I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, November 1, 2008
The things I dont say.

NOVEMBER's HERE.

When someone prays for patience, God doesnt give them patience, nope. He gives them an opportunity to be patient.
I realised that I didnt get patience, I got an opportunity to be patient.
When someone prays that they could love someone, God doesnt zap them both warm fuzzy feelings, nope. He gives them an opportunity to love.
I realised that I had an opportunity to love.
When someone prays for rain, God doesnt make it rain, nope....well I cant say He gives the sky an opportunity to take a piss.
I didnt pray for rain...LOL!

But you people get what I mean.

And it hits me as I hear the sentence, and everything fits. I had so many chances, so many opportunities, so many times, over and over again, I watched it pass.

Its official. Jane's jealous. Class of '09 had a HALLOWEEN REUNION PARTY! And where was I? HERE! When my only trick-or-treat victim was my fridge dammit! Was looking at the pictures on facebook that leah and marshall posted up. *Jane continues cursing as she types*

I followed jonny, ley and sam for like an hour before I had to return home. I really have to hand it to them, YOU PEOPLE GO TRICK-OR-TREATING in a private housing estate. ARE YOU INSANE? Jonny was "brabie pwincess", ley was santa with 3 pillows as a belly(jeez santa, you nidda cut down on them cookies the kids give) and sammy was...well no one knows what sam was. I was toddling around with my backpack fulla books and shit. Oh one more person. Jane the deviant nerd geek thick specs freak.

*stops bawling at facebook pictures of people having fun on halloween* No no no...Im not jealous nope. MM MM I aint jealous): HAHAHAH We highjacked Cold Storage and managed to get a free donut! But my head pain kicked into overdrive after I finished 2bacardis and 1/4 of a magarita.

IM SO SORRY BUT ILL END HERE. This joke is the shit, sorry blondies!

One day, a blonde goes into a store.

She gets an item and walks up to the cashier. She says,"I'd like to buy this TV".

He says,"Sorry, we don't sell to blondes".

The next day, she dyes her hair red and goes back in the store, but the same thing happens.

Finally, she shaves her head and goes back in. When she tries to buy it for the third time, the man refuses.

She says, "How the hell do you know I'm blonde?".

He replied, "First of all, that's a microwave."

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA! Shit, blonde jokes never fail to make me laugh. HAHHAHAHAHA!

TMR. CHURCH. Finally! I need to get straight with the Lord. A heavy heart and a guilty consciences does no good to me.

I prayed for something, and God's giving me this opportunity again. Pray Jane dont fail me now. Theres just something I want to say, but it seems its harder said than done.




Friday, October 31, 2008
I'd listen to her, cause I know how it hurts

First off.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO CREATURES CALLED HUMANS!

Today was relatively fun? Realised that Jap tutorial wasnt as bad as it sounds. Aside from lynette and denise, I made new FRIENDS withhhhh Joey and some girl and some other guy. YEAHHHHH....*yawn* moving on!

Got a glimpse of the person I wanted to see and got a faggort thrown in for free too! Hes a walking contradiction that I just need to torment. I feel like US in WWII, all I need is Japan to slip up and them bombs can be dropped. Im going to crush that ego he calls manhood. Come on come on, slip up, I wanna slowly tear you apart. Im going to have fun hurting you fo hurting someone I care about. Smiling at me when he walks by thinking I dont know what hes doing, his dimples aint cute even though I have a fetish fo dimples, his dimples look likka bunch of jackasses on his face. When will he grow up and stop this fagshit that hes throwing at moose?


I dedicate this masterpiece to Johnson. I dont mean to insult her, shes innocent.

Met the lil munch-kin(literally 'kin' since shes my cous) on the bridge. Its been so long since we've talked, forced her to walk with me and lanzy to the bus stop HAHAHAHHA! She grew taller! HAHAHAH!

Watched HM3 with Janey and lanzy. Omg. Sing, Sing and more singing. Lanzy and I were like "omg? sing againnnn?" *groans* HAHAHAHAH

Funniest thing of Halloween

HM3 kissing scene: *Troy and Gabriella kiss*

Lanzy: eh got little kids here leh.

*5 secs into the scene, their still kissing*

Lanzy: ok stop!

*2 secs more, they stop*

At this point, I was falling off my seat laughing and Janey was laughing beside me. Kailan was interested in keeping the innocence of the lil 5yr old in fronna me. Kailan ah, you do know that people actually pay for the kissing scene right? Who the FUCKS(no spelling error) buys tickets to watch a bunch of heavily-maked-upped teens prance around on stage with their raging hormones? I sure as hell did, I was an innocent viewer who thought the $10 i paid was solely kids singing. No, Jane isnt a pedophile.

Just the right nudge and I could do anything I pleased, but all I could do was stand there, dumbfounded. I made up my mind, I done did it over and over again. I honestly did open my mouth, but the words I want to come out aint coming out. Your disappointed face when you turned away made me done-did kill myself.
Im sorry for being a chicken shit when it comes to you. Looks like my lives ran out today.




Thursday, October 30, 2008
STOP BASTARDING JANE LUH.

Matt, even though your my best, Im going to tell you to shut the fuck up. You dont know squat about her, so you shut your fucking mouth, before I slap you again. Dont need your stupid judgemental opinions, its not for you to say so stay the fuck out. If I asked fo yo opinion then you open yo mouth. And take it off. *points the middle finger at matt*

My head feels likka train hit it. My neck muscles are so strained, I dont need to flex it for it to be sore.

My head is killing me, my face is so du lan I wanna slap myself. Its not me people!! Its really my head, its throbbing.

Today was kinda funny, sat behind Gina!! HAHAHAH Poks and I were gasping for air after laughing so hard. The teacher let her play pingpong for the school, to lose, apparently she doesnt know how to play. HAHAHAHAH!

I GOT MC FO 2 DAYS! YAY! But I still intend to go to school. Imma geek rmb? Geeks dont skip school.

Aunty QingLing was frickin hilarious. Freshies bully senior. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!

OH JOYY...watching High School Musical 3 with lanz and janey tmr.

URGH. No energy to argue with anyone. And to those of you who keep bastarding me! STOP DAMMIT STOP!

I'd never hurt you, you are missed and you are love(no 'd')




Tuesday, October 28, 2008
You are not listening to me!!

*Jane completes mst tutorial*
*bang*
*Jane's head is flat on the table*

JEEZ. The fucking tutorial is so fucking long! Oh my fucking shit. I feel shit tired of this world, of myself, of the people, of the work, of the what ever.

PIGGY CRASHED INTO TP(literally) think she broke a coupla tables and shit *ducks for cover* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Actually didnt feel like crashing french because I was tired. But I laughed my ass off at piggy's imitations of Mr Quek. HAHHAHA! Good old times. I miss them more than anything. I havent laughed this hard for a long time...

POKS AND NARNIA! HAHAHAHHAHA! I am really happy for you pokky. This phrase seems cliche but its how I feel, "I'm happy your happy."

Anthea asked me to listen to a song which made so much sense, it hurts. It was basically a song of being taken for granted and that guys cant love girls until they're girls. Gay propaganda? HAHAHAHA! I kid i kid.

OHOHHH one more thing. I said something that sounds stupid but it was completely true. "My head banged against the door." Yes, I really did say that, and yes everyone burst into laughter at me!! OH MY SHIIIIIIIT. My forehead hurts, my nose hurts, my heart hurts, my ribs hurt, my collarbone hurts, my eyes hurt, and lastly, Im hurting.

I shut my eyes to pray, I dont feel You anymore. I keep telling myself, Your there, Your always there. I'm sorry I hurt You. But I kept to my promise didnt I? I gave it my all, I was unselfish, I was sensitive, I was all that I could be but I realised what I wasn't. I wasn't listening to You.

Tell me honestly, have I been a fool? I just need to know, I dont care bout what they say, I just want to hear it from you.




Monday, October 27, 2008
Banging ANTs. OH HO!

Oh did I tell you people yet? Ants started gangbanging me box of mentos!! OMG. I watched on as my box suffered, the ants raided the lil mentos and all Jane could do was watch in awe.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI(did I spell that right?) fo ma coloured counterparts! Vic and Denash, Im not racist! *points at matt, "shaddup!"* I love ma coloured people. *grins of ear to ear*

The things I did, gave, said, are shadows of their former glory. The past haunts the future, just like the dog that bites his owner. See how ironic the analogy is?
Economics terms: losing investment.
Battlefield terms: fighting a losing battle.
Poets terms: revelation of a persona.
Academic terms: having failure grades.
Jane's terms: holding on for my cause.

Im not blind, I see the stares. Im not deaf, I hear the whispers. Im not dumb, I feel the pain. Im not emotionless, I taste the bitterness.

Imma fool for a cause, a cause I'd give a lot of things for. So be it, I'll be that fool.

Like oil and water, yes, but with soap, they stay together, even though they're total opposites.




Sunday, October 26, 2008
Still here, will always be there.

Humans are the most complicated thing I have ever come across!

Piggy, cheer up! Stop thinking too much(: Everything's going to be fine, let things calm down yeah? I will never ignore you, nor anyone would I deemed my bestie. I'm still standing on yo side(: I'll always be standing here.

Jane drank Bacardi and Magarita, today. Man did they taste good. There seems to be this blank wall, everytime I open my mouth to say something, no one hears it. After awhile, you wisen up(get tired) and stop talking.
OHOH! I was people watching with my bacardi in hand! Spot the gay guys! I love to see how people interact. It's fascinating. "Jane please, no comments like that again, or your officially a summa cum laude geek. Thank you."

Congrats to poks! You've got JANE THE MAGINFICENT's BLESSINGS! LOL! *bask in the glory for 5secs* "okay, party's over people, get yo drunk asses home. Johnny, you'd better be walking!"
Corona tastes like piss without lemon.


Ps. If your thinking about what I feel about you, you can stop thinking because I still love you(: And I prolly wont stop til you slap. English today! Language translation = ERROR, and i wouldnt want the meaning to get lost in translation now would i? You are loved.