I'll bleed this skyline dry
Hear Me Out

I like to give excuses for everything and anything. If Im not in the mood to do anything, I idle around.

I let my friends say as they please, but that don't mean I agree with what they say. I just accept that its their opinion.

I can be an ass hole. I can be the nicest person on earth. Just depends on who you are(:

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." -Matthew 5:8

Complains?
Wednesday, December 31, 2008

HOLYSHIT ONNA PLATER!!

HO HO HO. Today I fucking stayed back in school til 12pm just fo BMIC tut. Best thing. THERE WAS NO FUCKING TUTORIAL, JUST COLLECT THE FUCKING TEST PAPER. No, Jane totally is cool bout that. PSHHH I just missed .... *mumbles something*

Played HEARTS(no I dont play with hearts). Fucking addicktive luh. Its more addicktive than bloody alcohol(not literally). One round after the other, just keep playing and playing. Couldnt stop. Hahahaha! I gamble and drink. Totally healthy lifestyle I'd say, totally.

Spent my whole afternoon with lanzy, wondering around aimlessly, lemme stress, aimlessly. Yes, I did. But its always fun. Fucking funny piece of veggie.

I just want to apologise to my church buds for ditching you guys tonight, its fun and all. But I seem to want my alone time. Its fucking last day of 2008, my favourite year since 2003, I just want to savour whats left of it, please.

On further thought, I think Imma stay at home. Home gives me, fuzzy feelings, alcohol(ribena), peace and quiet, and no fucking sticky ass clowns screaming their lung's mucus lining out into my face.

Sorry church buddies and sorry piggy-manda-sheryl-JY and lastly, sorry bacardi breezer you have to be in 7-11 for a little while longer.

*goes away and msg my ass off, coming up with fucked up excuses (i.e. I got diarrohea.)* hahahaha!

Besides, I wanna watch little Nyonya. I just started watching yesterday and Im hooked. HAHAHAH! Laugh go on, laugh. Its nice okay! OH THE NOOSE IS FUCKING HILARIOUS. I watched and laughed my ass off.

WARNING. LONGER POST AHEAD. If you people got nothing to do then continue to read, if you need to take a shit. Please do it first.

I decided to cancel my plans and dedicate this sincerely to the people I type this for. PSHHH even me, needs me personal time and I figured, while everyone is out, I'll stay home and snuggle up with myself(:

2008. I will always smile on this year, even if I've fought with some of my bestests, flared up at gay guys, insulted picodicks, got glared at by lians, fell for the girl of my dreams(yes Im bi), made 4new besties, endured heart-wrenching moments, enjoyed some wild shit.

And they said I was a wild child, I started out a whimp in the beginning of the year, dreading it as I left secondary school, not wanting 2008 to start at all. Gawd I wish I could turn back time and relived those moments and not take them for granted. Im sorry.

Well lets not talk about picodick or the lianz, if you like, the previous post says it all. Your glares made me realise how ignorant this world can be, thank you. But I cant say I love you thou, cause I dont.

4 new besties, Anthea, Miley, Poks and lucky. You've made 2008 a really fun and entertaining year for me. All our drunk escapades, weird shopping adventures, crazy truth&dares, gut-droppingly hilarious inside jokes and most of all THE WORST UNGLAM MOMENTS JANE LEE HAS EVER ENDURED, from witnessing me prancing around into the doors to tripping head first into glass notice boards. Last but never least, being there for me to spill inner secrets. Life would never be the same without you buggers witnessing my MOST UNGLAM MOMENTS OF KODAK HISTORY. I love you all, one and only's. *tries to go mushy and fails flat* Hahahaha!

To my existing besties and buddies, Lanzy, Janey, piggy, sheryl, lisbeth, lesley, matt, and beloveds. I cannot thank you enough for giving me a shit time on my birthday and for the years before and after 2008. The amount of things I'd do for you people are endless.

To lanzy my crazy ass partner in all sorta crimes, from mugging ME of money to training for 2.4 and running slower than mrs tay's GRANDMOTHER to fucking $5(exc GST) soup, you've never failed to put a smile on my face. HAHAHAHAH! I love you.

To piggy, my outrageous char siew. What would the char siew bao duo be without the char siew? HAHAHA just another bao you'd find. You've been outside of A. Lim's class with me along with lanzy for 6months(no kidding) and we still managed to snag a distinction in SOCIAL STUDIES for O's to laugh it off in A.Lim's face. I love you.

To Janey, though we drifted from sec3 to 4-ish. You'd still be my caring lil angel. And I'd gladly endure your daily mood swings, hahahahha! Bet me to my bottom dollar you will "TSK MIANZY!" at me tomorrow. Thats after you read this. I love you.

To sheryl, dont worry, I will "mai sia lan ah bao!" HAHAHAHA! You've made me laugh so hard when you diss janel. HAHHAHA! "Janel ah you look rather... *pause for 5secs* rather ugly today." Omg. The times that will go down in MOST BLUNT disses history. I love you.

To lisbeth, fucking dicky dickensen. HAHAHA fucking hilarious luh sec4. Glad your my shit buddy in CHINESE with LI LAO TER(inside joke) breathing down our necks, "Lee Jia Hui he Ng Min Er ni men bu yao gen wo wan wan ah! Wo send ni men que RTC!(trans: Lee Jia Hui and Ng Min Er you both dont come and play play with me ah! I send you to RTC!-retard/recreational/redundant thinking classroom-aka detention)" HAHAHAH! I love you

To lesley, you are more than just another guy friend, heck call yourself my "boy-friend" for all I care. You are the best guy friend and girl could ask for, cept if you'd just stop calling me YELLOW RANGER and a QUEER-METRO-BISEXUAL(wtf does it mean again?) DAMMIT! RAWR! HAHAHAH! I love you.

To matt, you motherfucking piece of horseshit. HAHAHAHAH! Nothing more to say than your advice is likka girl. "YOU GAY?!" HAHAHAHAH! No no you really did give me solid advice even though I knew you hated the idea of me being gayish. You were still my friend true til the very end, for that, I love you.

PARENTS:

You guys have been the best parents any child could ask for. No matter how many cold wars I wage against you two old folks. You never failed to leave me alone, you never failed to care, you never let me use my handphone at the dinner table. HAHAHAHA! Like you once told me, "normal-not-famous parents like ourselves, we cant leave behind big names or historic imprints. The only thing that we truely leave behind in this world, are our children. Children that will one day mould the future generation, and that before we leave this earth, our children will be able to stand with their two feet and make a difference in this world, with values and virtues that will one day be handed down to the next generation." No one in history has ever been able to move me as well as my parents, not literally luh but you know what I mean. They mean the world to me, they are the only ones I have. People, dont take your parents for granted, you only have one father and one mother, no one else could ever fill their shoes. I love you now and forever.

Throughout 2008, 2 people crushed my world. One was so close to me, it hurt. The other was equally important, but it was a mutual parting I guess. Just so you know, your words were like knives piercing my heart, every word you spat at me was as painful as it was before. But no worries, Im stronger, I SURVIVED it aisoku. You look likka fucking hobo(homeless bum) now idate! What happen to the hairstyle I did for you?! LOL Thank you and I love you, you made a whole new person, its hard to be jealous of any guy after you. HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Honest man, you are the perfect boyfriend for any girl but me. I will keep my promise to you dear one.

And last but never least, girl of my dreams. They say the first is most precious, and I fully agree with that. First girl. You've given me memories that no boy can come anywhere close to. You made smiling easy and breathing hard. In a sense, you've fill that lil piece I've been missing out all this time. But I guess as time went by, we both figured that "crazy love" didnt really exist. Hahahaha! You did something for me, you helped me achieve, "Get the girl of your dreams" striked off the list of things to achieve before I die. Thank you(: I love you bum.

2009 wants:

New chucks, attempt to study harder by actually doing the homework, get ashley greene in my bed- eh in my bed doesnt mean anything BAD(!!), show compassion and understanding-afterall thats all Ethel Koh(teacher) wants Jane to be LOL, get me my new ipod, continue to love my friends-all of them, and last of all, be happy, for happiness can be found in all places.

This is a poem for no one in particular. So its not italized or red.

Learn to treasure what you have.

Where my tears use to fall,
Now my drool conquers it all.
The pain I use to feel,
Its now starting to heal.

The sun will always shine,
For you my face will too anytime.
There is nothing to fear,
I will always be here.

Everyday that passes,
I will live it to the fullest.
There will always be a tomorrow,
So let go of the sorrow.

If you should ever fall,
Just know I’ll be with you through it all.
Even when the world abandons you,
Let the light shine through for you.

There will be no mountain too high,
no ocean too wide,
no obstacle too hard,
For me to be by your side.

You have a little place in my heart,
Your my precious pop tard.
Delicious all around and warm inside,
Something so hard to fight.

Teach me the measure of love.

Soundtrack:

Take your sweet time by Jesse McCartney

Hate(I really dont like you) by Plain white T's

To self: I love the time we spent alone, I think I'd like some peace and quiet now love. My brain, heart, spleen and tolerance needs to recover. I love you.