I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, June 27, 2009

"As long as you are happy, I am at peace with the world."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISMAIL THE PETTY! I love you even though you are THE pettiest boy on earth, even number2 can't beat you(that's saying a lot). Sometimes I can't stand you at all, but there are times I'd never trade you as a friend.

Alcoholics have their wife/husband in drink form. My wife use to be Long Island Tea, now, I have found another, PEACH MOJITO! Oh I'll just die without it. It's is love, alcohol-wise.

I feel better now that I've gotten some alcohol in my system, but alcohol doesn't heal the pain. That I know. But I realised, I can't do much because my problem requires 2 people's effort, I can do a 110% it will make no difference.

I found this song today, a bit slow but better late than never. It's "You Are My Rock" by Beyonce. Cutest couple award goes to Beyonce and Jay-Z. Second cutest is Pink and Carey Hart! Omg.

Hahaha no, it's not korean, chillax. "You Are My Rock" by Beyonce. It's on the video anyway -.-



Damn the Pink song embedding thingy got disabled. -.-

Anyway the link. "Please Don't Leave Me" by Pink. The MV is hilarious. She's my punk idol.

Pictures of drinking will be uploaded, someday.

Tomorrow. Out again. I wonder when I'll have the time to actually catch up on my stack of lecture notes and tutorials. My life is in a mess. Yes, I call this a mess. I can't live in chaos, I'll just spread my energy too wide, and exhaust myself, again.

Please don't ask me to go out next week. I really need to catch up. I can't afford to flunk Immunology. Yeah, I flunk sectionB. Like single digit flunk.

Song of the day: Battlefield by Jordin Sparks
I never meant to start a war, you know I never want to hurt you. Don't even know what we are fighting for.




France-Spain Trip(Jane's lao sai pictures)

Day 1 (Paris)


My new best friend. Metro ticket machine. I had to buy tickets in FRENCH.


That's not Notre Dame, we thought it was. Bunch of Mountain Turtles.




Yeah, we walked from there and back! At least 5km.




Do I see Paris or do I see Paris? Yes, we climbed UP the damn mountain not take the cable car for this shot. My leg almost dropped off because I had to carry the old folk's stuff up!


I just had to add this picture in. Spot cute guy whose got a really nice smile, and don't ask me how I know that(:


Daddy the fussy eater, made us walk 4 rounds around the same shops just to see ALL the menus and which one sounded relatively nice to eat. *drops dead from hunger*


FINALLY FOOOOD! That concludes day 1.

Day 2 (Still in Frenchy fry land)


Mont Saint Michel, at night the green part is cover in WATER. Natural barrier much?


Walked the scenic path there.


Inside's like mini-daigon ally(from Harry Potter)




And we walked on the road back. For 2.1km with chilly winds. My bladder froze over and my mucus were like stalactites hanging from my nose.


I took a picture of a cow eating grass and MSM in the background, from a postcard! Hahaha! My photography skills are really lao sai so I had to resort to postcards! Shhh! Don't make a big fuss out of it!

Concludes day 2 somewhere in France, Normandy.

Day3, Long drive to Mr Klement's Chateau, somewhere in France.


The LONG about 1km entrance long journey seemed like something out of a scary movie! A bunch of travellers get trapped in a house and tortured. Its really in the middle of nowhere. The GPS showed that we were driving through a FIELD.


But after we reached, it was REALLY nice! I'll retire there. It's so calm, so peaceful, so quiet away from all the hussle and bussle of the city. Mind you, away from stuck up French people.


Nugget's cameo! Cuteness! He's smiling for this picture too!


Chateau De Villandry. Google it. They got better pictures then my lao sai ones.






These are the roses that no matter how many pictures I take, it still looks fake. It's REAL!!


It's 9:15pm(right) and there's still sun!! D8 It's 3am in Sg (:


You'll be seeing more of my feet, it's when I feel at peace. That concludes day 3.

Day 4, Bordeaux! Dennis joined us here!


Aaaaand my breakfast. Hot dog breads. This one was funny. Its in a french loaf! D8


Lazying around the hotel room.




Something left behind by the romans -.o


Never let mummy shop on her own. LV.. fine... HERMES(errrh-mis NOT HER-MEZ!)?! WHAT. Don't ask how much that bag cost, your two hands aren't even enough.

Day4 was rather short because it was mostly shopping, I bought nothing, that tells you how expensive things are.

Day 5 heading to Lourdes, I think.


My oh so lovable cousin, Dennis. He's damn hilarious. We hate the french! HAHAHAH! Keep dissing them in hokkien everywhere we go. Oh! The fruit shop! I met someone like Marjorie! She was so damn shy and nervous while talking to me. She kept stumbling over her words, very cute!


Buying wine, to be in my family, you must be able to hold up your alcohol, ladies included.


The man that sold the wine was like "You drink hard liquor ma'am?" in front of my mum! I was like "Uhhh yeah a lil bit... :D" Hahaha! He gave me the bottle on the right. He filled it half full and said, "Shoot! You'll like it." I did, and omg. I couldn't breathe for 5 seconds. Hahaha he laughed and was like "Not bad, most people would have spat it out but you drank it. It's 85% alcohol." I was like D8 But the after taste was so damn nice! I was like "Heh heh heh daddy *nudge nudge* can buy that one. Very nice :D" Yeah, daddy bought it, the big bottle too! WHEE!


Lovely aint it? Peaceful.


The wonderful church that was built in Lourdes.




She is the Mother of my heart. The giver of compassion.


Church built over the grotto where Mother Mary stand, astounding.


The rosa


Candle-light procession.




I end of the 6th day, and the end of part 1 of my 2 part lao sai pictures.

Post will be when I get back, alive and not OD-ed on alcohol. Hahaha! Thanks for your cheering up, Eli(:




Friday, June 26, 2009
I am not a bad person.

"Feeling pain in a place I'd least expect to."

Im not a bad person, I will not hurt people. I am not a bad person, I am trying my best to keep my heart from hatred.

I know that I have done wrong when I took the one that cares for me most for granted, but I am not that person anymore. It was foolish and stupid.

But I wont lie, even if telling the truth is worst than coughing up a lie. I know you couldn't fully trust me after I told you what I did, but I'd rather you know the truth.

I am sorry that you never saw me as a person who cares for you. I am sorry that you think everything I say is a lie. I am sorry I couldn't clear up all the misunderstandings and correct my wrongs. I am sorry that you think I am a bad person.

Could you not see it in my eyes. Could you not read it in my words. If you can't then it's alright. I will keep my word, I will not hurt you. I am not that dickless faggot, I won't hurt you even if I can't have you.

I have no more words left to say except, I am not a bad person.

Aaaaaand Michael Jackson is dead. I couldn't believe my ears when Poks was like "Oh yah, Michael Jackson died." My facial expression was D8 for 5minutes and I kept repeating "Michael Jackson's dead?!"

Okay this is why I like Mel Heng when she's angry. She is capable of making me laugh even when she's angry. I still remember her coming up to me saying(and smiling), "Bao! I'm like damn angry you know! hahahaha!"

She twitted: Khatib! what the fark is that?!? then my mum volunteered to fetch, and i thought okay! she sent me to Kembangan MRT. _l_ _l_ x93738428368542

*falls off chair laughing*

She twitted again: i;m home. too angry to move. seriously knn.... seriously......... like I'm not capable of going to the mrt station myself _l_

*continues to roll on the floor laughing*

Oh she's hilarious. She, Tiffy, Janey and I were once a lil clique in Sec2(*GRINS*) Oh! Speaking of Tiffy, she's in TP and Jessie's in AS! D8 SAC mania! Oh wait, that's business.

I'm not in the mood for anything. I aint gonna cancel tomorrow, I need the alcohol. (Jane alcohol only numbs the pain, I know shut up) Eli, I might not go on Sun): Im not going to spoil the mood.

If you have to ask why I feel dead, y'all prolly don't want to know.

I won't be sleeping early. I'm going to my favourite place when I feel like this. I'm going to have a little chat with my favourite Guy and my Lady. (Hint: Jesus&Mother Mary)

Sweet dreams and sleep tight tonight.

Songs of the day: Why I Like You, It's You, Heartquake, SORRY SORRY by Super Junior




Thursday, June 25, 2009
Sarang Hae 사랑해

"You can have the world as long as you are happy."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! Whoa. The restuarant called "Seafood paradise" really is a seafood paradise. One problem, I don't really like seafood. Hahaha! But still the 5 of us were belly up with goooood food.

I love mummy to mini bite size bits. Family, my blood is thicker than water. I may not slap my good friends, but this I won't let them say as they please. These are one of those things I wont take sitting down.

Insult me, but don't touch my family. I promise you, God will take the backseat, mercy will sit this one out, talking is out of the question and my fist will take driving. I have my daddy's temper and his colourful hokkien vocabulary too. Hahaha!

Wholly CRAP! *goes hysterical* I have taken a liking to korean pop D8 What the hell Jane. I just like their weird not englishing rhyming lyrics. Hahaha! Have a look at "Why I Like You" and "Hate U, Love U".

Okay that just makes me sound so Kpop fanclub girl. NOOOO WAYYY PSHHH I didn't join Super Junior Fanclub, I just become the VIP member. Pshhh nothing much. Hahaha!

Sometimes I really wonder what's going through that lil mischievous head of yours. Then I snap back into reality and slap myself.



I found good quality and engerlish translation! Where's my lil leprechuan? I wanna give him some treats for letting me find it. Hahaha!

I am still in love with the MV of "It's You" by Super Junior. One can only shrug when questioned about why. Lemme refresh your memory since you lazy people won't scroll down(: It's defo song of the damn week luh.



Pictures of Barcelona and France will be posted over the weekend when I have time to transfer the tuckload. Maybe squeeze in time for a lil poem? :D




Wednesday, June 24, 2009

"If life was a game. I'll pause this game so our love will never end."

Annette Shoba is one of a kind. Today while she was going through her debrief on MGEN lab. She was explaining SOMETHING. I was trying to understand that SOMETHING.

I s'ppose my face was in a total SQUINT. Cause she suddenly burst out laughing and said "Jane can you look away, just turn away! You're face just makes me want to laugh!" and she continued laughing for a good minute.

Eunice was laughing her ass off behind me. I seriously wasn't making faces at her! I was trying to understand what lacZ spilt then GAP insert in and what thing got inactivated, Im sorry, that's that SOMETHING.

Have I mentioned that Im absolutely amused at the stupidity of chao ah lians and dickless bengs? Wanna slap 'em and ask them to wake up their bloody idea! Goodness can you believe that people are actually arguing through a TAGBOARD?

What I find stupider than stupid is, ASKING AN ANONYMOUS PERSON TO SAY HIS/HER NAME. Y'know there's a reason why the person stays anon, dipshit.

Worst of all. They think bad grammar and horrible spelling(trust me, I know horrible spelling, I'm the pioneer of it) phrased into an incoherent sentence makes them mucho macho.

Horrible spelling evidence: Blift (I s'ppose that's believe) Oh I got an even more ridiculous one, 'come' spelt as 'cum'. Gawd-awful. Does this dipshit even know what cum is?! D8

If You Could Hear Me Say This

I told the clouds about you, m'dear,
Only wishing you were here.
And wondering why you've disappeared,
But these words you'll never hear.

Every night I talk to the stars,
Asking them why are you so far.
Why can't we take what's ours,
Letting the flame burn in our hearts.

Don't worry about the end,
Just don't let go of my hand.
Baby don't say it's too late,
Please don't fill your heart with hate.

I told my heart about you today,
We talk about you everyday.
Wishing you never slipped away,
Now I just pray for another day.

Don't let me go, just stay close,
You're the one I care about most.
But this I'll never expose,
Just look out for my roses.

Eli sent me a damn cute song. Mario Kart's love song. Hahaha! Okay I don't play Mario Kart but apparently Miss GuitarHeroes5Million plays it. Sometimes I wish I could marry your brain, no need to study still ace tests.

I'm tired. An early one tonight. Goodnight.

Song of the dayS: It's You by Super Junior




Tuesday, June 23, 2009

"If someone is worth your tears, would that person really make you cry?"

I know I can't stand it when the people I love cry. In fact, I'd be miserable. So people(FRAN esp) if someone really loves you, he/she would not want OR leave you to cry. (to fran) But you don't have to suffer alone, nothing a lil Frap and company cant solve(:

I award myself sainthood for returning the girl her wallet. Self declaring myself saint is the best thing I did all day. Besides plonking my ass in front of the computer doing a lil shopping D8

Oh! Pictures are out! Mummy finally sends the chip for development. Whee! Lanzy, your hot french guy is inside it somewhere. Oh I love the pictures from the Lourve!

*perv alert siren sounds* Im not a perv, it's only a bunch of pictures with a bunch of butts:D New meaning to marble hard ass. I resisted touching 'em because they're priceless art pieces and not because Im a perv or anything like that. PSHHH.

The refined poem's done, but unfortunately for y'all. I left it in my room upstairs. Nahh too far. Blame the laziness that's kicked in. Tomorrow(:

Speaking of tomorrow, I have to go to school ): Ew. That's means more homework, gawd-awful. Lesson learnt, don't take it easy even for you're pet subject. Paid the price.

By my playcount, the song, "It's You" by Super Junior is at 219. It's currently the highest because I "restored" poddy because he was being an ass. Technology just runs away from me, screaming.

Im not a big fan of Korean pop but damn do they have nice(translated) lyrics. Hahaha! Hell. Take a look at "Because I'm Stupid" by SS501(sounds like some levis jeans)

(Translated lyrics of "Because I'm Stupid")

See the bad thing about going away is that I have a tuck load of catching up to do on Hollywood. Lohan still wants Sam back. Zac is still being an ugly fug. Edison's being "victimised". Oh shut up man.

Drama. Too much. Hahaha! My life seem dull compared to them. It's like "Hey! Watcha doing tonight?!".... "Oh nothing... just homework Pssshh nothing much." Save me from monotony.

Song of the day: El Ultimo Vals by La Oreja De Van Gogh
Lemme translate my favourite part: when everything ended and the silence spoke, only your eyes will know that it was true.




Monday, June 22, 2009
You deserve much better than me

"Tears are words the heart cannot express, smiles are happiness the heart tries to hide."

Today's lousy. I feel drained, mentally, physically and emotionally(though I aint that emotional). Even Barley can't save me! NEUU!

Quaranting me? Are you serious. Well you should go hunt down about 15 odd people. Oh be damn! I went to a party on FRIDAY! D8 Oh aw hor! Singapore got pig flu liaoz. Die die die and die!

I found a girl's wallet today, with tonnes of cash and her ezlink, ATM card, IC, lots of VIP cards and an island's worth of receipts(recycle paper much?). This girl must spend money like water. Hahaha dont ask me how I know that.

If anyone knows a Cleone Tan from Business, please tell me, I wanna return the girl her wallet. I was looking for her number or something but I found her IC, her birthday's a day after mine! Coincidence? Hahaha!

I wrote a poem but I haven't refined it yet. Im a perfectionist remember? My work has to be of my approval standard(a bit high) before I'll hand it up otherwise my dog was coincidentally hungry.

Don't worry, I got a whole day. Hahaha!

Song of the day: Better Than Me by Hinder
Forgive the pink text and shit. The sound quality is best.




Sunday, June 21, 2009
I'll look you when they curse at me, you're my happy place

"I don't need anyone else, it's only you. When you ask again, it's you."

Happy Daddy's Day, Daddy! How does my dad spend it? Watching F1 in front of the ginormous TV screen. Hahaha! No luh, we had a DDay lunch. Full much?

Ah! I got pig flu! Quarantine me! Hahahaha! It's super hilarious because in Spain and France there was not even a scrap of news. Not even the shit of your smallest nose shit, don't bother digging.

Mummy(mind you, typical singaporean) brought like TEN MASKs and even rubber gloves! Oh my gawd. I was like "Mummy which biochemical war are you involved in now?" Rubber gloves? I think she thought we'd encounter raging scary looking finger snipping chickens.

Did I mention? My SPANISH TAN IS FADDING D'8 NEUUUU! Why does my skin regenerate it's cells so fast! I don't get time to enjoy my spanish tan.

If you have not yet watch Valkyrie, watch it. Claus Von Stauffenberg is one of the bravest man to me. He dared to oppose Hilter's conquest. I am impressed but I'd have joined him.

I hate when my freedom is taken away. I get upset): Hahahaha! I, like daddy, loves my country, just that we just hate the people.

I feel better than my drooling depressed strained ass aching state yesterday. Talked to one of the people who can effortlessly break me. My second favourite boy, number2! Whose first? D8

Kidding! I told him I was losing my sanity and he laughed at me -_- Flunk history, he laughs at me. Tripped up the stairs, he laughs at me. Spelt elephant(elaphant, shuddup) wrong, he laughs at me. One fine day, Imma slap 'em.

Song of the day: It's You by Super Junior
D8 the english lyrics shocked me, i like the beat and gosh korean people.