I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, July 25, 2009

I'm sorry, I hope the future looks brighter for you.




Friday, July 24, 2009

"What good is a heart, if you're not going to use it."

243 words for 260 days

Let me just say, it's time.

Truth be told, I won't say I don't love you,
False pretense aside, I love you, I do,
I promised to wait and I'll see it through.
So that you'll believe me, my words are true,
Girl, you mean too much for me to hurt you.

I don't believe in leaving things to fate,
But we created something that was great.
Promise you, my heart isn't filled with hate,
No bad intentions for what I did and said,
Promised you to wait, but it's getting late.

Hate goodbyes, if I can't see you again,
I really have to let go of this pain,
I tried, but it really can't be contained.
Everyday's a walk down memory lane,
And I'm not strong enough, I'm just Jane.

Every night I pray that you'll be happy,
Girl, because I hate to see you angry.
If the way to love you, is to set you free,
Then baby close your eyes and count to three,
Promise you I'll return your heart and the key.

I won't deny that I care for you,
I don't care if caring is taboo.
It takes two to clap, love that means us two,
I can't, not won't ask you to start anew,
Because you'll say our love's long overdued.

You're not an accident or a regret,
Baby, you're a beautiful silhouette.
I'll be someone who you'll soon forget,
But girl don't forget the day our eyes met.

No more what ifs, no more I could've done better, no more hurting you.

Song of the day: What Good Is A Heart by Code Red




Thursday, July 23, 2009

"My hands maybe tied, my lips maybe duck-taped over, but my heart is for you."

I enjoyed today yet I don't. Annoyed is more the word. Irresponsibility from that idiot is causing people so much problems. Tomorrow got 2 tests, 1quiz, 3 tut homework and a project?!?!

(Find a happy place, find a happy place, find a gawddam happy place!) Balls. Screw it, find that happy person. Oh that calmed me down.

Feeling the urge for ass kicking a stupid mut right now you know. Bloody non-halal babi. I study MGEN and AIMM until I'm BLANK. SERIOUSLY. Can chapter 3 get any fucking thicker or denser?

I look at my AIMM notes and fall asleep almost immediately. Seriously, I must've jinxed it or something cause this shit is so boring, I'm not even yawning before I fall asleep.

I'm ready to screw my MGEN & AIMM test in the asses with my pen! Another reason for Alex Lee to pick on me in lab and Annette to pick on me in tutorial. Excuse me while I go die.



Anyways something besides school and grumbling about it. Hands down I thoroughly enjoyed Shopaholic, I feel totally happy after watching it!! I was laughing at every scene!

Hahahaha! But seriously wait til the credits! I spat my tea at the laptop screen. Can you believe Sasha Baron Cohen(BORAT) gets to wake up to Isla Fisher everyday?

Gawd, this world is so unfair. Why do all the weird ones and pretty ones go together? That's it! I'm self declared weird! (Jane, sorry to burst your bubble, but you're already weird)

Song of the day: Will You Wait For Me by Kavana
Wholly motherbangala! I lost this song in the States! I finally found it! Hallelujah! I'm so falling asleep to this song.



But I know I'll make it through,
If you wait for me...

All the tears I cry,
No matter how I try,
They'll never bring you home to me,
Won't you wait for me in heaven.

If I promise not to feel this pain, will I see you again?




Wednesday, July 22, 2009
total "eclipse" of the heart (ha ha ha gettit?)

"Everyday is a miracle, with you."

Funny. Today wasn't like any other. I woke up a whole hour earlier, no dragging ass out of bed, no grumbling/pleading with myself for five more minutes. Seriously, half of me will be off the bed, half clinging to the bed.

Sun eclipse! Oh my gawd *whines* why do the indians in india and the chinese in china get to see it and not us! I'm not being racial! Okay maybe just abit but tell me who isnt? ANYYWAY, thats not the point, I didn't get to see it.



COINCIDENCE? I think not! Seriously man. It's starting to freak me out. Like when I think "oh no I wont see _________ not today." the next thing I know, popped whoever became coco krunch!

Speaking of cereals, I've been eating FROOT LOOPS for like a week now. And I just realised this MORNING that it wasn't spelt, Fruit Loops, it's FROOT LOOPS. Seriously. I usually look at the transformers on the back of the box.

And then absent-mindedly pour milk until my bowl overflows and my mummy nags at me for wasting food. Well kids, remember it's FROOT LOOPS. And I ate like 3/4 of the big box this afternoon, I feel like barfing FROOT POOPS.

Too much is gross. I think I'm going back to milo balls. Or coco/koko pops. Mini lil rice ball thingamajigs(Jane they're all mini rice ball thingamajigs) okay well smaller rice balls.

Well, I said you'd understand "tomorrow" yesterday, so here is my understanding for you. Hahaha! A poem!

Words That Were Meant To Be Spoken

My face will lie but my heart won't even try,
My face always denies when my heart cries,
My face will hide what my heart feels inside,
My face turns away though my heart wants you to stay.

I've been searching for the words to say,
Trying to say how I feel about you,
This feeling gets stronger day by day,
Baby if you only knew.

Putting my emotions into words,
But I don't understand why it hurts.
Even if the words don't come out right,
You're the one I'm thinking of tonight.

It's true when they say the heart never lies,
Can you see pass this perfect disguise.
Look into my eyes and search for my heart,
Maybe then you'll know where it all starts.

I look at you and know what bliss is,
Believing in you, happiness exists.
Baby the best things in life are free,
When you smile at me, I fully agree.

Retro song of the day: Supermassive Black Hole by Muse
Hahahaha! It's not a sadistic song! It's motherbangala-ingly nice! Beneathe the hard rock beat and what not, the lyrics are quite nice! (Once again, no I'm not deaf)



I thought I was a fool for no one,
Baby, I'm a fool for you.
You're the queen of the superficial,
How long before you tell the truth.

Ooh, you set my soul alight




Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Don't bother reading, just listen to the song.

"Will september come too late? You will believe me when I say..."

Baby, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them, please don't be like them...........

I believe in you, I do.

(Sorry, no one would understand what I'm saying. I'm sure you'll understand tomorrow.)

Song of the day: Cover On My Heart by Guy Sebastian
(Ooooh good music will put me to sleep tonight!)



It feels like my point of existence,
Has vanish with you in the distance,
Whatever it takes I'll persist,
Til I see your face again.

So tell me why did I keep a cover on my heart




Monday, July 20, 2009
The ball's in your court

"Have we learnt our lessons well enough?"

Today is "make Jane annoyed about no... *cough*... lectures and make Jane study later on" day. Quarantine, yet again. This time it's my whole damn class. Someone not happy?

Ismail stupid Yayah got H1N1. My first reaction was to laugh-out-loud. Seriously, I was laughing then the next thing I know I was cussin' my life away, happily. My "no cuss words" thing just took a vacation, free airline tickets!

Missed 2hour BIOCHEM lecture. Do you know what that fwording means?! I HAVE TO READ MY NOTES! Jane doesn't do notes like it's the day before a test! *whines*



But happpp....I mean sad to say my quarantine ends today. Hahaha! Tomorrow still got school. Shiok right? I bet Annette must be thinking my class pon her mgen test! HAHAHAH!

Enjoyed today! Anthea and I chilled at TeaDot! The tea there is woOoOoOo! (ha ha ha so is the price) We talked non-stop from 12 to 4! Hahaha! Funny, we talked about exes and their hilariousness! Adorable.

Vague/Random not for y'all "Can this really be coincidence? In such a short time spand and the sudden emotion. Don't tell me! OH MY GAWDDD... are you...no!...yes!" Okay the rest is for me to know and you to itch to know! (bastarding y'all)

Caaaaaan't be seeeee-rai-us! (Waaalaau) Beepbeepbeepbeep PFFFFT!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA! motherbangala man! This song is hilarious!



Okay this next video is even more!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! "This is mean you call your enemy got no tenticles!" *falls off chair laughing*



Hahaha! I'm being scolded for laughing out loud. Wah seriously, MrBrown is hilarious.

Song of the day: Heaven Sent by Keyshia Cole



There's a piece of me who leaves when you're gone,
Because you're sent from heaven.
I wanna be the one who you believe,
In your heart is sent from heaven.

When love won't let you walk away




Sunday, July 19, 2009
Smile for me, and see what I'll do for you.

"You'll never have to feel lonely, my heart will keep you company."

Good 'ol sunday mornings. Brilliant! I feel happier today, for no reason at all. Okay got la, but I won't say it. I'll let you hear it. Random: Do you know how I tell when I'm studying too much? When the highlighter I bought a month ago runs out of ink.

Hang on a sec, the lian in me wants to speak. EuU knoEe horZx, tis signXsignX(science) tingXzx rR bEriEx hUh-aRd 2 gEt leHhzzx y jJOin tis c0urx w0rhxxZ? iIez berIxz tiirezy lorx. dOu 1 sTudZZy cAnxz 0rnOtzx hARh?

Oohkay, that was quite enough grumbling in lianglish. But seriously man. Topic 6 is not funny. It's prolly scarier than having one of my exes stab me ass with a fork. *thinks(again)*

On second thought, I take that back. He/she/they might read this. "PEACE! No forks! PEACE! RAINBOW! PEACE!" *hides behind my pillow with a white flag waving* (Puss.) Hahahahahaha!

Jane remember, whimpy and whiney, always wins the fight. HAHAHAHA! OHKAYYY... I didn't just say that, no. Do I look whiney to you huh? Dont say anything, I might start whining. *whines* Oop there she goes, look what you've done! (Puss.)

I bought one of those little mystery balls that contain the Mr Men and Little Miss phone accessories thing. I got Mr HAPPY! So happy! Hahaha!



Hahaha! I didn't take the picture, my photography skills are bullshit. Look at the lao sai picture saga. You'll be petrified. For you're health's sake, I suggest not. Hahaha!

My iPod earphones, left side is giving me problem. Technology and Jane have a hate-hate relationship. People say apple earphones are phony, but I like the extra BASE. I hate you Apple for making such pretty things at such pretty prices too.

Random thought: Pretty is such a bimbo word. I blame Shopaholic! "Norh my fauht" *singaporean style*

Munching on FRUIT LOOPS while studying is totally my new hobby. It pwns milo balls! No, I'm not going all fruity tooty, or whimpy whiney.... pssshhhh no waaaaay! (Puss.)

Song of the day: No Goodbyes by Blue



One last thing to you I want to say,
Baby there's no goodbyes,
I'll always be right by your side,
Though I may be far away.

You know that my heart will stay, with you, always




LAO SAI PICTURES FINALE

LAST DAY OF THE 12ish 13day trip to France-Spain-France! I still hate the french, a lot.


Byebye driving, hello train ride.




They got electrical plugs on board! AWESOME.




WELCOME TO THE LOUVRE!






The pyramid thing. Whatever its called.










The Lourve is amazing and HUGE. THREE SECTIONS. That picture you're looking at is one level of one section, only.


This was pretty amazing. They DUG up a whole MOAT from a castle and transplanted it in the BASEMENT. Seriously, it's huge. I stood in awe.


Aphrodite, greek goddess of love. Had to take her from an angle with a cool stance. HAHAHAH!


S'ppose to be a highlight, I don't get what so nice though.


The hallways were awesomely painted! Ohhhh my gawd. I can spend the whole day in the Lourve just wandering around, anyone wanna join me the next time I go?


Ginormous hallway to the Cupid


The athelete, famous for errr... his stance? Or issit cause his flashing his dingdong?


Psyche & CUPIDDDDDDDDDDDD! Aw love it love it love it! When I grow up and have money, I'm getting a sculptist to make me a replica.



Other nicely DETAILED sculptures






Oh look at that lil perv looking at her va-jay-jay! NO I wasnt looking at her butt, I was taking a picture okay!








Even the ceilings were nicely done! My 9euro ticket was so worth it.




The hallway to MONA!


This is a gentleman unlike the ones before him, he's got clothes on...


Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand that's Mona Lisa. That's also goes to show how damn close I was to her right?


Here's a postcard verison of Mona. No need to strain yourself to see her in my picture. I needed to SQUINT to see her in real life. That's how far I was from her.


This picture, stole me away from Mona(who was in the same room as it). The wedding feast. It's like one and a half stories LARGE. I didn't zoom in, I had to humanly move back ALOT to get everything in.


I love this sculpture the best. Not because it's a butt nake lady lying on a really comfortable looking marble mattress but because of the sheer effort needed to PERFECT the smoothness, to make it seem so real. I wanted to join her, but I'd be on the front page of every newspaper the next day.

"Asian girl harrasses marble sculpture in the Louvre"


Nugget's cameo! Hahaha! He loves my cap(:


This is actually better than it looks. The bags were all friggin heavy. And I had to lug the huge green(29.5kg - airport weighing) on behind my black duffle(8.2kg) and mummy's black block of metal(21.9kg) at the back, plus nugget but hes not really heavy.

59.6kg worth of stuff, taking train, climb flights of stairs because paris subways dont have lifts, walking along the streets to the hotel. Oh my gawd, its safe to say my fingers had no blood. Thank God my lungs getting rid of tar for 7years now.

POST WILL BE TONIGHT! Enjoyed the lao sai pictures I took? Well don't complain, at least its depictable.