I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Nothing will ever last if you dont make the effort.

Im going to spend some time babbling about something I know half of you people reading(especially Janey) wont understand. But here goes nothing. This is the first time and last I will ever raise this topic for discussion again.

Here goes nothing...

Why do you are you angry at me? Have I done something to hurt your heart? I didnt say you werent the one for me. I didnt tell you that other people were hotter or cuter than you. But the moment you dropped those 2 metal things in my palm, how can you expect me to show you the same attention, the same love, the same smile as I did before?

Why do you feel decieved? How did I break your heart? How can you say I decieved you? My intentions was so clear and so was my mind. When I said the things I said to you, I meant it. When I was with you, I thought of no one else, only you. I looked at no one else, only you. I dont understand, what did I do to make you feel decieved. Please, tell me.

Why do you feel cheated? I didnt say things I did not mean. I did not do things I did not mean. I never had any intention of hurting you. I wanted the world for you, I wanted all that was good for you. Most of all, I wanted you. What have I taken from you?

Why cant you talk to me? I wanted to understand you, I wanted so many things for you, I wanted to surprise you for your birthday because you scarificed your time for mine, I wanted to... but when it ended, I can no longer bring myself to pick up and continue. So I cut everything off, I was disappointed you couldnt experience it. This isnt to spike you or hurt you, this is an ernst confession.

Im not angry at you, Im disappointed with myself. I dont blame you for anything, I know you did things for me too. I know, and I love them, just like how I wore the band you gave me everyday. When I said, "you cant piss me off, love." I mean it, you cant, no matter what you do you will always be that soft spot, I cared for you, and I still do.

The end.


Today was alright.

Noon was best though. I hung out with my bestie, lanzy. HAHAHAHA! So I was sitting at As with lanzy's 10people clique...gawd. Their nice people, get along well with all of em. Then something random flew into my mind.

Which made me think, "wheres that piece of ham?", the next thing I knew. Someone(wasnt looking up) grazed my foot...not to mention dirtying my already dirtied shoe. I was annoyed because ... yeahhhh... then I gave the person my death ray snare. HAHAHAHHA! It turned out to be that piece of walking ham.

The piece of ham gave me an apologetic smile. Yes, my face totally changed. Of course, I couldnt be angry whattt....do I look that fucking petty? Lanzy dont say anything. PSSSHHHH C'mon. HAHAHAHAH! I kid I kid.

Miley makes me wanna hug him. I was like "miley, aint you shocked Im bi?", his reply was the reply I'd give to my besties, so its of some standard. His reply was, "Nope, why should I be? It doesnt change the person I know you to be. You are still you." Since then, I realised that, miley's a friend to have, and a friend I wont give up on so easily. Someone who can see pass this trait of mine, deserves my respect.

Next person on my list to kill and bastard.
A fucking faggot. Eh motherfucker. You bastard me once, bastard me twice. Bastard me behind my back to my GOOD FRIENDS? You do know your digging your own fucking grave right? My friend list spreads further than your gay fuck voice. I smile and not say anything because I pitied you for having sucha gay fuck voice and life. But now, hoho. YOU CAN GO FUCK TO HELL. Next time I see you, your gonna wish you were burning in hell along with your dickless voice. Dont worry, you can have your laugh now, I will have my chance to torment you, til then, I will slowly tear your miserable life apart. Basket, you might be my senior but I have no respect for you. Sherie, not you.