I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Friday, April 10, 2009

GOOD FRIDAY! Stations of the cross. 13 kneels = jelly knees.

BigG, Im trusting you, I've made my choice to be humane. Please dont make me regret being nice.

Oh my gawd, I give up! Really rrrrrrrrrrreally give up, really. Im sucha faggot aint I? I am human but that doesn't mean I have to be one. So I've decided to be humane.

I wont follow my heart, not this time, the price is too high(No if's, the price aint right). You have to try to understand me. I was never out to hurt you, really.

I can bare with being humane at the cost of myself, but I cannot bare being human at the cost of you. I said I'll never hurt you, Im keeping my promise to you.

(Anthea knows what humane and human "context" means)

"... trust me, no harm shall be done, no heart shall be broken ..."

I was writting on a piece of paper while thinking, this is kinda weird because I was so busy thinking, I didn't notice what I scribbled til I looked down.

I can't feel it when I want to,
I can't touch it when I try to,
I can't heat it when I have to,
I can't see it when I need to.

I am nonchalant, there are somethings that I cant fake.

There's so many things I have to say, will you listen to me?
There's so many things I have to say, will you shut me out again?
There's so many things I have to say, will you hear me out?
There's so many things I have to say, will you talk it out?

Will you give me a chance to say it?

I'm not giving up, I'm not running away.
You don't know how painful it is to walk away.
I'm not flaring up, I'm don't want to argue.
You dont know how much it hurts to raise my voice at you.

If I could be your angel, protect you from the pain.
I'll keep you safe from danger, you'll never hurt again.
I'll be your A.N.G.E.L.

(BOOOOO! Thats lyrics. Hahahahaha! Natasha popped in on Shuffle mode)

Whoa. Should be long enough to make up for yesterday's absence no?

Song of the day: Sleep by Rivermaya
The guitar caught my ears, the lyrics entertained my thoughts.

Goooooooonight God, please keep them all safe.




Wednesday, April 8, 2009

God has a way with things. When I thought about why, He gave me this sign through a commercial...

"...it was your beautiful imperfections that made you perfect to me..."

Im sorry, I doubted. The world I live in, doesnt allow me to see the world through rose-coloured glasses.

Hahahaha I just read the lianz blog. The thing that makes me laugh my ass off is that she's dissing herself. Someone "dumped" him, and shes just taking in someone else's trash.

HAHAHAHHA Ohhh this is funnier than reading her "I does not have" post. Oh my, my karma level's becoming worst than her grammar. Oops? That analogy wasnt on purpose!

I better not diss her(I dont wanna 'cum kao peh kao bu' with her, I scare I get 'hoot' by her HAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh stop teasing my knuckles), all I'd say to her is "Your asking for trouble and when the day comes, I can only wish to be there when that 'gal' kills slaps you and shows you the middle finger."

Whoa. Okay, my evilness meter seems to be reading "hateful".

HAHAHAHAHA! Well well well looks like the bettings up to more than half a dozen people already. Lanzy wins the meanest mean girl award, indeed.

Song of the day: You don't know by Brian Mcfadden and Mark Feehily(your gay partner is hot)
Are you here for me at all. Do you care for me at all?

God please keep her safe from harm. And thank you, you kept her safe today. You knew I cared for her, and you reassured me that I was dealing with a responsible lil girl. Im sorry I doubted her.




Tuesday, April 7, 2009

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!

You make me feel miserable, heart aches. I really am miserable at best without you.

Dont worry people, Im not depress or emo. It's kinda a lil too much emotions for an emotionless person to handle.

This will prolly be the last poem I'll write for awhile. Hahaha!

Another nobody in your life

You're a nobody,
You're a somebody,
Be my nobody,
Be my somebody.

I really dont care what they say,
Baby As long as you stay,
Stay with me for a day,
So this feeling wont fade away.

It's impossible to fall,
For someone I dont know at all.
But girl you're mesmorising,
I'll catch you when your falling.

This song deserves more than the song of my day. The song hasnt been released yet but thats what youtube is for. "You're not alone" by Backstreet boys

HAHAHAHAA! I just got my updates on people. For starters, if my wife or husband ever raise the issue of naming children, I aint gonna name them "shane" or "daryl".

According to my sourceS, these two fags have become even stewpid-er. And currently, there's a big bet that a couple of us are playing. "How long more do you think they can last. Shane&dardar." HAHAHAHAHHA

God please keep her safe from stewpidity like that. Good nights baby.




Monday, April 6, 2009

Rush, Rushing, Rushed.

I must have lost the damn memo that said, "RUSH HERE NOW." Because today was all about fucking rushing. Being a lazy person, I hate to be rushed, but in life, rushing is inevitable.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYS! One's gay, one's a player, life's perfect. HAHAHAHAH!

Poksy hope ya liked the shirt fucking went shopping for you okay! Pssshhh I wont talk about my brother, he doesn't read my blog.

"Some roots are in too deep, it hurts too much to pull them out, so we leave it in. It's better that way."

I wrote a poem for her today, but my hands are too lazy to move pass my lappy's keypad to grab my phone so no poem. HEH HEH HEH. Privilege of being lazy, no one expects you to do extra! HAAHAH!

"You dont have to be the sharpest tool in the shed for you to be my favourite."

She's not the most pretty person. She's not the most intelligent person. Nothing about her is special to you. But to me, her flaws makes me love her even more.

Stop smiling like an idiot uh(:

Song of the day: Close your eyes by Westlife
Just close your eyes and you'll be here with me. Look to your heart and that's where I'll be.

God please keep her safe! Tuck her in, read her a bed time story, sing her a lullaby and make her to sleep before 3!




Sunday, April 5, 2009

"The world knows I love you too damn much to hurt you."

Never thought I could love you

If you're gonna hurt me,
Baby do it quickly,
Because I would gladly,
Take it from you baby.

Baby Im not hiding,
Im just waiting,
For the right timing,
To tell you this feeling.

You are the one I love,
Your love is what I dream off,
My angel from above,
Your the one I think off.

Love songs on the radio,
Saying let my love show,
But my love is the foe,
And I have to go slow.

Baby my heart needs you,
This is my heart's pursue,
And I will see this through,
Even if Im the fool.

You are the reason I wake up in the morning, but I cant feel, I cant love, I cant think, I cant move, I cant breathe, I cant care about anyone else but you.

My ears wont listen love songs til they hear you.
My lips wont smile til they've talked to you.
My heart wont beat for anyone til it feels you.
My brain wont think about anyone else but you.
My legs wont move until their walking with you.
My eyes wont look at anyone til they've seen you.
My skin wont feel til they've been touched by you.

With you, I can feel, I can love, I can think, I can move, I can breathe, I care about you above all.

Song of the day: The Way I Do by Marcos Hernandez
Didnt want to wake up and find that I was falling so fast. Didnt want to need you. Didnt want to need anyone. I cant go on without you. Now look what you've done.

God please keep her safe, tuck her into bed and kiss her forehead to remind shes on my mind. My little angel in her own little world. Sweet dreams.