I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Saturday, July 11, 2009

"A rose that can grow anywhere."

Have you ever been in a traffic jam and have a major stomach ache before? Yes well I wished I was dead too.

I seriously need to stop buying novels. I bought 2 more on impulse. Like people(me) say, "doing things on impulse will be something you'll regret."



I can 100%-ly tell you I am not a bimbo(No, I'm not in denial). I just like the way Sophie Kinsella writes, it's got a really light hearted tone(i love light heartness) and she potrays her characters very well.

I watched DragonBall today. What a load of nonsense. I wasted one hour plus plus plus of my life. Prolly had some glycogen converted into lipids. Goku isn't an angmoh kid! Bullocks.

Well enough of my verbiage, the poem y'all been waiting for, I mean I've been waiting....pshhhh!

You're Not The Best, But You're My World

My world seems brighter with you,
Some days I make it through,
But other days are just cruel,
Because I want no one but you.

Thinking of you, my heart skips a beat,
Baby with you my world feels complete,
Even now, your scent is still so sweet,
With you the world can take the back seat.

Looking at you, my mind goes insane,
It's hard to keep these feelings contained,
Even now the pain runs through my veins,
And only you can take away the pain.

You know that walking away from you,
Is the hardest thing for me to do,
Having to resist your magnetic pull,
When you come back, can we play the fools?

Song of the day: What Makes You Different by Backstreet Boys



I know sometimes you feel,
Like you don't fit in,
And this world doesn't know,
What you have within.

What makes you different makes you beautiful to me




Friday, July 10, 2009
Jane has some growing up to do.

"Pull me down hard and drown me in love."

Note: ytd's post is below this one.

Lemme see where to start. I was late for school because I woke up late because I slept so late it was early. Why? Daddy's bday Dinner then movie then supper, by which time it's 3am then drags my ass out of bed at 8:45 and dies.

I suppose I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, because A LOT of people got on my nerves today, those who were smart, excused themselves from me before my fuse blew and all hell broke loose.

Bitch mode in overdrive. Be afraid, be very afraid.

HOW DARE YOU BALANTLY LIE TO MY FACE? I trusted you. You fooled me once but I still trusted you, what a big mistake that was. Second time now. You have LOST all my trust.

How dare you call yourself my buddy?! Get out of my face. Go, go crawl into the corner where you and your lies belong.

This is personal integrity and you've showed me you have NONE, whatsoever. I hope you know the kind of bitch I can be when you trifle with my trust.

Like Anthea says, "Lies have short legs, they don't run far." Don't be dumb and try to lie to me when your tail is tapping on my feet. Wait til I take it and beat your brains out!



On a whole, not a bad day. Hahaha! We stayed back to do up the GIG board, God save the queen world.OH! Lanzy joined GIG! WHEE! We get to crap around! Please man, Mr Lim was happy I found him an FSN member until he um chio!

I know I said I'll post a friggin' poem, but it's upstairs in my room and I really don't feel like moving til I wanna faint of exhuastion on my bed. I haven't exactly refined it, because I was honestly reading my bimbo book!

It is really good! Or is it because I have a vivid imagination and I picture the scene to be hilarious. Hint: HMV is selling Shopaholic books 2 for $18(: Awesomeness comes in twos!

Song of the day: Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson
Can you believe that this song was in my ipod since forever yet I didn't bother listening to it? LISTEN CAREFULLY.



I miss the sound of you voice,
Loudest thing in my head.
And I ache to remember,
All the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said.

Because everything works in your arms




FOOOOOOOOOOOD POST

This is for yesterday's post.

HAPPY BITHDAY DADDY!
(yesterday)

Even though, your temper is unrivalled, your impatience is legendary, your colourful vocabulary is a rainbow, but your love is one of a kind. No one cares more about me than you and mummy! I miss your goodnight kisses on my forehead, I love you daddy! (money please! LOL)

We went to Peach Garden at Thompson! Opposite Novena Church! Pictures below.

For daddy's birthday breakfast, we went to his favourite prawn mee near katong. Shiok! We eat it every sunday anyway. HAHAHAH!

Then bday dinner! One word, SHIOK. A la carte buffet! "$38++" per person on the menu, but the bill came up to $50 per person. But it was awesome! Pictures and my harsh ratings.


I was like "I wanna be a child now!"


Mummy's shark's fin soup. Ewwwww, I don't like shark's fin soup.


My soup may not be sharks fin! DONT LOOK DOWN ON IT! It's damn tasty! That orange thing is a papaya. Yes, a papaya. 6/10 taste. (smoothe, rich, has a weird fruit)


Wasabi prawns! They serve five each plate. We ordered it like 2 times before saying "Can you just give 10 on one plate?" 7/10 taste(considering I don't eat prawns, it's nice)


Pork ribs in tangy sauce! Not very nice. 2/10 taste. (sour, hard, not my type)


black pepper DEER MEAT(fo real) it tastes like beef. 7.5/10 taste. (chewy, sweet onions)


Indonesian style prawns. I didn't touch this, didn't wanna get my Alain Figaret shirt dirty!


Uh. I don't know what its called in english but in Hokkien it's Sa zhang bah. (3 layer pork) 5.5/10 taste. (tender, melts in mouth, too sweet)


Deep fried tofu stuffed with mushrooms and prawn thingy. 4/10 taste. (because of mushrooms)


11/10 taste! (fresh, tasty, sweet, love it!)
(half way eating it I realised I haven't taken a picture) MY FAVOURITE, I ordered 2(whole fish) and finished it MYSELF. Soon Hok with special soy sauce! YUMMY! We ordered like 4 of that!


SECOND FAVOURITE! Seaweed tofu with spinach in egg sauce! WHEE! 9.5/10 taste (i love tofu, enough said)


I forgot to take the roasted chicken! Oops. Deer meat goodness!


DESSERT! Okay that's mummy's. Some royal jelly with coconut.


James and my dessert! Yum yum!

I didn't feel full until I stood up. I swear, I had to prop myself up with two arm strength, otherwise I'd fall flat on my face. The food is good, the service(they change my plate after every dish!! OMG?!) is good, the price is also good(3digits are awesome!).

PEACH GARDEN, a la carte buffet. Worth the money if you are hungry. They really didn't earn much from us because James, Mummy, Daddy and I didn't eat lunch. John still ate more than I wished I could. Overall: 8.5/10 (I will spend money on quality food)




Wednesday, July 8, 2009

"Been waiting for you to turn around and smile."

My baby turtle passed on)': Lucky my daddy knowing my soft spot for animals, didn't let me see him. Still remember when Fat Boy(hamster) died, my eyes were puffy the next day.

I feel like crying even more now! Curse the cuticle that sticks out of my finger and gets trapped in stuff! PAIN LIKE NO HELL's BUSINESS. Worse of all, I HAVE THREE FINGERS LIKE THAT!



MAKE 'EM STOP! Yes Jane, stop talking. HAHAHAH!

Oh I'm really thanking God I don't have school tomorrow, a few reasons. One, Daddy's birthday! Two, I'm tired of travelling to school. Three, I'm tired of dragging my ass out of bed at 7.15am. Four, I wanna read my bimbo book!

I am sucha bum.

I will write a poem tomorrow. I have time to iron out my thoughts, TRY to comprehend these feelings and catch up on my work. Except I have to fit in daddy's birthday breakfast and dinner.

Song of the day: Not Your Enemy by Jesse McCartney



How do you expect things to get any better,
If you keep me on the sidelines,
Don't you know there's a million things I want to do.

You got to meet me halfway, you gotta try.




Tuesday, July 7, 2009
crumpling like paper

"You don't have to worry about losing me, I'd never leave you behind."

Slap me now, just slap me. I was reading up for Fpath tutorial test. Miley already found out and told us what to study for. Aaaand I can still happily study the not tested things. I broke another boundary, the stupidity one.

Oh I'm sucha bag fulla tricks! Way to go, you just decreased your own IQ by like 10points Jane! You dumbded yourself! Hurray! *prances around the room*

Whoa. Is it me or is it everyone's confessing they're gay? I'm an exception. When it's (Miley + apron) x 2 = Jane is 100% queer gay. Ew. Stewpid motherkutu.

But I am gay. Anyone wanna be my gay partner? Hahaha! I've been reading debates against homos, the only two strong points are, "It's against nature" and "It's morally wrong". I'm incorrigible and depraved. Now can I be gay?

And both points can be rebuked. Former, what if one day I induced the fact that gays are normal and striaghts are not. Latter, different people have different morals and believes, different mindsets and different opinions.

Humans are all equal. Aren't gays and straights still humans? Think about it. But I seriously couldn't give a shit what people think about me being gay. Hahaha! Why should I care what they think?


Like this picture? I googled it. *feels smart* LOL!

I am so not happy. Jack and Rai!! WHY?!?! ): I have exhuasted all of my song pirates(friends) and search engines to find "Take Me As I Am" by Jack and Rai. Don't bother youtubing it. I ran through all the vids myself.

It's the ending song of Channel5's 8pm-830pm drama, "Red Thread", the ending song. I like the song): Find that song, I'll bow down and kiss your feet.

Song of the day: Stay Close, Don't Go by Secondhand Serenade



Don't tell me I'll make it on my own,
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink til it dies.

My heart's putting up a fight.




Monday, July 6, 2009
BIMBO ALERT?! (false alarm)

"Take my hand, believe in me and I will show you a world only for you and me."

Today was hilarious! I guess my spirit's back! Well about time dammit! How long could your vacation take huh?? Hahaha! Yes, yes, back to my laughing, joking, crapping around me.

I just broke the boundary. Bow down to my madness. I actually caught myself SOBBING to a not very sad channel8 drama! This one was seriously not sad. Can't be third puberty right?! *goes nuts*

Why do I have this strong GUT feeling, that I'm going to become Rebecca Brandon from Shopaholic? HAHAHA! Yesterday night I was laughing my ass literally off while having my bedtime reading time.

Becky is seriously hilarious. Her husband's likka preoccupied sotong and she's this mega shopper person, who buys everything and if she wants something, she must have it otherwise she'll just drop dead, literally.


Now I know this may SOUND & LOOK like a chick flick book! But it's hilarious! I'm just glad I'm back to my daily reading habit. Okay that makes me a certified nerd D8

Okay I was talking to sylvie on facebook. Which reminded me of how like 3/4 of the level was convinced I liked her. HAHAHAHA! What a joke, okay it's really old now. I was 100% STRAIGHT in an all girls school! My life is such a funny one.

And I looked into my photos and started laughing at this picture. The mustache craze! Enjoy yourself.





Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand enough of Pig, Kailan and Mina! They're hoggin' the show! Hahaha! Nahh. I wanna turn in early. Ciao!

Song of the day: Shape Of My Heart by Backstreet Boys



Got nothing to hide no more,
I don't know where to start,
But to show you the shape of my heart.

Really, let me show you things only lovers dreamed off.




Sunday, July 5, 2009
Pang Sai pictures part 2.

My second part! But I'll need to have a third part, I've got tonnes from barcelona. HAHAHAH!

Day 7, Lourdes still, France.

PAELLAS! My favourite type of spanish dish! I'll start out with FOOD.






After the two processions we attended. Cold Cola helps heal the FEET and the throat!

Day8, Carcassone, France.

Our hotel was like 5 star hotel! Omgosh. Bar included! D8






Look at the fingers, they say it all!


The world heritage site was just BEHIND the hotel's bar! NICE VIEW during drinking!


Inside wasn't fantastic but it was culturally interesting.




Meet fat sleeping cat. I love him! He entertained me while mummy was checking in. Then went STRAIGHT back to sleep.


After the castle visit, we went around the town.


High class restuarants have ugly looking food, but it tasted DELICIOUS.


Lao sai. Hahaha! My dessert, chocolate mousse! MM MM GOOOD.


Went for drinking withe Dennis and my aunt!


Slept at 3:35am, woke up at 7:00am for a long car ride to SPAIN!

Day9, i think, Barcelona, Spain.

Driving there.


Mummy rented an apartment from a French person who lived in Spain(irony?)


We wanted to feel how is it like to live in Spain like locals.


Nugget's cameo! He's the cutest.


FIRST DINNER IN SPAIN! WONDERRRRRFUL!! The tapas were AWESOME! I ate the prawns D8 and the blacky things in the back were spanish mushrooms! TASTIEST MUSHIES! And garlic bread and clams.


Our baldy server was damn nice and entertaining! He was shocked that I could speak to him in spanish! HAHAHA!


I was accidentally said, "I want a BIG fish" in spanish and the fish was 1/3 of the table length. OOPS?! But it was totally fresh! Like they just killed the fish and cooked it kinda fresh!

Day10, Barcelona, sway day.

PUNCTURED! Daddy uh daddy!


The spanish people at the cafe we sat at to wait for the tow truck helped us. But they weren't useful at all. Oh wells! At least they tried right?


The lil boy was like hugging my leg when I had to leave. His mummy was like "he likes you!" and she too was surprised I spoke spanish. Okay all of them were.


Cola again.


Dennis and I walked around the place and there was this famous church near by. I LOVE IT.


Meet bird shit car. I was laughing my ass off. The birdies love this car A LOT, in fact, too much!


Walked back and the tow truck still wasnt here. Me playing with my camera.


Annnnnnd fix the tire!


Made it back in time for the Marina's live performances! Oh I couldn't get enough of it!




Daddy and aunty made dinner! YUMMY!


Ground ZERO.

I started with food, I'll end with food. No more food actually. Hahaha! Post will be tonight! CIAO!