and "dranked" with my buddies.

Twilight's not bad, Alice and Carlisle are DROOL worthy.

Billy Bombers also not bad, Honey Stung chicken is the shit.

Breezer is as always, nice. But with friends, even nicer.

Cant be bothered to elaborate on yesterday, whee-bit lazy and whee-bit forgotten.

Today can be summed up with a english language word, "nice".

Went borders to get, books, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Funny, I have 2 outta 4 of the books already, yet Im buying another. Who knows people like ley can lose my WALL.E dvd....a book wont be that hard no?

I wanna read the whole series again, its rather entertaining. I intend to have some alone time with myself, cept this time, a book will be with me, wait a sec, that means Im not alone. Okay whatever shut up and read on.

Shopped for a diamond. Yes, I am doing that. Yes, a real one. Yes, I will wear it. No, Im not getting married.

Its a Christmas present, from mummy. Then again, I dont want one unless I get me one of em big assed ones. As big as J.Lo's ass, get what Im saying? Hahaha! No I'm kidding, if its as big as J.Lo's ass...Marc Anthony would wanna piece of it too.

Ooh. Movies out. Bought like 6 dvds and one weird assed chinese one(which Im sure as hell not going to watch so only God knows why I bought it). Top on the list would be DARK KNIGHT. Followed by Mamma Mia.

Some of you might ask. Why would Jane buy a frickin' dvd of a musical? For memories sake and it's a musical. Gawd, when have I actually turned down anyone who asked me to go watch one? If those aint enough of reasons, I liked it.

Sat in my fake-grass-carpet-shelter-with-hanging-fan-garden-front this morning. I didnt sit IN it actually. I sat at the tea table daddy's newpaper reading spot.

It seemed perfectly peaceful. The wind blew, the sun wasnt rubbing it's tits in my face, didnt have any hungry snapping turtles having a go at my toe, and the song "Promise of a life time" playing melodically into my ears. It seemed perfectly peaceful.

Closed my eyes, for once I could afford to let time slip away. Thinking back a month or so into my memories. The warmth of the sunlight baking me skin, a strong steady voice said, "You are at peace now, the torture is finally over. Never take it for granted again, Jane."
My inner peace, finally returned after its long vacation, I can smile because I realise I was so damn blessed. I was happy, I still am happy and nothing can take memories away from me.

Oh my Christmas list, I know I havent typed it out, nor put much thought into it. Something's on my mind, it requires constant restriction of emotion, otherwise Fify might up and do something stupid that I might regret.

I guess this should be enough to please you *points at whoever reads this* no? My thought put very simply into words, I dumbeded it into simplified english words....I dont recall putting in any expensive vocabulary. *scrolls up* Yup, clean and simple.

Soundtrack: These songs are worth having a listen.

Promise of a lifetime by Kutless
Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park

Fav part from LP
I'm strong on the surface,
Not all the way through,
I've never been perfect,
But neither have you.




Friday, December 12, 2008

Tears in my eyes,
gas in my ass,
arms with no harm,
I am so not drunk.

Tears are from the DUST shits that slapped my eyes. My eyes are emotional. HAHAHA!

Gas from all the alcohol I drank LYING down. My ass is a strong one.

Arms are in pain, from all the straining I've done to them. It does no harm.

Alcohol is from....well I have no idea what alcohol is made of only that it's alcohol.

Too tired to type, I shall write more tomorrow, til then, ciao.




Thursday, December 11, 2008

Golly gee. Its been one hella day even though its justa afternoon.

My math is a goner. Hahaha! Wow, Im still laughing. Fascinating. Totally failable like BMIC.

I felt so usual, so numb, so to test my nerves. I punched another hole in my ear. Yes, there was no feeling at all.

Ok shut up and listen to the song on the blog, it caught me off guard. Its actually very meaningful if you only listened to the words. The call by Regina Spektor.

The person who can tell me what I want for Christmas, you will get something special. THIS IS FO REAL, wanna see who knows me best.

Well on the way home, a kitty followed me. Hahaha! I have a weird fetish of animals. So I carried the poor buddy in one arm while I walked back to cold storage to get some whiskers(cat food). I got cat fur all over my edc shirt but it's alright.

Poor buddy was like eating as though he'd been starving since dont know when. Gave em water and whiskers. HAHAHAH! Was tempted to feed buddy WHISKEY. HAHAHAH! PSHHH bet my vet techy friends gonna have my head "onna steeeeek"

Well me being a vet is not gonna happen for one simple reason, I kills me to see an animal in pain. Im still alright seeing a human in pain(not any of my loved ones).

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHH GAWD.

Have anyone of you suckers watched Confession of pain the movie? The one Tony Leung and Ta-HOTHAIR-keshi Ka-IWANTHISHAIR-nashiro?

Yes, as much as I like his eyes, I LOVE HIS HAIR EVEN MORE. Its sorta like the "I just got outta bed but it looks nice already be jealous" feel to it? No? Yes luh. Yes well my current fuckerific thwarted clearly messed up hairdo is styled after it.

Tomorrow's checks day(unofficially) *whines* Thank Gawd. Sal the hk richbitch, isnt in Singapore. Otherwise, I wouldnt hear the end of it neither will that button-up ever be taken off.

Tomorrow's also the last day of term tests! C.E.L.E.B.R.A.T.I.O.N. where ma party people at?!

You wont imagine how much I want tomorrow to come.

Though nothing is about me or related to my personal life. As a buddy of miley. I am thoroughly euphoric, I cant help but smile. My buddy's gonna be a big boy tomorrow! *GRIN*

HAHAHAHHA but dont worry, I got stuff planned for my Christmas holidays. 3parties, 1stayover, underwater world, dinner with buddies. DAMMM...busy human indeed. Cept I'll prolly cancel on ley. HAHAHAHA! OOPS?

Im so thrilled, Im not in the mood for CELLB. Im so into planning the whole fucking thing I want the one thing on my Christmas wishlist now.




Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Whats with Chewster being beleaguered by the thought of us not sitting in order. Her excuse was, "because Im going to pass the attendant sheet around and I want you to sign it."

For one, we aint blind, I believe 17year olds should be able to find their fucking name and sign on the line beside it.

For seonds, you fucking made me walk across 4 people TWICE, for God dont know what reasons.

For thirds, my class just doesnt like for you God knows what reasons.

HPI paper was the shits man cept the last question where they ask for 5 biological functions of complement pathway, I only got 3 outta 5. The rest I put properties.

HAHAHAHHA! I am so fucked. Like literally, when Ms Rozi hands me back me paper. I wont hear the end of it during lectures, "Jane pay attention!" nor in tutorials "Jane can you answer....blah blah"

*cross fingers* Gawd, lemme pass lemme pass so I wont get lambasted by Ms Rozi!!

Fuckerdu.

Walked outta the LT after HPI. Turn my head left looking for miley and poks, only to see Sam staring at me. Well, I didnt bother staring back so I just walked away. Thus you people can safely say I dont hold much interest in sam.

Then then then...CSAS. Can you say useless? Useless.

I dont understand why we need it. Are we suppose to SEARCH for key points in lab reports? Its not like the report's gonna be like 5million pages long right? Its final, CSAS is redundant.

MATH. Worldest favouritest subjectest. Im so brain-dead, I think I shall go nap afterwhich I'll decide whether I feel like moving my fingers to do a bit of math.




Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Funny, I read something that made me laugh to myself. I missed the good oh times of dissing them off hand. Oh wait! I still do! hahaha fuck them! On second thought I take that back.

For one, picodicks are no fun. For seconds, I dont do lianz nor bengs. I mean can YOU *points at whoever is reading this* imagine doing either a fugly buck tooth lian or a picodick beng? For thirds, I maybe bi but Im not blind, although blind consist of "b" and "i", thats irrelevant.

Oh bitch much?

The paper was...okay, to be frank...I TOTALLY didnt get the calculations for simple reasons to none, I NEVER PAID any attention during lab. Hence, you can say I shot myself in ma foot.

Things I studied, 85% didnt get tested *silent scream* those that I just glance through came out *silent scream* Fucked much? Yes, very.

This paper is totally failable, totally passable if Del Sim goes blind and dumbeded by ten leagues... then theres still hope. *rubs temple in disbelief*

Koch(pronounced crotch) postulates(pronouced post-tits)

Well, I didnt get them in order but with enough time I got 3 outta 4 and thats as good as it gets for my BMIC.

Come now even born GENIUSes like myself should be off studying instead of consolling myself by saying Im taking my break when I just had one like 5minutes ago.

God save the queen.




Monday, December 8, 2008

Gimme a break. Been staring at the Algae page for a good 2 hours. Its hilarious how I see, I understand and the next thing I know, it flies outta my head. *shrugs*

I wish msn has new status(s). Like "brain-dead" where your lil icon head is black but your body is green.

Im becoming obsessed with fucking micro-organisms. Its like I dropped my slice of apple on the ground, I end up staring at it for a good 15minutes. Daydreaming that lil microorganisms are building their houses as I stare.

"Oi! You studying or daydreaming?!" asks mummy. *snaps outta lala land* "takka chill pill doodles, Im learning." I reply

HAHHAHHAHAHAHA! I intend to sleep at 10pm. Even though I barely got to Aseptic techniques and what not. *points to algae* I blame you for this miscalculated timing!

Blatant irony, here I am still writing. Lesley can tell me the difference between protozoas and fungi....yet...all I can say is bacteria cell walls are made of peptidoglycan.

Not prepared much? Very. Hokay! Going back to study my oh so favouritest subjectest.




Gawd. I am so happy now. Fify finally lets go of Sam. Thank God its a passing feeling, I cant imagine myself going gaga over Sam any longer. It sickens me but makes fify happy.

To finish it all off with whip cream anna cherry on the top, Old man jones put his foot down! I am over it!

Old man jones = isnt thwarted by emotions = heartless = my idol.

I can finally breathe rhythmically, like I use to, when guilt wasnt on my side. Now I can stop hurting people and focus my attention on people who actually deserved it.

Okay, thats it for today.

About the screw up shits, HAHAHAH!! Its not bout sam, its bout someone else.




Sunday, December 7, 2008
DEAD

I hate this part right here.

I dont understand why the hell would people buy fucking IMITATION shirts that are from Diesel and wear it like it were to be worn for market trips. Gawd, I have a Diesel shirt and Im so fucking scared(to damage) to wear the bloody thing.

While I was paying through my nose for the novelty of owning one, it was bleeding as well. Gawd. If I cant get the real one, then I dont want it at all.

If you cant afford it then dont fucking wear it. Especially if you cant pull it off...dont try... it just tells me, your a fucking retard.

Like how bengs go to Topman and buy some REALLY nice shirt that Ive seen hot guys/girls pull it off a million times better. I cant help but roll my eyes and shake my head.

I cant bare to see him have one of my shirts. Not to mention he owns a fucking polo tee with the big "3" at the arm. Gawd. I almost burnt that shirt in the garbage can. I just pray he doesnt own any stripe polo button ups.

Gawd. That will just kill me, sorry but those are my favs. HA! Even if he has all of them, he wont have one that I do! HA! Linen limited ed! BEAT THAT BIATCH. *consoles self behind the door*

Whatever. Moving on.

TERM TEST! NEXT WEEK?! *gasp and act as though I care*

NEEEEEEEEEEEEEXT.

I saw PAUL in church today. I totally just rolled my bloody eyes at him, it was literally bleeding from the sight of him. HAHAHAHHA! Prick. Lesley seems to detest the dude more than me, for God knows what reason.

*sticks my middle finger at lesley then turns to paul* For you, bitch.

I love my life, hate the hypocrites.

Surprisingly Im not whining over no Sam. Then again, I dont want to start. I'll get my fill when I get it *shrugs* for now Im rockin' to THE HELL SONG! lml <-(open your hand, then put your thumb over your ring and middle finger)

SUM 41 makes 1/4 of me fav songs. ROCK ON