I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, January 24, 2009

Enjoy this long one compared to my last few *GRINS*

My my myyyy so many people are angry. Sigh. Hahahaha! Oh my gawd. I'd better shut up before I become assless *snaps out of violent premonitions*

I hope everyone calms down, Jane doesnt like to pick sides, but I'll stand with you if you'd like me to.

Ley please calm down and reply my text! Dammit boy! Your making me angry. Please dont let me get angry.

Calm down baby(NOT ley), it aint the end of the world ya know. Remember your IQ drops when your angry yeah?

Omg. Something retarded popped into my head.
Scenerio: I walk by and accidentially brushes pass a lian.

Lian: OI JIIII BAI CUM BACZ!! OII!
J: you called me?
Lian: Yar. why you step me harh?!
J (hears wrongly): stab you? Huh?
Lian: steeeeh-pppppper you ing-gleesh fail arh?
J: Im sorry for stabbing you. Do you need a wheelchair? or CPR? Sorry I dont do lip to lip with lians.
Lian: you thinks this very funny hor? you wait I cor my jies cum!
J: Holy shit on an altar, please do call.
Lian: what shit what shit! you dont hum ji hum ji lah eeediot!
J: Hahahaha! Sure sure take your time while I go have my lunch over there *points to macs* boy is this girl stupid or stupid. *walks away*
Lian: OI!! CUM. BAK. HERE! Hum ji chao chi bai! kersus(curse) yur marder and whole family die! Translation: (exclaimation in singlish) come back here! coward smelly virgina! Curse your mother and your whole family to death.

Okay not very funny to you when your angry right? Well calm down and you might laugh abit.

Okay fail. Jane your a fucking coward luh. Hahaha! Eh! What! PSHH Im not angry so I sound too soft. HAHAHA Okay Im naturally a gentle person...I think. (Total bullshit Jane, you thought you were an introvert)

NO correction. I am only gentle with the people I love. *has a horrific thought about hurting her* OH HELL NO. I wouldnt bare to let anything scratch her surface, let alone have me harm her.

If all else fails....Chinese New Year is at your doorstep? Heh... heh? *gives a weak pathetic smile*
EEH EEH(rejection button sound) FAIL.

Went to aunty maria's flower shop! Wow. Its crazy how many people buy flowers. And not like me who just buys 25 bucks worth, these people buy 50-60ish bucks worth.

omg. Then this woman was like "oh I need flowers for my batheroom" *Turns around and gives the wtf-face* I guess her shit needs to smell nice scents before they get flushed down the bowl.

Rich people and their weird fetishes. I am not rich thus I dont have weird fetishes. Hmm Im normal.

Okay Im still happy. Lesser things clogging my mind, and she's still on my mind.

You are surprisingly amazing,
perfection in the making.
Can total opposites,
be similar duplicates.

Afterall we are just kids, (continuation if only I get free Gelare waffles from ley)

WHOOOO Dinner was.... L to the O to the USY. Gawd. Al Forno the fucking italian resturant sucks. The food is MEDIOCRE standard, the service is okay. Fine dinning my A to the SS. Margarita(spanish rest) is so much better!

$12 SOUP, $3.5 PIECE OF garlic TOAST, $24 plate of pasta. Total = $39.50 + GST + service charge = $56++ (Thank God its Chinese New Year and my parents are paying) I'd rather go Kuishin bo and pay a good 40bucks for GOOD FOOD.

Yes, I was grouchy and acting likka fucking faggot.

Hey. I know its nearing Chinese New Year and all, but my project work doesnt take breaks, its a total bitch. I know.

My GAY MUSEUM will come to live! I will make it happen, I dont give a shit about self righteous faggots who think being gay is disgusting. Tell it to my face and see what I do to yo ignorant ass.

I miss her now more than ever.




Friday, January 23, 2009

My life is heaven on earth.

My day beats wednesday. Hands down, many times over.

She makes me feel pure euphoria.

Her eyes are unnaturally deep,
but as innocent as sheep.
Her smile is unnaturally natural,
but it's still so fragile.

(here you go ley, I couldnt rhyme tonight)

My brain juice for rhyming is unavailable now, please call back later.

Its funny how people's motives are seen through actions and words. Mine, its my eyes. Hahaha! Its next to impossible for me to look away, not because I refuse to look away, I cant.

Watching every move, analyzing every detail and being totally unable to breathe. Enough of her before I gag and die. Hahaha! Whole new meaning to breathtaking eh?

CNY = new clothes = uhh yippie. My friggin' home is likka hotel luh. My mummy went bonkers buying flowers, chinese new year food(which I totally bleah), and CNY deco.

Daddy's hosting a lot of people. Bleah. Means I have to actually bother about what I wear. Ugh. Troublesome, lazy people freedom being abused.

"Pure kindness was what made them worth that much."

2 songs that are on my playlist.

Breaking my heart by Michael learns to rock
&
First love by Utada Hikaru - this is your song(:




Thursday, January 22, 2009

Bmic tomorrow. *shrugs*

Walking to cheers before hpi test, while walking down the stairs...

Anthea: Jane isnt that?
Jane: Yeah.
Bryan: Jane...
Jane: Yeah I know.
Miley: Jane, sam!
Jane: Yeah Im not blind.
Anthea: wah even without glasses you can tell its her?
Jane: uhh... that hard to tell meh? *eye brow raised*

The rest uhh....not saying.

On a whole, its a good day! *prancing around throwing confetti* Smiled at her, she smiled back. Thats good enough for me, Im happy.

4 hour break. Omg. Hahaha! Killed time by doing psycho tests. Funny. Anthea, lucky and bryan said they were damn accurate for me.

Hahaha! I always thought I was an introvert, but it turns out Im 70% extrovert, 30% introvert.

It said Im not stress while the other 4 people that took it was. Uhh...stress about? Things are very clear to me. Old man jones is decisive and logical, once made up, he rarely flinches.




Wednesday, January 21, 2009

There she stood, waiting for me, looking at me, smiling at me. My day cannot get any better than this.

I wished it never ended, it was heaven on earth.

HPI HPI HPI HPI HPI!




Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Omg. Was eating FROOT LOOPS this morning fo brunch. While happily munching away on the loops, I looked at the box. And pop! No, it didnt become cococrunch. The bloody bird's name is “SAM” I was like ha ha ha you gotta be kidding me right?

My day was good, even though I didnt see the 3 people I wanna see. Its weird, usually I’d be cranky. But nope, Im inna good mood.

Anthea, no matter what happens, just know, I’d be standing right beside you all the way. Uhhh just gimme some toilet break time, might needa pee and shit. HAHAHAHA!

But nevertheless, you dont have to face it alone, you dont have to keep it there, Im always here, with my bottle of “ribena” and my 3 split personas. HAAHAH! Jane white, Jane black and Dick. HAHAHAH!

Uhhh...my day was VERY LONG because of JOSHUA TEO (dunno your chinese name). But I'll tell you people tmr. Tonight I have 2 friends to console, and myself who needs quality time with...myself? O_O

You are one of a kind,
Someone so hard to define.
When you sit there quietly,
Resisting the urge to talk to you so badly.

It starts out like it always does,
Tell myself not too take it too fast.
Now its snail pace,
People gimme some crawlspace!

Waiting waiting waiting,
Just another part of living.
Yet this wait is kinda fun,
Something that many people would shun.

Day after day this grows on me,
But the weather is still sunny.
No rain clouds over her head,
Because baby I’ll be your aid.

I am here to say sorry(even though I see you every other day) my words might have hurt you. My actions might have made you angry. But I realise its not too much of you to ask that of me. Im sorry I said I couldnt be there for you.

After much thought, I persuaded my mind, I will be there for you when you fall, I’ll be there to pick you up, to wait til you found the one, because if I dont, Im not being a good enough friend for you. I let my selfish side(yes I have one too) to get in the way, just make me feel useful and I’ll be there for you baby! *GRINS* Friends dont leave other friends too face it alone.

Anytime you need me, just call(: Just dont call me when Im taking a dump. HAHAHA!




Monday, January 19, 2009

Good day Good day Goooooood day! *GRINS*

Happiness rubs off! My chummy buddies are happy too! True happiness cant be looked for, it comes from within, and the shows through out.

Another boring day filled with boring lecturers giving boring lectures. But *GRINS*...

MUAHAHAHA! Saw her today. *GRINS*

Oh I feel like banging my head on the keyboard after thinking over this morning. Was fooling around with me buddies, then EVERYONE except ME saw sam walking towards us.

*buries face in palms* Well caught sam's lil smirk as she walked away. But still!! Omgggg.... like lanzy says "aiya sam's part of the wall in AS lah!" hahahaha!! BITCH.

God gives me what I want in His time, so I will be patient. Because I know He loves me and He loves to see me happy. Thanks BigG.

"I may fall in and out of love but there is one person I will never fall out of love with, and that person is You."

OH IM GOING INSANE OVER PONYO the lil japanese anime thingy? YES. Omg, so fucking cute luh! OMG. Makes me smile for no apparent reason!! OMG Im totally outta my mind.

Okay Okay pictures I find funny and SIMILAR.

My chummy buddy, Stupid poser.


Today, in CELLB. All sleeping.
Anthea, me, lucky, bryan, eunice&YL(even they slp)


Last thursday CELLB lect, all sleeping again.
See the trend?

"A good heart is better than all the heads in this world."




Sunday, January 18, 2009

"Been there, done that."

Funny, really. How people make more sense to me when their drunk. Yes, you Tricia, you made sense. Hahahah! Considering I've sat through drunk people talk before. Its total gibberish, really.

One question for you(: How sure are you that I want you back?

Part of my heart wanted you back, but my mind wont let me.(can you see why Im pleading with myself?) Nah, you dont have to worry/care about me, people like Anthea and ley keeping me in check, oh Im forgetting my bitch of a past.

Im waiting for you to get over your selfish part, before I tell you who sam or angel is. For reasons being you still like my attention and if my attention were to divert, you wouldnt like it.

I dont hate smokers nor do I hate you.

I hate it when things end bitterly, but if it helps you feel better, then I'll be heartless until your selfish side fades, til then, I cant be there for you.

Okay so today's Sunday again and Sunday spells Jane Day. Okay maybe not.

Been feeling chummy since friday. You caught me in a good mood. Hahaha!! Shuddup ley.

OMG I stumbled over this really hilarious link!! Its a damn hilarious version of haru haru. Go youtube and type "Infinity challenge: Haru Haru MV parody"

HAHAHHA laugh til I cried. Its so fucking contradictory. Go watch go watch. Bet sam would kill me for this.

I like to do things with purposes. Sometimes, its hilarious how I contradickt myself by doing stupid things. YIPPERDY DOE MOTHERFUCKER! Hahahahaha!!

Okay enough of typing I have CSAS presentation to actually give a shit or Joce Lee might just gimme a fucking egg.

"You are the sugar to my tea, the icing on my muffin, the song I'll never get tired of, the sunshine in my world and the apple in my eye. Dont ask me why."