I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, February 14, 2009

I am happy today, not because something great happen, but because I read something that calmed me down, she's safe.

Ley and I went to the usual, to mow the lawn(haircut). This time we switched, we decided the other's hairstyle HAHAHA! Jane = butch. Ley = cleopatra.

Fran's party. People were getting drunk and flopping over like smelly cabbages(rubbish analogy). Whats with singaporean teens and getting drunk?

2 dicks challenge 2 nerds(ley&I) to down 6 ASAHI's(3ea person) in a minute. Your kidding me right? Your challenging 2 people who love asahi.

BOTH of them got to their 2nd cans and puked. FAGGOTS. Ley and I took 4 cans each. We drank their leftovers, and I could burp the ABCs. HAHAHA!

Im a raging alcoholic. Find me a raging alcoholic then we're on the same book.

Had to get a tipsy ley back home. This is insane, a girl bringing a guy home. At least he didnt puke on my feet. Hahaha!!

Besides, I couldnt be masterpiecing and it pissed me off. Got sick of hearing people puke, ley and I left the party early.

Tomorrow. CHURCH. Omg. I need to talk to Him. Say my prayers. Im tired. I need my sleep. CIAO!

God please keep her safe from harm.




Friday, February 13, 2009

Oh my gawd. A day without is like a year away.

Today wasnt exactly my ideal day like the past couple of days have been. Not the worst though. This week alone was fantastic.

Tomorrow spares me no thought. I have to meet travis then lesley then go for fran's party. Valentines Day my ass, its more like another Jane-busy day -.- Hate being busy.

My original plan was to sleep in til 1pm, then eat and read my novel. Gawd.

Anthea's been feeling off colour today. And having not seen her, I am not in a sane position to take on the world. Im a faggot without her.

I need to see her, just as much as I need to breathe. Does that tell you how much I miss her now?

I need God, I need to talk to Him. I know its funny. Cause talking to God about her isnt exactly the least ironic thing.

Dont bother judging me, you aint God, so I dont give a fly fuck what you think. (you refers to no one in particular)

Oh masterpiecing's coming along just spiffy! Just needa POLISH it thoroughly. Nothing less than perfect.

I'm missing you more than its humanly possible. I hope you know how your killing me.

"One look from your eyes, and all those dumb thoughts say goodbye."

CIAO!

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day, no shit. Im missing her to death, half falling SICK, with sem exams around the corner, getting ready to butt rape us. In God my faith stands.

God please keep her safe from harm.




Thursday, February 12, 2009

Ooooooohhhh my. Dont ask me how my day was.

I dont think tomorrow will be nice without her. Oh wells, I wont die, yet.

Tonight Im going to be like Santa! Giving out presents, I love giving. Makes me free chummy inside out.

CELLB -.- its the SAME fucking paper! OMG. Wtf. 75% of the MCQ questions were retarded. I felt insulted. To add oil to the fire, lloyd says "No copying answers from Matthew".

I dont know bout yall but my eyes rolled to heaven and back down to earth while muttering a curse word in latin. His very existence insults my presence(not vice versa).

Fuck, back to reality Jane. I totally fucked my plan in the ass. I was suppose to talk to her BY today, I totally forgot!! OMG.

"Now Im jumpin up and down, shes the only one around. She means every little thing to me."

CIAO! Gotta go attend to my masterpiece! & get them presents ready. Plus wrap fran's present.

God please keep her safe from harm.




Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Little fat rain droplets tumbled down the nearly paralled surface of the glass panel. It separated me from them, "so close yet so far" I sighed, wishing I could feel them bounce off my skin. Pressing my numb finger tips against the emotionalessly cold glass, I felt a fuzzy warmth flushed through me as I drifted off into a world... a world when Im hers...

Once upon a time.

These proves me engrish are not down there drain.
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Today was not bad, she caught me looking, red-handed. *dies* Hahaha!

SHIT. The deadline is Friday! SHIT. Anthea said she(not anthea) was right in front of me?! fuck shit asshole dammit.

*God, why didn't I turn right?* If I did, I'd have talked to her then my "its so crazy it might just work" plan... Either way, I wont die.

Today was "start on masterpiece" day. I've got ONE month, ONE. Jane's Masterpieces dont just drop from heaven! They require 95% of my brain juice and 100% of my concentration.

CIAO! Im forsaking CELLB for this masterpiece! But she's worth every second.

God please keep her safe from harm.




Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I am damn happy today. Why? Go figure.

Shopping with miley made me smile, because whenever he was deciding on what to buy for her. He ends up buying both options. I smiled because I saw the exact same person in me.

French movie was kinda boring, second part at least, first part was hilarious.

This poem is called: Amorousness

You are the only one,
this isn't just a want.
God will keep you safe from harm,
til you're resting safely in my arms.

I'll never let you fall,
not until I've given my all.
You are too precious,
for me to be callous.

With you I feel like a different person,
because I've found peace and reason.
You're all I'm waiting for,
Everyone else is a bore.

You saw it in my eyes, I know you know it. Either way, I want you to know it.

"Every little dream comes true with every little thing you do."

Poks, you are not alone. We will be there for you when you fall, to catch you. God's with you all the way. I love you buddy!

CIAO!

God please keep her safe from harm.




Monday, February 9, 2009

I heart my parents to death. They had shabu shabu hot pot at home fo us! YAY! I love 'em. I lovvvvvvve 'em! HAHHA!

They make my nice day so much nicer. Aww mummy you dont have to do that, she already made my day!! HAHAHHA!

I saw her today, walking. She turned back looking at me, and I could die a happy person.

Today was hilarious! Bryan, miley, anthea and I were like flinging jokes at each other as through it was our prerogative to.

Tomorrow. NO CDS. YAY! Though I really wanna know my gay museum grade. I wanna laugh in Josh's face.

Going shopping with me chummy-idiot-poser-bestbuddy MILEY!

CIAO! Im going off to...reading me novel and think of another poem.

"Im taking a chance, this could be different, this could be all Im waiting for."




Sunday, February 8, 2009

I LOVE BIGBANG, SeungRi is fucking hot... Anthea agrees! HAHAHAH!

LONG ONE AHEAD! Kpop makes me want to write more!!

Oh yes! My crazy plan! Still contemplating whether I should do it. According to my confidentes its "So crazy it might just work".

This was what I meant by "future is running and the present is crawling."

The nice side of me says "Do it because loving someone isnt meant for the selfish. If not do it for her."

BUT

Mean side says "What?! Outrageous! Jane you faggot, doesnt merit such kindness."

But if you know me well enough, you'd know that being selfish isnt exactly the easiest thing for me because this involves someone's happiness.

Live simply,
Love generously,
Care deeply,
speak kindly,
and leave the rest to God.

-From mummy, the greatest person in my world.

YAY! Hopefully I get to see her tomorrow, if I dont, I wont die. That little video of her smiling is still replaying, over and over again. *grins*

Inspired by "Nobody" by Wondergirls

I want nobody but you, if only you knew.
I want nobody but you, the thought can kill.
I want nobody but you, only your love can heal.

I was telling ley about what I would do if ever she was in my arms. He just nodded and smiled at everything, but never said a word. When he finally spoke, he said...

"Jane, you speak of her how you spoke of him. How can you love someone so much when all they will ever do is break your heart?"

I swear I didnt see that coming!! OMG! I stared at him for a minute. He never really said that before. I was APPALLED. HAHAHA!!! Him = Number2.

"Well I fell for something about them, all 3 of them and that is good enough reason for me to want the best for them. All it takes is patience...clearly you have none (I get jabbed in the ribs)..." HAHAHAHA!

God please keep her safe from harm.