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I'll bleed this skyline dry
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Hear Me Out
I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around. I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion. I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(: "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8
Complains?
Music
Cover on my heart by Guy Sebastian
Go find yourself and listen:D Skeletons of My Closet
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Friday, December 5, 2008
Fly away.
Gawd. I really want to shut my eyes, close it hard, and when I open it, I want everything to just disappear.Im not depressed, Im just....short of words. I really am driving myself insane. Dont worry, Im not crumbling, I just dont feel like speaking. I am, conflicted. Its not about people, its about the situation that the people are in. Im just standing by the side spectating. I dont want to pick between two halves of me, and I dont. I wont say whose right or wrong because I love them all. And if I love someone, I do no harm to them. I dont want to piss anyone off, I dont want to hurt anyone, I just want, peace. Gawd, Im so sick of getting angry and being angry. I want to slap myself for doubting Sam for 5 minutes. But after miley told me something, that made me miss trusting that the person would never do sucha thing. I feel crapper-licious. My head's in the right place, my heart's in the wrong place. Im so tired of fify. Shes a spoilt brat, and I let her be this way. I spoil my heart, its alright. I deal with the consequences. I see no point in scolding fify, whats done is done. If you people dont know already, fify is my heart, old man jones is my brain. Aside of all the crap. Went to some fish farm today with poks, anthea and bryan. Bryan wanted to get fishes for his tank. HAHAHAHA! Got tons of pictures of weird fishes, but too lazy to load them. Dinnered with anthea. I like dinners with anthea cause we talk about problems. Ive got nothing to hide but everything to lose, but I trust her. Tomorrow, Janey, lanzy and I are going to have a nice long talk. My bestests need to be filled in. Dont worry, those of you who think I speak bad of you(: Im not angry at anyone now. If only life was so simple. Black and white, like how my brain sees things. No grey scale. If your not angry with the person, your really not. If your not sad with something, your really not. If your not happy with the person, your really not. I feel abnormal being that kinda person. If I say its not you, its really not you. If I say Im not angry, I really am not. If I say Im unhappy, I really am unhappy. Would you believe me if I told you, "I wont hurt you, I really have no intention off hurting you." or would you still think I'd hurt you? Lesley, dont answer this, I know your answer already. The Hell song by Sum41, fits my mood now. Best line of the day, "ROCK IS DEAD. PAPER KILLED HIM." |